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And very important that I make this clear, if I haven't by now. How I define lying, and when I will know it's over.

Most of the people in my life freely admit that Eric is my legal guardian. Yet he still denies it and Wayne County Court still strongly denies it. So does that police commission and others. Anyone who says he's my not legal guardian, there is no problem, no problem exists, these things never happened, etc. I will know that anyone who says those things to me must be lying. They are lying, they are not to be trusted. They lie under oath, they don't follow their own rules. They deceive people, even when they are hurt by that. I will know they are lying, I will know what they are doing and I will know what they are capable of. What they are capable of, and that they are all right with all that they are doing. Because they haven't tried to stop that kind of behavior, in all the time they have spent their lives doing it.

And the police. All that I just said above applies to them, I won't repeat it. An also if they tell me they weren't trying to take my car away from me even though I am a good driver with a valid license, that something weird was going in my life like this since at least 2005, though everyone denies that too. That there isn't something weird like that probably going on in Michigan too. And that it doesn't involve Oakland County too, and just about everywhere else in this area I'm sure. If they say they don't secretly observe mentally ill people. And then take it a step further by harassing them. Even though like me they've done nothing wrong and often are just minding their own business. Destroying their peace of mind, and almost leading to tragedy more than once for me. But fate always stepped in in my case, as I've said. Harassing them, following them around, telling their neighbors horrible things about them, whether true or untrue, endangering their lives and making their lives difficult. Making them face unequal treatment and all kinds of other problems I am just beginning to figure out now and piece together. Etc. If the police deny everything I just said in this paragraph, I will also know that they are still lying. I should not trust them or anything they say, and I should not think they are working towards my best interest. Even if they tell me they are.

And my medical doctors, and others who tell me about my medical and physical status. I was hurt, I was damaged, my body was slowly destroyed. I was driven to more thoughts of suicide in Sinai-Grace hospital when I went there in 2004, to be helped with that problem. I was lied to and kept from vital medical facts that I had the right to know. That damaged me and could have led to tragedy in themselves. And here I am, still lied to, still denied the truth about my medical status, and my legal status to make medical decisions. Informed medical decisions, that even a criminal would never be denied. Even criminals on death row have that right they say. And yet I was denied it, even though I did absolutely nothing wrong, nothing that could justify that and am a very good person. And yet they continue to lie, they continue to deceive me. I don't know even what's wrong with me now, and like I said it might be very serious. But they are still under some kind of orders, I guess from the court, to deceive me. Even though they have been found out, even though I know, even though they've been exposed, and even though I am in more danger now, much more danger at this late stage. And yet they continue to do it, and expect me to play along. Until all that ends, I will know medical workers are still lying to me, and anyone else who talks to me about my medical, or disability, status. And like I said since all of those people, including the police with my car, got me to this point and damaged me like this and have left me old now and helpless like this, I think they should pay for it. Pay for it, including a car always, and making sure I always can drive. And anything else I need. And even if people deny it or avoid responsibility, I won't drop it ever. I'll keep bringing those three points up, including all that those people did to me all my life, till the end of my life. Or whatever life those people have left me with now.

And to repeat, I still want to look into the matter of the rights of certain groups to drive in Michigan and Detroit. The rights of the handicapped, physically and mentally ill. The rights of poor people. The way public transportation in Michigan and Detroit is thought of as a wonderful option for some people, when it should only be a last option. Especially in the US and places like Detroit. Etc.

This subject, the way certain groups are treated with regard to their rights to drive in the US, came up around 2004 with me like I said. And I even researched it then. And plus it was taken to an outrageous and ridiculous extreme with me. With the police in Wayne County, and then I found out in 2013, people like EMT's in Oakland County, trying to take the license away from a good driver like me. A good driver whose life would be devastated if that happened, even they knew. And that incident in 2013, along with all the rest since at least 2001, showing me I wasn't imagining things. Something was really happening, happening with that subject, and pretty much like I always suspected. We're going to look into all of that, all of it. What was done wrong in my case, how that never happens again, and what can be done to secure the rights of drivers in the future for those groups, and other vulnerable groups.

I guess my main concern still is myself though, and what was done to me. With that and everything else. Because I have been damaged, I may be having some very serious health concerns now, I am helpless and alone, and my case I'm told, like the driving thing, doesn't exist and never happened. So that will be my first concern. But then the driving right of others, like I said.

And now we're into the winter months. We are going to be having a big snowfall here soon. And I'll be dealing with issues of what if I slip on the ice and break something. Or who will shovel my snow. You know, it would be nice if I had someone to help me with all of this. I know Eric used to hire someone. But he said it was costing him too much and it was hard to find people who would work in Detroit. But now I need it more than ever. Especially now that I am left all alone for the first time in my life. I'm getting older, I'm having mobility issues, I'll be having more issues down the road, and I expect to live some kind of good quality of life now. And I define good quality of life as being here in a private residence, driving always, with my cat, living independently and doing the things I enjoy. Not locked in some group home where I am threatened and neglected, and lose all ways of telling the outside world what I am going thru are gone. Or living at home doing all these hard tasks by myself, dealing with all my problems by myself, doing all the cleaning by myself, etc. And like I said, it seems the people who put me in this situation are responsible for all of that. Who put me in this situation the worst way possible. Not only force me to take those medicines I never agreed to to begin with, but also who did it in the worst way possible, damaging secretly and allowing me to damaged in this way secretly. In ways that effect my mobility and ability to be independent. And all with my Cerebral Palsy, that always will complicate things and that people in my life already knew of, or should have, one doctor agrees. I know that will always be my argument with the car. Along with always bring it up, in every situation till the day I die, along with those other two talking points. I also think that the police, along with the court and Eric I guess, should make sure I always have a car, whatever the cost. They made my life a living hell for 20 years, even though I was a good driver with insurance. Even though they knew what it would do to me, would do to anyone, if they lost their car in the US. And shouldn't be driving? No, in the United States law-abiding people should be driving. They should be driving always. It's people who aren't law-abiding, who show contempt for the law and don't care, or who don't have insurance in Michigan who shouldn't be driving. You know, like most of Detroit I found out this year. I know nobody in my life feels responsible, nobody wants to help me, nobody cares. But that is where the law usually steps in and says, no, you won't just manage. They harmed you this way, they did the permanent damage to you, so they have to pay you damages to live on for the rest of your life. But that is hard to do in case which wink, wink doesn't exist, even though we all know by now it does. If a man is chasing you with a knife and the police officer you run up to for help says he's invisible or doesn't exist, what do you do? You need help at that moment, and you don't have time to fool around with that nonsense. And that is where I am now. And like I've said, things are only getting worse for me in every way, the winter months are starting, no one cares, nothing is getting better and nothing is being done.

And as I said, I will still spend the rest of my life exposing them. Those three, Eric, the police and the court. And all the rest, for what they did to me. How they damaged me, how they treated me. How I had a lower status in their eyes than the lowest criminal, that they thought they could just take my nice things, like my car, just because they felt like it. While I lived in a city of lawlessness and abuse, where most people aren't even fit to drive due to no insurance, and probably a lot of other issues. The way they treated me, the way they viewed me. How I had no value in their eyes, no worth. That they could treat me this way. And whatever else they were planning, something terrible I have been given reason to believe. Locking me away somehow at the very least. Kind of like my Uncle Al started saying in 2005. Locking me away in prison, he said, where I'd get all the care I need. Almost like that scene in A Christmas Carol. No, they won't get away with all of that. If they don't pay the legal price, I will at least expose them. So the world knows what they did, and what they are capable of. What they did to others, all while claiming to defend the public good.

I will still spend the rest of my life exposing them even if this matter is resolved, but in all this time it hasn't been. As far as I know nothing has been done. And no one has led me to believe anything has been done or is being done. No one has reassured me, or tried to regain my trust. Even if they did all that, I could never believe them or believe it is over. And even if they did and it was, I'll still do that. So they pay some price for what they did.

Like I said, people started telling me I was ugly in the 6th grade. Then I saw the Star Trek episode Is There In Truth No Beauty:

"Ugly. What is ugly? Who is to say whether Kollos is too ugly to bear or too beautiful to bear?"

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