What's Happening?

In Brighton. Drinking, doing coke and poppers

 

I know what's supposed to be fun about coke but not poppers.

 

Too much drama going on in RL with whiny colleagues, butt hurt feuding friends, demands of life, so I am seeking refuge here. If it's not my monkeys or my circus, then I want no part of it. :afro: This is my bubble and I'm wrapped in yellow caution tape. I'm hiding. Ssssh. Decks out of sight. lol :toilet:

 

I don't really know what to say but this post makes me sad

I've seen a lot of people destroy their lives with alcohol ..too many people

I hope things get better for you Nox

 

Guess it's just a gay thing

 

While I would never condone being intoxicated every night, I certainly don't think your reasons for wanting to be are cop outs.

I wish I could offer better advice than "don't drink," but that's all I can.

However, with great sympathy and understanding, I can say, don't beat yourself up. You're coping with self-medication--which in and of itself is not usually a good thing--but the reasons you need to self-medicate are not bullshit.

Hang in there.

 

well, this would have made anyone down!



damnit! i wish i had it on me, but i was feeling bad we were all feeling bad yesterday and then i came across (oddly also on FB) this post that was a SMILE experiment. Like forcing the smile muscles (seriously, the article explains it better. stay tuned) and that just curling the corners of your mouth up like that, just I mean, feeling that smile puts you in a better mood. lol I'm making a dork of myself trying to explain it, but it is so true!! I mean, just keep finding those things that make you laugh and (hehe I could think of a couple members on this site for instance ) and just stay with that till you feel better. Well, I am feeling better anyway. (sorta. woah! i'm getting some weird dejavu today though...because I ...well I took a risk on something. Meh! I may as well just say it now. I created my own forum for some friends. I dont even expect much right now, but to live big we have to dream big. I guess the dejavu was just remembering the last timme I made a big change. It is a weird feeling, being all alone and yet imagining folks are with you at the same time...)

 

this is genius! it's actually working!! two only so far, but that's better than none, like last year!

 

or you can make one of these..

 

I hate when like you have a few drinks and then take a nap and you wake up feeling bit full of fluid so you go to the toilet and think okay well I'll just pass that... and so you do and there wasn't that much and so now I've got no excuses. Wahhh

 

We at a filling station now yep. An energy drink gonna solve some problems.

 

Bumping down the mains with The Highwaymen blasting out the truck. that's how these lasses are rolling this morning.

 

Thinking about Nox...

You all know that a man *(person) without a plan is a pitiful thing.

Nox, you have a plan and you're working it.

#1 - A new job.

Just keep plugging along with that.

You don't want to overwhelm yourself looking at a big picture.

A plan, of baby steps, will get you where you want to be.

Actually, I think there are two baby steps to work at first: Getting the alcohol consumption to somewhere that you are comfortable with, and pursuing that job.

I believe you can be successful and do things every day to help yourself feel better little by little.

Chat us up. There is usually someone around Hip that will lend you and ear.

 

Work is slow right now but it helps me think. I'm just hanging out with a resident and sometimes it's hard to know if she realizes I'm here.

 

Bless her.

 

I work with a female near my age but we don't really gel there's just nothing for a friendship so we idly work around each other. She keeps to herself as do I, but I'm a bit random so I like to sing and dance and if I see a straight tree branch I pretend it's a gun or a sword and play around but she just head down keeps working. She's nice enough but yeah, I'm a green apple and she's a red apple.

Then one of my facilities workers OMG what a drama queen I mean everything is a drama. Always complaining. Always wringing. But it's not constructive either like even though he's complaining he's not really complaining he just has a weird sense of humor. Like him complaining is just alerting us to what's happening but he finds it funny because it's so backwards. Or something. I don't know I've stopped pretending to know what he's on about now so I just ask him what do you need from me. And it's always nothing, "oh I'm just pointing it out" but if you don't want anything to change then why bother? But that's his sense of humor.

Like it is and can be funny when you're in the mood but if you aren't in the mood just feel like telling him to shut up and get back to work and do something worthwhile instead of wasting everybody's time in a toolbox meeting about nothing and we all stand around looking at each other because is this guy serious??

 

Ughughugh my significant other just told me the kids next door came over and asked for water because their water is turned off

Mom left last week and took the youngest kids with her so now its the dad, who doesnt work, and the older kids.

I always end up living next to the saddest fucking people and it makes me want to just turn the empathy off

Do I get involved? Leave a shitload of bottled water on their porch anonymously? Call cps? That's the last thing I want to do and I doubt I will but the kids cant just live there without water

Mind my own fucking business?

 

Think i might sleep now. Exhaustwd.

 

Water Turned Off = No Showers.....No Toilet = Very Strong Smell When

The Wind Blows In The Wrong Direction.....Good Luck With That..... :toilet:



Cheers Glen.

 

Help the kids if they ask.

Don't get too friendly or they might want showers.