Honestly I think the stuff is heavily overrated, even though I will endorse it's legality due to it's very minor severity. There are better alternatives though to its 'benefits.' Sure it may be great to ease pain and stress, but that's really it's only virtue and necessity from my experience. It otherwise it makes me feel shitty, worn down, stuffy headed, depressed, paranoid and just plain stupid. If I want to up my sense of humor, I'll drink beer instead. It's hard to determine how much creativity it really can generate. Sometimes it may essentially be influence of the era or other stimulates of passion. Creativity has proven to be present with out the need for any drug, I don't think Einstein took anything when he can up with 'relativity'(despite how 'high' he may have looked). But enough works have completely missed the target off innovation and originality while on it. I would much rather get high on caffeine though if anything, I tend get the most done through that route. But the best way to really get a taste of heaven is to just simply get laid. That's far more beneficial to the body and if an orgasm is achieved, it's far better than a million joints at once.
what i love about weed is that it brings you face to face with your problems or insecurities. it very easily brought out my social anxiety. smoking used to make me feel very weird around people, like you described in your first post. i would feel uncomfortable and not want to say anything. but i continued to smoke because i loved the high (despite how it enhanced my anxiety around people). i began to recognize my delusional thoughts in social situations and what triggered my anxiety. i realized my fears and thoughts were irrational so i changed my thinking. and that has made all the difference. marijuana has been a very important tool for helping me overcome my anxiety. drugs are a bet with the mind. they work wonders if you use them correctly.
But the problem is that I don't HAVE social anxiety. At all. I am comfortable in any social situation and am considered a very good public speaker. It is just that the Cannabis is SOO powerful feeling that it stones me out so significantly that I am on a totally different wavelength compared to my friends who can still talk, joke, etc. I am so stoned that all I can do it sit there staring into space or with my eyes closed, living in some crazy universe haha. I would smoke again (alone) if I met someone down here who smoked, but graduate students in Mathematics are more into drinking, which I am not in to at all.
so I can stand listening to everyone and their mother's dubstep tracks. Wait... not even then. Most of the time I smoke to get high. Other times I get myself worked up and need to chill the fuck out. Sometimes my tummy hurts. I don't like being talked over so most of the time I just stay quiet. Smoking gives me an excuse to sit there and politely stare at the wall. I can achieve many goals with many bowls.
I could sure use little bit of pot right now the muscle relaxers just aren’t doing it today. It might be cause of the weather