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Anyways, I want to summarize all my legal demands in one place. (This is also for my records. I am going to make a copy of this and post it on the wall of my house to always refer to. And it will be in my future legal complaint. My faxes to Wayne County Probate Court and if I submit my legal complaint in other ways.) It's hard to file legal demands because my case doesn't officially exist. Neither does the damage to me, by at least all of my doctors. Most of them agree I have never damage to my feet (and hands, I discovered myself) and neuropathy. But some of them don't, some of them contradict themselves, and none them agree to some things. Most deny I have Cerebral Palsy. Although some do now. (And I am still trying to figure out what that last one is even all about.)

1.) I want all forced medication to stop, and I refuse to all of it now. I want my full, informed consent restored. I will take only what medicines I agree to, with the full knowledge of the harms and risks, including any damage done in the past and where I stand now with all of that. And I want my full, informed consent restored immediately. I can't wait for the court, Eric and some people to stop lying to me, while damage is being done and my condition seems to be worsening. They will restore it now, before more damage is done, and I am left to deal with it as I am entering old age.

2.) I want all the secrecy to end now. Most of it has been revealed to me anyways. Most of the people in my life now freely admit Eric is my legal guardian and he was made my legal guardian without my knowledge or consent in 2011, after my father died. All the forms online say he isn't, any legal organization that I contact says their information says he isn't, when I reach out to the court they still strongly deny he is or ever was. And yet most of the people in my life freely admit he is, and they freely admit that I am permanently damaged. And one doctor told me neuropathy has no cure and always follows a predictable course. I have it in my feet and legs, and so that means I will be a quadriplegic some day thanks to them. And they knew about all this by the time I was having symptoms like hair loss on my legs and things suddenly slipping out of my hands. (And this was around the time the police were still trying to take my car away from me, and have me get my prescriptions at that drug store in my neighborhood. Until that guard was shot there in 2014. That could have been me.)

And the police seem to be part of some secret fraternity that does things like watch mentally ill people, even when they are just minding their own business. And then do things like try to take away their cars, even though they are good drivers. And be part of this system to forcibly medicate them, to the point of almost maiming and crippling them. Because they think they know better than doctors and they think that their opinion trumps that of people in the medical profession. Some say that sounds paranoid. But as you can see above in what I wrote, most of the people in my life are now freely admitting to it all. And I am going to spend the rest of my life investigating and exposing it. I'd rather spend it living at home independently, driving and having a peaceful, quality existence. But it seems those above don't want to have that.

3.) And I want all the above and anyone else who knowing took part in this, really from my childhood on I discovered in 2011, to be held responsible for this legally. Held responsible to the fullest extent of the law. After they did what they did, the way they did it, how they flaunted what they did, and contempt for the law and my safety and well-being, for years and years and years. Criminally liable, that way. And I want and expect them to pay civil damages and compensation to me, to live the rest of my life in peace. The way I described above, not in some group home where I'd have none of that. I expect them to make full amends to what they did to me and how they left me, and ensure my life doesn't end tragically, like it was destined to do before I exposed all of this. I expect the police to make sure I can always drive and have a car. And I will make that part of my legal demands in whatever way I can. It will always be one of those three talking points that I will never stop repeating. And I expect all of this to be exposed. Along with whoever else they hurt, and what they did to them.

I grew up in a culture and class that always sided with the police. I guess that culture and class was middle class America. But as time went on my views started to slowly change. One of the first news events that did this was a story that came out when I was in grade school or HS. A policeman was guilty of some serious crime. Murder I think. And he said, okay I was found guilty. But you can't send me to prison. I'd be abused there by inmates seeking retaliation. I can't go to prison, I'm a police officer. And I thought to myself. You can't go to prison? For that? I think you can. And then more news stories came out and became of more issues involving the police and what some of them do.

All I know is my argument, legal and in other ways, will always be the same. And if I keep bringing up, in every situation I am in. No one seems to be listening to me now, but some people will. If I was ever driven to thoughts of suicide it was not because I am suicidal or prone to desperation, it was because of the abuse. The abuse that I was subjected to by the police, among others. And since the police worked for so long to take away my driving ability. Even thought I am a very good driver with a valid license. All of that in a city where most people don't bother to get insurance. And where there is all kinds of lawlessness and abuse. All while they focused on me minding my own business and just trying to do things like live my life and take walks in parks when I felt down. They will make sure I always have it. Through civil damages or whatever else I can bring up. I don't know how that would even work because now everyone is ignoring me and my case doesn't even exist. And even if I wasn't denied all access to the legal system, it's not like I could afford any attorney for a civil matter like that. But we'll see like I said.

And I'm still trying to figure out how my Cerebral Palsy fits into all of this. I noticed these problems all my life. And my adulthood I also figured there must be something physically wrong with me too. All the damage and all the other problems I now face, including being alone, having no financial means of dealing with some of these things and my old age, will be complicated by that. So I will always bring it up with all the rest. And I will always say how I think they all fit together. They do, because they show a pattern of abuse, a pattern of unequal treatment, how low people in my life would stoop to with all of that, and how my life will always be challenged by that. Especially if I want to live independently at home, driving as I say. Since people wanted to take all of that away from me for years. And now they may get their wish.

And the nurse practitioner at that new place said something the last time I saw her. She said I have to remain on that Olanzapine no matter how much it damages me. She said there was a very small chance, about 40%, even a low dose could damage me. Like I told her, statistically that is about half. And I am not a doctor, but it has been proven to damage me. So therefore that would probably closer to 100% for me. Why isn't anything being done and why does this continue? In two or three years nothing has been done. And the damage has been known for 15 years. In all that time nothing has been done. I gained weight for the first time in my life, my body metabolism was definitely changing by late 1994. That's over 30 years even. And nothing is being done, and I am left damaged, with my independence and safety in jeopardy, hopeless and alone, and no one who cares. And she says that, meaning Eric still wants to continue the damage it is doing to me. Why? I have never been a danger to myself or others. And who is going to pay for all the expensive care and other things I'll need that way? For about 15 years I've been telling others that Eric certainly won't be my chauffeur, like some people thought. And he certainly wouldn't help with those other things either. He's left me for good because I have been complaining too much.

And now we're at a critical stage in all of this. The damage is permanent. And it is endangering my health and mobility, my ability to be independent and care for myself. And be in danger without a car, Detroit and Dearborn police. Now there is a real chance I could lose the ability to drive one for good. The symptoms in my feet and hands got worse a year or two ago. And now in the past couple of months they seem to have gotten more worse. And I refuse all that treatment and all of the damage that it is doing to me now. I refuse it and I want it all to end now, along with the secrecy. It has gone way, way too far. And we are entering my older years. I will have to deal with all that I just said as an old man. And Eric and police certainly aren't going to take care of me as an old man. They don't feel responsible for what they do ever or who they hurt. And they must have done this to others. Like I said, I noticed the car issue with other mental patients and people with disabilities even in 2004.

This stupidity has to end now. The damage can prevented now, right at this moment. And now others know of it too. And I demand it end, immediately. And I want all those involved in it held accountable, to the fullest extent of the law. Or at least exposed. And the police and other secret guardians held accountable and exposed, so people know that this is going on and what they did to other people. I want this all to end now, I am not waiting any longer.

EDIT: And I also need special care for my Cerebral Palsy. For all many number one and number two issues I've had all my life. My doctors tell me they could lead to serious medical matters down the road if I just don't clean the right way and do other things related to them. Plus now that Eric, that court, and police have permanently damaged me, I am going to have a whole host of other issues I would have never had before that come from my Cerebral Palsy and will be complicated by my Cerebral Palsy, from what I've read. What I've read, because my doctors won't tell me anything about that. They are in denial mode about that and evasive when I ask for the simplest advice. I should have been treated for this, my Cerebral Palsy, long ago. And like one doctor said, it was obvious early on I had it. And now I have to deal with it into my old age, along with all problems those people caused me with it. All while they kept it hidden from me for decades.

And the issue of physical damage has come up before. Actually in 1988 and 9 at Oakwood Hospital in Dearborn. They psychologically tortured me for over a year, all the while saying numbers are harmless. They don't mean anything. But my 2011 therapist said that those things really happened. Numbers aren't harmless, they were used deliberately and to abuse me. Strange that I didn't have support with that idea till 2011. And they did more at Oakwood Hospital in 1988 and 9. Their horrible abuse led to suicidal ideation. July 6, 1988 was the first time I thought suicide was the only viable option and started planning it and trying out ideas that night. That never happened before, they alone were responsible for it. And when I attempted suicide the night of July 16, 1989, most of the things I swallowed did no harm. Shaving lotion and tincture of iodine. But I also swallowed a large handfull of herbal iron tablets. And for the longest time after that one of my liver enzymes was a little elevated. Right away I thought due to that, because I never had that problem before then. My liver enzyme was elevated for at least several years. (But now my doctor tells me I don't have that problem anymore, it has somehow corrected itself.) Oakwood Hospital may have led to liver damage in 1989. But there was nothing I could do about it, because people told me I was imagining things. I was never abused like that before. Abused like Dr. Bazini did July 8, 1989 with that bizarre family meeting with him. Where he pretended to be part of the evil conspiracy, leading directly to my July 16th suicide attempt. I tried right away to tell people, but there was no one to listen and people claimed it was all in my mind anyways. And then Sinai-Grace hospital started a new form of abuse in April 2004. I told them I was having irrational fears I'd be arrested on made-up or trumped up charges. I never told them I broke the law though, and I was open and honest with them, telling them everything that happened when I got to their psychiatric ward. But instead of reassuring me right after I attempted suicide, they started interrogating me and telling me they viewed me with suspicion. That, and a lot of other weird stuff around me that my present therapist also hints is not my imagination, led to seven years of suicidal ideation. Which like 1989 and April 2004, and many times in my life when I was deliberately abused like this, and it wasn't just all in my mind like people would say then, could have ended tragically and almost did on a couple of occasions.

I think it's time for responsibility. Legal responsibility for all involved, for all the horrible things they did to me. The permanent damage it did do, and that I am left with, now that I am an old man. And all the other abuse and the way they flaunted it because they knew there was nothing I could do about it. Legal responsibility for all involved, no matter how much they knew. If they knew what they were doing was illegal or wrong, that's enough. And with the police, there is a record of much of what I said. Like that bizarre incident in winter of 2001, when I got the stiffest fine for blocking traffic. Blocking moving traffic at 10 PM. And then two points on my license. And what happened September 11, 2013 in Oak Park. Where an older driver was clearly at fault, but the arriving EMT's seemed to recognize me somehow, and the first thing they or one of them did was try to claim I was at fault for something I clearly wasn't. Records, and the other two talking points which I will never stop bringing up and demanding. And an answer to the question how you prosecute a crime or get monetary damages for permanent physical harm when it's all in your head. That, and who else they did this to, and did that end tragically.

I also wanted to make clear that I don't know the role of everyone in this situation. Their role and how responsible they all are for all of the harm. But there were a lot of people involved in the secrecy, there were a lot people who were clearly trying to harm me, if not all in the same way, and everyone obviously viewed me as having a lower status that even the lowest criminal. Like the police, for example. I often lump them in the same category as the court when I talk of the damage that was done to me by those unnecessary psychiatric medicines, that I never consented to ever. Never consented to even in 1992. I really don't know the police' role in that, and maybe never will. But they were part of all of this, and they tried to harm me too. They treated me like a common criminal, even though I've never done anything wrong. They tried to take my car away from me, suddenly around 2005. My therapist confirm that nonsense mostly had to do with the police. And there was nothing that happened concerning my driving ability or driving record in 2005. All that happened was that I was driven to suicide by the police' following me around to parks, that coffee pouring incident in Dearborn in 2001 and all the other abuse I received, that was obviously somehow planned by someone since at least Oakwood hospital in 1988 and 9. They drove me to that point, the police did. And then they suddenly decided that it was time to take away my car. Even though I was a good driver, even though it would destroy my life, even thought I'd lose everything that way. But they didn't care. They were part of all the abuse, and they viewed me that way. Viewed me as having no rights, no value in their eyes, and unconcerned about my welfare and safety and what that would do to me. And all while I lived in a city filled with violence and abuse. Where many people had suspended licenses and warrants out for their arrests. And where most of the residents don't bother to have auto insurance anyways. I always did, and yet they treated me lower that even the criminals in Detroit. With no right to property, no rights to be treated like full adult and full citizen. Obviously because they put me in some lower category for some reason. I will have to assume it is because I am gay, because I can certainly think of no other reason or anything that I did. Just like in the Summer of 1991 when I had that large gun poke in my back outside that adult book store late one night. The officer at the 8th precinct was more concerned I might be having gay sex than that I almost got killed or crippled. Because that seems to be their mentality in Wayne and Oakland county, the police and EMT's. So they were part of the abuse, they were part of the harm, they cared little about my safety or welfare, I had little worth to them. And now I am permanently damaged because of all of that. And they might get their wish in a sick, twisted turn of fate. Because I might lose my feet and hands because of all of this and what they were part of. And then I would lose the ability to drive and everything that way. Not only all those things above that I have known of since 2005, but my medical consent and ability to tell the public what is going on too. Well that is why they are going to make sure I always have a car and can drive. Because it is obscene, what happened. All that happened up till now, and where things are now. I don't know how they could be held legally responsible that way. My case doesn't exist, they still tell me. I know to sue for damages for that, there is a statute of limitation also. But I can't sue now with a case that supposedly doesn't exist and is all in my mind, even though the damage and what I am faced with now certainly isn't. But that is why I am always going to bring up what they put me thru with the car thing for over 20 years, along with he other two points. And why I am always going to insist they make sure I have that, so I can live an independent quality of life, safe and where I belong, in a private residence driving always.