what was your "I might be a little gay." moment?

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Mine came when I blew two guys in succession at an ABS.

 

@iowaguy51, I know a lot of guys who wish they were my neighbor and/or they had grown up with me. Still, I felt kinda "stupid" to have been sexually active with guys for, at this point, 10 years before the thought of maybe I'm really gay decided to show up. I also think it was the moment when I began to realize that "being gay" was more than just a way to have sex...

 

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Oh, it's still fun and games when you open your eyes and know what you're doing. I would have what I called "moments of clarity" when I'd be sucking a guy's dick and I am very aware that I'm sucking a guy's dick and against every rule in the book and, yeah, just like gay dudes like to do but that reality that said that I'm not gay but, I think, all of us have that "am I gay" moment and this was mine. I had a "bisexual clarity moment" one day when, early in the day, I sucked off one of my neighbors and, later in the day, fucked his wife and it felt so right and normal to have done both of them and not being hamstrung by the rules we're supposed to abide by. I knew that I was sucking him because, according to him, she didn't like to suck dick - but I learned that she didn't like sucking him - and he wouldn't go down on her but I sure as fuck would and did... because why not? But I've never questioned my bisexuality - just had to ask if I was really gay.

 

It was in college. My group of friends was pretty diverse for the seventies and include an open bisexual guy named Dave. He was actually part of the three Daves in our group. (Drummer Dave, Bi Dave & Drunk Dave) One day were eating lunch and this good looking guy sat down a couple tables over and the girls (including my GF) were all talking about him and Bi Dave announces that I was much hotter than the other guy and he’d rather sleep with me! And under the table he slid his hand onto my thigh and I started getting hard. He was interrupted by my GF telling him I was all hers!
That night my best friend and I were talking about what happened and he confessed to being curious so I told him what happened under the table. So he asked I wanted to try it with him and when I said yes was my epiphany.

 

I try not to think about all the great sex I missed because of that fear - and especially when it was "in the air" that something was supposed to happen but didn't.

 

In the changing room at the swimming pool, I got an erection all the time. It was a pretty clear sign.

 

At 15 me and a bud were out on my dirt bike in the hills and I could feel his boner pressing up against me. I got really hard feeling him grind against me. After a few rides like that I started wearing thinner pants and I would move his hands to my crotch so he would know how much I was turned on. Then the night we let our inhibitions out when he finally fucked me he also spanked my ass and that made me really get into it. That spank was the moment.

 

Mine was when I sucked my first cock. I loved it, it was such a turn on. I only did it out of curiosity, but once I did I thought I might be gay. I find women so attractive though. Bisexual it is.

 

While I had sucked off a few men over the years, this was the time I really questioned whether I was gay or not....I never believed this would ever happen. I live in Central Florida and had the chance to go to Orlando one morning to drop someone off at the airport and then wait around for their return later that afternoon. This gave me the opportunity to check Doublelist for the area. I found a posting by a man who wanted to meet up. I had used DL just a few times before and hoped I would find success. He was not able to host and we did not want to use the car, so he asked if we could meet at a bar on Edgewater Dr. I agreed and we set the time for noon.

We arrived there at about the same time and walked inside. It was immediately noticeable that this was not your usual bar. The images on the TV screens were of very well endowed nude men. We sat at the bar, ordered our drinks, and just talked. After a few more drinks, he wanted to show me the back patio. I had noticed a lot of cars in the lot, but very few people in the bar. When we walked to the back I understood why. The patio is partitioned off into several 'private' areas with chairs in them. All of those places are visible to anyone who wants to look.

There were several chairs occupied while another person stood in front of them. The seated person was sucking them and you could move in closer to watch. Watching them was was quite stimulating. It brought back to my mind all the erotic situations I would fantasize about. The guy asked if I would like to find an open chair. I was both excited and nervous, but agreed. The only open chair was right beside another one that was occupied by a man sucking off someone. As I stood in front of the chair, the man I met came in close, took off my shirt and removed my shorts. Standing there naked he lightly squeezed my nipples and began holding my dick. The man standing beside him getting sucked reached over and began touching my dick, too. This was so surreal...so many components of what I had been imagining for years were all around me.

He then asked me to sit down and take off his shorts. When I pulled them down, he stepped in close, held the sides of my head, and guided his dick to my mouth. I was so into this moment that I just engulfed it. It had been so long (two years since I last sucked anyone) that I just began passionately sucking, licking, and twirling my tongue all around the head. He started moaning as he became extremely hard. There were now a few others around us talking as I was sucking. After several minutes, he let me know he was getting close and wanted to cum in my mouth. I nodded yes and I eagerly sucked away. He pulled my head in close as he began cumming. I used my lips and tongue to increase the pressure and he kept pumping my mouth full of his cum. With his hands pulling my head in so close I had no choice but to swallow. He stepped back after he finished, thanked me, and stood aside.

The man standing beside me who had been getting sucked told me that I appeared to enjoy doing it. I looked up at him I told him I loved sucking. Two other men who were watching had their dicks out and asked if I would suck them. I nodded and the closest was a big man who moved up to my chair and complimented me on how fast I made the first man cum. He had a huge, thick dick that was leaking a lot of pre-cum. I held his dick and licked all around the head. Then I put it in my mouth and tried to suck it the same way I did the other one. When he was completely hard, it was so big around it was difficult to keep my tongue moving. As I kept sucking him the best I could, he tells me he is getting close. My lips, mouth, and tongue was putting as much pressure on the head as I could. He moans very loudly as he lets out torrent after torrent of thick, gooey cum. He is holding the sides my head against his body as his hips are pumping away. Several heavy streams of cum just poured out of him. When he finished he looked down and thanked me. I smiled up at him as I wiped off the cum that dribbled out onto my chin. The third man stepped as the big guy stepped back. I also noticed that three others were standing near us, watching, and rubbing their dicks. He positioned himself in front of my face and I put his dick into my open mouth. He was nowhere as big as the last guy and it was easier to use my tongue and lips. I went a little slower because my jaw was getting tired. I was using my tongue to circle the head as I sucked slowly and steadily. He held me by the sides of my head and told me how wonderful it felt. Soon his hips began thrusting more and moving his dick in and out of my mouth at a faster pace. Then his hips began jerking as he came. Swallowing his cum was not difficult at all.

I thought it was incredibly erotic that here I was naked in public with five men literally right beside me and that I sucked off three of them, had my dick fondled by the others, and had three more standing to the side to watch me suck with their dicks out. As I started to stand up, I was asked my one of them if I would suck his dick. I told him my mouth was worn out and that I had sucked and swallowed all of the cum I could take right now. I was picking up my clothes as the three men I sucked thanked me and said their goodbyes. I was so surprised at how much I enjoyed the whole experience. I had fantasized so many, many times about something like this, but I never, ever could see the reality of myself sitting naked sucking off a group of strangers out in the open where anyone there could watch. It was the most erotic, carnal, gratifying, and sexually stimulating time I ever had.....

 

Simply amazing experience! I'm glad you enjoyed the openness and freedom of it!
Have you ever gone back there?

 

As a kid looking at all the butts in the shower/locker room after going swimming, really whenever I got to see naked male booty

 

fascinating how so many of us started out on different paths that converged and took us to just about the same place...

 

I know what you mean. Its nature at the end of the day I suppose.

 

Very much so.

 

I was around 10 years old when I found my Dads smut magazines. After a few masturbating session I found myself getting just as excited looking at the naked men in the pictures as I did the naked women.
Then I started wondering what it would be like to be playing with and sucking the cocks in the pictures. Over time the thoughts were overwhelming and I started tasting my cum and then I tried self sucking.
Wasn't very successful at it but I could get the tip in my mouth. I was very pleased the first time I came in my mouth. Growing up in a very small town I was to scarred to talk to anyone about my thoughts
and fantasies. It wasn't until I was 32 that I got my first taste of m2m and another mans cock and cum. I met a gal shortly after that and we have been married 24 years now. She know of my first but doesn't
know I still play with men when I can. I still love sucking and swallowing, among other things men can do to each other.

 

I think from the first time I felt a hard cock slide in my mouth I thought I might be a little gay but love women too!