You ever get depressed?

i'm really not good at holding a grudge. so now that i'm really really angry, i have to enjoy my anger now or else fall asleep and just wake up unfulfilled tomorrow morning. so i vote for make myself sick tonight while enjoying my anger.

 

Hahaha. you are funny. what are you angry about!

 

well this afternoon i got a letter in the mail informing me that i have been reported to the U.S. government for illegal downloading, which i have admittedly done a total of 7, yes count them 7 times in the last 6 years. so i was slightly angry at that point. then i got a phone call informing me that my hours at work have been reduced from 40-45 a week to 10-15, due mostly to the fact that my boss, who is still getting paid just as much as before, is too lazy to ever do his job ever.

so basically, in one day i've become broke and wanted, all for essentially no reason at all. so i decide to get drunk.

 

It's like Nazi Germany

 

your face is like nazi germany.

 

you would say that you put high expectations on certain outcomes that you want?? and when not met it brings you down??

 

Yeah, me too. I tend to starve myself. And throw up.

 

Nice sig pic Piaf. I hope it isn't symbolic though

 

yes
it
is

 

Thank you.
It's not symbolic, I just think its cute

 

I think it's cute too. It suits you

 

Sure.

 

I'd say that sounds about right.

I work to stop the cycle, but I get so over run with emotion some times when things happen.

I dunno. I expect myself to always be the best at everything I'm doing. It's impossible, I know, but in the heat of the moment it's hard to remember.

 

i know mine is purely chemical in nature. i figure it's all those drugs i did during that short period of time...i just cease being human for a while and feel nthing at all. then it all comes rushing back and i have a massive panic attack and end up on an EKG in the emergency room when all i wanted to do an hour before was take a nap...*sigh*

 

uhhhh, hehe, my bad

 

lol.

 

get up gawddamnit, were goin hospital.

 

hahahaha!!! good times.

 

I did end up breaking my brick breaker record that day.

 

well, and we did find out it's not cancer, so that's good.