When did you know and how did you come out?

since primary school, i was attracted to boys rather that girls.

 

When I read the chaper in "Everything You Always Wanted to Know About Sex...." as a young boy and thought, "Oh, so that's why...."

 

I've always been "drawn" to males. I would find myself staring at guys all the time. It wasn't until I was in 7th or 8th grade that I realized what it was.

I guess I always knew in the back of my mind.

 

I knew at a very very young age. Maybe 5 or 6 years old.
I wanted to play with dolls. How gay is that?

 

Used to watch Ally McBeal when I was little and found her really attractive, then there was the episode where she kissed Ling, and I knew, thats what I wanted to be doing

 

I Always was drawn 2 women. I personally think there is nothing more stimulating then seein a beautiful woman w/her hair hangin down and no make up, just bein herself, rather she is in a dress, shorts and a T or naked, a woman w/out all the glam is more beautiful then a woman who is all done up 4 a nite on the town. I def. love women, always have, always will. I admire them, I adore them, and most imp. I always respect them in the am!!! (a jk)lol!!

 

I don't know if anybody has experienced it so early but I think that by four I had an idea that I liked boys better...some sensation I've exerienced in the boys locker room when I changed after my first swimming lesson...

 

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i asked this question in my other thread


when do you know that you are gay? does it slowly creep up on you bit by bit with fear and confusion, or did you always know you were gay?

and how old we're you when you got the first clues,

 

that all depends... when i got first clues.. well about 12ish... i was in denial through 6th and 7th grade though....
you know when ur gay when u think some guys are cute.. and/or if you think about them and/or if u watch gay porn.. JMO

 

it was kinda weird for me i was at the highschool with my friends and they were all saying 'Holy shit dude that bitch is so hot I wanna fuck her' amd then I thought to myself 'Why don't I see that in girls? Why don't I have an urge to fuck girls?' and then it hit me 'Holy shit I'm Gay...' and a lot of stuff is clearer now those weird feelings for my best friend...god he's hot...his hair...those tender blue eyes...anyway yeah so thats how it happened

 

I didn't even know what the word Gay meant at the time, however I can remember being around 8 years old and fantasizing about my friends and myself naked. But even before that I remember I always had a fasination with penis and boy butts.

When I'd be at my friends houses for sleep overs or in the bathrooms together with friends or whatever I would always try to see them naked or take a innocent peek.

By the time I was 9 years old me and Timmy one of my best friends took our clothes off and laid together all the time, we didn't have sex we just touched and played with each other and laid on top of each other.

I'd say that was a good indication about my sexuality but I was still young and had no clue.

It wasn't until a few years later when his older brother caught us down in the basement together and taught us a few new things to do.

By the time I hit puberty I knew what I was and I hated myself for being different, however I still wanted to be with other boys. I stood in the closet until after high school. (it was very painful living in the closet)

The one good thing was I found out along the way I wasn't the only one in the closet. I was fortuneate enough to have two older and two younger brothers and our house was the house everyone hang out at so there was always boys sleeping over. I won't go into the details for now but you get the idea, right?

 

if you have to ask....

 

it's different for everyone really. I wasn't aware of my homosexuality until last year. For some people they know they like guys their whole life, and find out one day that that isn't how it normally goes. But for me, my awareness of my sexuality kind of started dawning upon me. Then i denied it a bit, sort of. Then I embraced it, and now it's all good.
Cheers,
Dylan

 

I've known since about 8th grade that I was "at least" bi. I'd looked at gay porn and liked it, but would never think about cute guys at all. I even had a girlfriend last year (my freshman year) and another at the beginning of this year (sophomore), though nothing really happened with the most recent one. (Oddly enough both were named Anna... hmmmm). Anyway, I didn't really start thinking to myself that certain guys were hot until the end of this summer, or maybe the beginning of this school year. It was really hard to admit that to myself. I was especially confused, because I really do cherish what I had with Anna from last year, and I really did like her. I also realized that I never thought of her sexually or about doing anything past kissing her. So that was kinda tough for me, but I know now that I'm pretty much gay... I say pretty much because I'm not going to let myself be defined by a word. Just because I call myself "gay" doesn't mean I can only strictly like guys, it just means I'm attracted to them sexually.... if another Anna-like person comes along, I honestly dont' know what I'd do.

 

I was 13/14 when i figured it out for sure

 

The only people I've ever fallen in love with have been male. Reading 'Maurice', by E.M. Forster, for the second time made it all a bit clearer.

Peace,

CB.

 

hmmm well hindsight is 20/20. I think I've always been attracted to girls, but I didn't understand it. Like when I was 12/13ish, I remember I had pictures of women on my wall and fantasized about kissing them. But I didn't know anything about sex, aside from "penis goes in vagina" lol. I was naive. I didn't even know what oral sex was. So I seriously did not even understand how gay people had sex.
The only lesbians I ever heard of or saw were really butch, so I never beleived I could be one cause that wasn't me. (I'm talking about being practically still a kid here lol)

From there, junior high, first years of high school....I knew I was supposed to like boys so I'd pick a guy to like. But it wasnt' real; I'd name who I had a crush on to my friends when it came up, but it would always be someone I didn't have a chance with and never persued it.

Than freshman year of high school....I had the hugest crush ever on a student-teacher in english class. lol I still didnt' realize it at the time though. I just knew I thought she was "so cool" and I was jealous of her fiance "just because". I HATE poetry and yet I tried so hard to be good at it cause that was what she taught lol.

But I guess it wasn't till I was 16 that I really KNEW I was attracted to women. And I fought it hard for awhile! Slept with a lot of guys to prove to myself "I'm not gay...." I really became quite the little slut for awhile actually lol. That lasted for years. you know fantasizing about a woman, and than going out and faking it with some guy you think is ok...

But after my first girlfriend, which wasn't till I was almost 21...after one night with her, I knew there was no more denying it. I came out to all my friends after that. Still not out to the family though

 

Thanks Redhead420, you sumed up the frustrations of growing up gay very well, thanks for sharing.


I really wish the people who think gay people are an abomination would read what you wrote and read inbetween the lines with an open mind and just try to understand what its like to walk in our shoes.

 

First off,I'll take women over a guy anyday. I love them,adore them everything about them. And besides,I could never give up pussy.

But I sometimes wonder if I hadn't been in situations that I was in when I was between 6-8 if I would have the feelings I do towards the male genitalia. I'll be honest,I don't have the slightest interest in kissing a guy. As a matter of fact it's not appealing for me to see it. Sorry,it's just not. I could never be romantic or have feelings for a guy. I'd say I was about 12 or so when I realized that what happened with me & the babysitter's son I actually liked. I guess that's why I continued to explore it with myself & later with others. I still have a hard time considering myself "bi". Don't know if I'm trying to fight it or what. I don't have a hard time with myself nor am I disgusted. I usually just say that I like sex of all kinds. Because that's pretty much the only attraction I have towards males,is if he has big giant cock.

Is that strange? lol