Who is this little guy?

ive felt a presence like this for as long as i can remember. you should be able to sense his vibes and know if hes a good or bad little guy. or if hes just neutral and there for observation. meditate on it and try to focus your mind directly onto his energy and see what you feel.

 

Oh...that's just me, Moey. I'll try not to lurk so damn close...

I have actually lived with a real, live bipolar person with delusions - and a schizophrenic one, too. When they get delusional, they also lose the ability to function well in human society. Creedle does not sound like a bipolar or schizophrenic person with delusions. It's obvious from her posts here that she's functioning at an enviably high level. IMHO she can probably study the presence without worrying too much about losing her stinkin mind. If she does lose her stinkin mind, it will become plenty obvious without her making an announcement.

 

hardy har har my dear

 

ive been "diagnosed" with schizophrenia and i've taken lithium, colozopam abilify and zoloft.....but still always felt that presence. i think some people are just more in tune with certain aspects of a different plane of existance. i feel like these people are trying to give me a message that i just need to be ready to recieve and ive not yet been ready, so i havent gotten it. idk where i was going with this

 

Aside from the esoterica,when i was young I had many high fevers (106)and I would see people and talk to them at the same time as I was talking to actual people that were present. I would ask my people-"can't you see them". Have you had fever? That may account for this.

 

And you're a helluva a lot "saner" than a lot of "normal" people I know.

My wife was convinced I was crazy some years back - mainly because my psychic experiences were upsetting to her self-esteem. She urged me to go to a psychiatrist to be "cured." I went because I wanted to try the experiment. The psychiatrist gave me a working diagnosis of "delusional disorder" so as to justify prescribing me meds. He tried Zyprexa on me, and then he tried Haldol. Neither med had the least affect on my "delusions" - but they sure made me feel groggy.

And btw, there was material and physical evidence that confirmed the reality of my "delusions"...and when my wife took me later to her own personal counselor, the counselor interrogated me thoroughly, and then announced to my poor wife, "I don't think he's delusional. A little obsessive, maybe." LOL Hey, so was Thomas Edison, dammit.

So...yes, there are delusions. And there are also actual psychic experiences. We get to try and figure out which ones are which.

 

no need to flatter youve got me already lol

and my friend was on haldol and when they decided to take her off of it she got very suicidal, which she had never been before. meds freak me out a little.

Creed, do you ever feel like hes trying to get your attention or is it just a constant presence?

 

I'm sellin ya to the rubes, darlin.

 

I agree it is good to keep an open mind, but I don't think creedlespeak has a mental health problem.

 

tch! and **sigh**

they're baaaaaack!

guess i'm crazy again.

 

Life is much more interesting when you're crazy.

So what happens if I again threaten to try participating?

 

The fortunate thing is I can have a very candid discussion with him and a couple other people, and the answers range from "a little eccentric" to "doesn't sound like much to worry about." What I'm lacking is a definitive answer; the folks around me are pretty science-minded. That isn't a bad thing.

If I had delusions or hallucinations that were directing the outcome of my day to day life, I agree, talking to my doctor would be a priority. Thank you for your concern.

Thank you.

Thank you, Moey. I love you. :love:

Got a good laugh out of that one! He's a pleasant enough little guy and he's peaceful, so if he's some embodiment of my madness, if it stays out of my way when I'm working or otherwise busy, perfect.

Agreed, Missy Moe. Some people are genuinely mentally ill and cannot function. And for paranoid schizophrenics, lithium is an inexpensive wonderdrug. (Except for the yucky side effects!) But it isn't for people who are experiencing a different level of awareness; it just makes them more sick. And as Aireal pointed out to me before, you can tell the difference. What she's said proved eerily true during geriatric and mental health clinicals.

You'll receive when you're ready.

Oh wow. That's a high fever. Nothing like that, that's for sure.

Well, I'm not hallucinating.

 

lol i don't know if your first "threat" had anything to do with their disappearence from my skull. i asked them "hey! where did you guys go?". they replied "we didn't go anywhere. where did YOU go?" LOL **shrug**

 

Sounds like the way my spirit guides act... well I'm trying to find your little mental chat room right now. Frankly I'm more interested in seeing if I can talk to you telepathically than talking about spiritual evolution with your friends. So I'll see if I can make contact...I'm just getting some vague, muffled voices. It's like somebody's guarding the gate and not letting me in. I dunno, maybe I'll keep trying...

 

well, from what i've been led to believe there's more minds in on this project than just me and my imaginary friends, along with support staff (buffers, collators, moderators etc) there's other study groups in other labs and there doesn't appear to be any interaction between them. i've detected no bleedthroughs or energy overlaps from other groups so one may assume that the workrooms are pretty well sealed. that is not to say we don't inadvertently carry in our own "glitches". like we kept getting distorting buzz from an old friend of mine with whom i'd recently had a falling out. that problem was solved by severing his connection to me and healing the wound the end of that friendship caused. and one of my imaginary friends has to vibrationally "take off his wedding ring" because his wife's energies can get in the mix which causes some anxiety. so if that much trouble is being taken to keep errant and uncontrolled vibes out of the work spaces i'm not surprised you're not finding a clear way in.

right now not much is being worked on. we seem to be in a holding pattern, just hanging out and reacquainting ourselves with the situation. i'm not altogether sure i'm pleased to be back in the lab. i mean, it's nice to hear them again and i did kind of miss them but shit! i'm still not comfortable with being crazy. well, i've always been pretty nuts but never in such intensive detail.

PS. do you think we're being rude hyjacking creedlespeek's thread?

PPS. sorry creedlespeek! didn't mean to be rude.

 

lol fingermouse! however, i know what my imaginary friends look like.

 

Fingermouse is just bitter because HER expertise is not being consulted by the Spiritual Evolution Advancement Laboratory (SEAL).

 

Yeah, well I certainly am errant and uncontrolled, so maybe that counts me out.

I suppose we are rude - so yeah, creedle, you can kick us out of your thread if you want.

 

yep, the work space is a controlled environment. though frustration driven name calling does occur now and and then (my less than patient imaginary friend has called me a "stubborn faithless bitch", to which i replied "you're just my imagination so why the hell should i care if i piss you off?") our "mediator" (that 3rd Id) shows up and throw cold water on the overheated situation. no self disparaging comments are allowed. no suicidal thought are allowed. and questioning the reality of a working scenario is not allowed while work is being done in it.

man! i wish i knew if this shit going on in my head was real or not.