thats an interesting thought, about religion and its possible fall. it could cause some problems on the sheer power of faith. having faith is a beautiful found in most religions and even is present without the need for religion. but without faith, like accepting death as a black and white issue, then there is nothing to believe in. society is already led to function that life just is, thats that, and we plod on everyday. Bring back faith! lol
I was trying this new drug called TCB-2, its a really potent hallucinogen. I had never tripped before and lets just say my mind was not prepared for the 18 hours of consistant breathing, melting, and animated manifestation I endured. I haven't fucked with that shit since then, or anything trippy at all.
I had a really bad trip on mushrooms my first time(did a whole 8th)a little to intense for my first time, but I still wanted to do it again. But anyway another thing that really fucks with my mind it the paranoid thought of thinking that people can read my mind.
Everyone else always seems to have these amazing experiences on drugs, but for me they've generally been a disappointment. First time I did mushrooms, nothing much happened except this sweet I happened to be sucking suddenly tasted like the foulest thing on earth... I KNEW you were going to say that!!
I had a bad trip on a quad of primo mushrooms once. I didn't trip again for almost 3 months and I haven't eaten more than an eighth since.
Ya according to my friends I almost killed myself a couple times that night without even realizing it.
Yesturday my bf and I were watching Seinfeld and it was nearing the end... and I walked out to grab a dew and pet my cat for a few secs... when I came back he was watching Everybody Loves Raymond... and I checked the clock and it said the show had been on for twenty mintues and I freaked out thinking seinfeld had ended and somehow I missed twenty mintues of my life because the next show was close to ending...but really he just changed the channel..lol He just started laughing...man, I felt stoned...
ooh fucked up moments...GOODY! I live for those moments when you do want to get up no you don't want to get up no you do no you don't....or something 1000 times more extreme and perhaps insightful.
experiencing deja vu, happens to me like at least twice a month. at least. when it does it can go on for at least several minutes. longest was a drive that took about 40 minutes. this includes conversations places, people and such. when it happens i lose control and step back. i float behind myself watching the entire scene. play off. i'm, however, in full control of my words and actions, i'm aware of everything and the fact that this it happening. i can change thing, say things and do things. but after i;m done the deja vu continues. until its done with me. but i just like to ride the flow. so i don't fuck with it.
School has been my biggest mind fuck so far... Every day is oddly different from the previous. Shit gets weirder and weirder every day.
Church. As I come from a very devout Catholic family, it was forced upon me at a young age but when the sexual abuse scandals came out here I realised I couldn't trust the priests or the Catholic institution. That's when I actually thought about what I'd been led to believe and now there's no Christian doctrine that makes sense to me.
Mine has to be my Mum or Dad, ma family is just fuck-up and they both know how to play around with my head and make me feel sooooooo shit, or it could be the heroin and crack addiction I've had since being 16 (now that's a head fuck). I think I'm finally over coming it now *I think* *fuck knows I'm skinnin-up* It's a head fuck just thinking about this shit, haha! But isn't it nice to know I've come to a place where I can express my inner feelings LMAO!
Hard pick between church and government. Both are extremly mind fucking because both institutions are false and evil. Probably government though, since church is voluntary. Although I do think church is created to support the state. But government is really fucked up. It fucks with your mind forces you to accept murder, theft, and slavery as if it is a given in society. They use their posistion of power to rape the minds of the people and make them into obedient slaves. If government didn't exist, there suffering would be far less! Freedom and equality under natural law would reign.
I have a favorite. With what we humans currently know about Black Holes, What's on the other end??? Are there White Holes in OUR Universe? Are they the other end? Fun to think about...
Yup, I would have to go with drugs. I am a total mind slut when it comes to em. Yay I got to have my first roll not too long ago and it wuz AWSOME.