What's Happening?

I used to check my mail at the same time they pass the post office. The guy on the back said to me a few times he liked my car.

 

I just got finished with repairing our garage roof. Tree trimmers came yesterday and worked on a tree right behind the garage. I had to go over to the pump house to check the light bulb we have on in there was still working ( it is good to about 15 degrees, and then we put a heater in there when the temp drops lower ), and saw that a whole piece of tin sheeting had come loose and was at the end of the garage ( where they had been working - argggggggg ) and getting ready to come off. So I went a changed the bulb, came back and got our long ladder, went up to the roof and pulled the sheet back down, and then nailed it into place. The tricky part was slithering up the tin to nail it at top and then slither back down and find the ladder with my feet to come down. Then I went and got the tractor and backed it up to put the ladder in a steel box behind the tractor ( it lifts up and down ) and lifted it as high as it would go, and put the ladder in it so I could slide another piece of tin that had come completely off. So I pushed the tin piece up the ladder and put it in place and then nailed it down. I tucked it in at the top, so I only had to nail the bottom and up the side a ways. I feel like I have just finished wrestling with a bear.

 

Time for a sheet mask.
This weather is not very skin friendly.
And that reminds me, this is my last sheet mask, should buy more.
Buy and consume, buy and consume.
Work buy consume die.
Life <3

 

You should get some face shield likes me and look like a ninja. they aren't thermal or anything but keeps the ice and frost off your skin. also UV protection in this weather is key.

People will laugh and ask me why I'm so skin cautious and I look at their skin and arms and I don't say it but I always think "so I don't end up looking like 50 when I'm 35". I may age physically as I should but I'm not letting that disgusting sun and it's harmful UV rays age me any more than it should. I do tell them that, that UV is bad and I'm protecting myself.

One day they're going to remember that and I suggest when they look in the mirror on this day and come to terms with grief and sadness they're going to remember what I said and they're going to think to themselves "she may have had a point".

 

What spf do you use on a daily basis?

 

I feel like I am finally winning at this adulting thing, I prequalified for a mortgage loan today. Now to gather w2s and bank statements and a million other documents amd forward them on

Thanks to those who advised me through this process!

 

Life is way too complicated at times. It would be nice to be able to simplify more than is possible for most.

 

Hi, Heather.

 

Hi Aeri! Trying to read and catch up on everyone's news.

 

It's a job!

How about you? How's life?

 

Biggest pain about giving the pups solid food is the cat and dog want some too.

 

Can you put them each in a separate room while the puppies eat?

 

I put the cat outside. The dog listens when I yelled at her. (Occasionally I only have to talk to her)

 

I'm really really anxious and nervous and upset and moody at the moment, mostly at my partner who's found a tight/hardened spot in her left breast area kinda where the pectoral axillary area is. I don't think she was too concerned she just doesn't know if she's felt that before. So I have a go and to me it feels like the actual ligaments and muscles of the pectoral area, but it's only more pronounced on her left side and it's this tight/hard feeling that has me worried because that's what I read. Those two symptoms.

So I asked her I wanted her to go to the doctors but she doesn't want to right now she's going to get some things checked out next week anyway and she'll do it then.

I just don't know what to feel or think. I'm sure it's fine, I really do and I'm pretty certain I've felt that on her before it just happens to be in that perfect area where all the photos of "breast checks" seem to take place. :unsure: so she'll go to the doctors next week. I already tried to make an appointment and there wouldn't be any today anyway, I think she's upset I did that. But I worry and well, I worry.

 

It was almost accidental too, like, to me it feels "deep tissue" it's not something you feel just from playing or squeezing its when you get two fingers and really tinker in that area. When she sits or stands she says everything there feels the same it was just this one moment where she was laying on her back so as imagined, all the muscles at that position were much more pronounced and easier to feel for especially with her left arm above her head.

 

Hopefully going in to see the doctor on Friday or Saturday.
Just have to wait for our doctor as she only wants a female understandably.

She's done some more research and we've got a bit calmer now, or I have anyway because it probably is nothing and even if it is something it probably still isn't anything like, I keep reading the big C word is worst case ever scenario. Personally I still think it's ligament and muscle tissue we are feeling, she just can't remember it. That's what's worrisome because she can't remember so it seems new. But I'm sure I've noticed that before and came to the same conclusion about muscle and ligament tissues.

Anyway I'll cross my fingers. I'm hoping to convince her to see our doctor on Friday. I look online and it's pretty cool because all her appointment calander actually tells you when she's available and she has 5x slots on Friday. I want her to get one.

Edit: We got an appointment for Friday aaaaaand we can't feel anything there atm so yeah, I said good let's hope she feels the same way and we can just get over this we are freaking myself out it's like the time I had cramps and though I had ovarian cancer. Lol and since that day I've not read ailing symptoms about myself but that's myself and this is not me. It's like I can take the pain I want the pain I'll fight through it but I don't want her to feel hurt or in pain you know?

 

These scares are horrible. I've been there and I know just what you are going through. I always imagine the worst and I'm always wrong. I can't help being that way. I wish I could. I always worry so needlessly!

Big hugs!

 

I'm about to take a shower. Maybe I should do the male version of the C test.

 

I went to the beach after a long time, and again noticed the impact of the fresh oxygenated air on my body and mind, after a hour or two.

Thinking of spending again a night over there at the beach just for the thrill of it, along with the health benefits.

 

I would!!!