OP here. I snapped and eventually picked up a gram, about a week after I last posted in this thread. Got high 3 times so far. Result? No significant change. I'm still doing fine at work, memory and concentration is still here. Of course I get a little caught in my thoughts when I get high, but after I sober up I'm good as new. Fixing some key points in your life and smoking in moderation is where it's at.