What's Happening?

I went through this last year, the chances of it being cancer at such a young age is really, really low..if I remember correctly, they told me it was less than a 1% chance at my age. I still freaked out for a few weeks until the biopsy, but it was exactly as the doctor told me, just a benign tumor

I know from experience being told this doesnt make it any easier though. Sending positive thoughts to you guys!

 

Breast tissue can become kind of "knotty" or "fibrous", too. It can feel different depending on where you are in your monthly cycle too.

 

The mail just came and I received 6 more Vintage Rhinestone Brooches for my daughter's wedding bouquet.

Now, I have 8 to give her when I see her on Saturday!

It's a surprise for her birthday.

 

The last few months have been a challenge, one I do not want to repeat. I will settle for boring normal right about now. Working on that.


Irm, it is normal to be a little nervous for sure. Finding anything out of the ordinary sends us into a mental space that is not where we want to be. We all tend to feel that panic and it does not matter what the stats say or our sane side says, it is scary. Big hugs to both of you!

 

Dude who hacked Jennifer Lawrence's phone got 9 months.
Not sure if that's too little but I think some psychological treatment should be tacked on after.

 

Thank you, you two. I think it's natural to jump on the worry wagon pretty early it's such a shock. Personally I hate doing the checks I just am so anxious during it I don't want to feel anything and then you think you do, and you're right it's just boob fat and tissue and then you're like oh shit and can't find it again. She got heftier boobs than me too there's a lot more tissue going on lol.

I look at the pictures on google but even the drawings are kind of gross. A breast is nice to look at, but with all the veins and whatnot. Hehe.

We'll be alright. We'll get this looked at before the weekend.

In other news we drew in pool tonight. We really should have won, we've never lost to this team they've got a young kid in there I call him kid, he's München youth representative so he's fire and all sorts of awesome for his age. We were down 0-3 early. As I was a bit anxious and upset early in the day I had a few extra drinks before game time and smoked an hour beforehand.

I played some girl first up she was shooting horribly. I didn't want to chance a play of mine I was in control again though not playing well and she kind of snookered me into playing one ball that had tied her balls up and that was going to be my way out. So I had to move the pile and decided to try and knock mine on to hers, draw the cue ball into a position she couldn't sink her balls easily while pushing her ball that came off my red down to the bottom rail and freezing it there. I'd have had the game if I done that correctly. Well I didn't hit it hard enough and nothing hit a rail. Foul stroke she ended up playing really well and finishing me off. I played bad though.

I won my next two games and finished 2-1 the last game I won was the last game of the night and boy I was shaking on the 8 ball but I nailed it into right centre. Bread and butter I love those middles lol. It was the shot beforehand that was better though I'd covered a pocket and left my red on the verge of sinking if any contact was made with it. His yellow ball was right there and I was going to use it to give me two shot. But as the game went on I realized it was going to actually disadvantage me so as it became my only color left, his yellow covered it. I had to come off a rail and try and hit it straight on BUT without snookering myself behind his yellow.

I'd played this shot once before and i snookered. I remember one of my team saying you have to hit this shot hard because yeah you don't want to snooker yourself so you'll want to hit it hard and move the balls around to free the shot. So I smacked it hard and was perfect. My balls sank, his ball bounced away from the pocket and luckily the cue ball gave me a pretty straight forward straight shot into middle. Well I shook and shook and shook and told myself "centre hit, slide the cue into it". Both my wins came from almost the same shot into the same pocket. I was up from the shot before the ball was sunk, I knew I'd hit them well.

And we drew 12-12 and that brings me to 3-3 50% some of our guys aren't playing well even our captain took himself out of an extra game. I think he's 0-5 or 0-6 =\ then I beat him in a game after.

During the night I had written in pen some scores for the scoresheet and became so impressed with two numbers I drew that I went and showed everyone lol. They all agreed. They were neat, inside the box but exactly centered no hanging lines. They were perfect.

On the back of the score sheet we wrote down "awards people think they deserve to win" and the first line says "Jocelyn - for writing the letter C and the number 3, 4 perfectly.

Then at the time I though one of our best players had won all their games and he said he was the one keeping us close to the other team so I almost awarded him the clutch player award until he turned around and said he didn't actually win a game. :rofl:

It's a good group of people.

 

Hey I just saw this, thank you and completely agree.

Hugs back.

I thinks she was a bit annoyed at me with my aggressive attempts to get her to the doctor I didn't understand it I said I don't think this is something we can just "oh we'll get there next week" oh hell no that was not good enough for me.

In fact this was probably the most I've ever fought her on anything, I'll always submiss to her. Well not now, not with this, she can feel my wrath grapes!

I think realistically though I made her panic too she hadn't read anything yet she wasn't even sure what she'd felt and I come in guns blazing, typical of me though.

So, y'all aren't the only ones that have to see me jump the gun and come down on someone for something lol, she gets that too actually everyone does, just unlike the internet, it's kind of adorable I'm told that I do care so much. =p rather than me just being annoying.

But thank you guys, really. I did need a hint of support. I appreciate that you've pulled through and though you don't know her at all really, know that, she's actually pretty fond of some of you. I get her to read most of my stuff when there's an argument and get her to tell me what I've done wrong or why. She usually feels the opposite way of me on a lot of things so quick to make me understand things... and so I know she'd appreciate too.

Now to just, life goes oning.

 

Bake me some cookies please, laura!

 

Bake me a casserole

 

Lol. We've cooked so much this week. We've at least a month of frozen meals to go through. aaaaand we decided to go to MacDonalds on the way home. >.> lol. Always feels like a good idea at 10pm. I'm in a warm bath now trying to sweat out the oils!

 

Apparently after a shower, weed, a meal, a bath... I still have the scent of Rum on my tongue.

Remarkably though alcohol does not seem to fault my pool game and also tonight I never had a problem with the 20/20 shot clock and in fact I was aimed and ready and waiting a few times to hear them say 20 seconds.

Oh and in my first game I dunno how I did this but I picked up someone else's cue. And I cleaned it etc. and then I went to take my first stroke and I'm like this is not right this is dark cue this is short.

Now my cue is quite long, too long in fact it's longer than my whole teams and I'm one of the short people but I've used it a long time and the tip is smaller than most at 9mm and I'm good with it. Anyway I'm lining this shot and I just say "sorry" and run to my cue. Then after the game we looked at the cue and no one knows whos it was. I couldn't remember where I got it from it was just there lol.

And also the 4 most "dykes" were the playing in their lower divisions.

Nobody called the table a lesbian this week.

 

In the last couple days I insulted three of my favorite people here in a joking way...I should really learn to put a JK. At the end of my sarcastic posts.

 

Yeah. I do that a lot too.
Like at the time I called rolling a pedo, I was so flabbergasted he took that seriously. Pedophile maybe, but not "pedo". That's the cheapest easiest way to tell if you're joking. Lol. I thought it was hilarious too but he didn't. :unsure:

 

Does this mean no cookies?

 

Actually we made waffles instead lol.

 

Good morning America!
What are we offended by today?

 

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Cheers Glen.

 

Not sure what I am offended by but I know it's the Russians fault.

 

So Federer won.
And Wawrinka smashed his racket across his knee lol.

Or do you spell it racquet?

Either way, Federer, what a guy. What a legend.
Real class act too.

 

Too bad its just tennis.