what was your "I might be a little gay." moment?

Even though I started having sex with men and boys at a really early age I never thought that I might be different because it was all I’d known!
My first time I thought I might be a little gay (queer back then) was when I was in junior high gym class. We were wrestling and my opponent had his knees on my shoulders and instead of trying to escape I just thought that I wanted to suck his cock. Which I did after school!…

 

Growing up I ran around naked with both male and female cousins. I was comfortable being with either. In my teens my male friends and I spent weekends hanging out. Usually nude which lead to masturbating together and at times each other. When we started dating the girls of course that stopped but I always remembered and deep down missed the fun it was. I was sexually fulfilled through my marriage up until the last few years. Marriage is now non existent. My interest again has peaked

 

That's interesting. Did you always know you have a small cock, or was it only once your wife mentioned wanting a really big dick that you realized you don't quite "measure up?" How small is your cock?

You obviously like the idea of your wife taking a much bigger cock than yours, and it sounds as if you'd be turned on by SPH (small penis humiliation), which isn't uncommon among cuckolds (I would know as I am one). Would your wife be turned on by using SPH on you while she was taking a much bigger dick than yours?

While I'm not "small" by any means (I'm about 7"c), my wife has a boyfriend, and I know he's quite a bit larger than me. He is about 8.5" and THICK. I know just how much she loves his BIG dick, and while she's never told me I'm "small", I often fantasize about her using SPH on me, especially right after she's just been completely satisfied by his massive cock

 

It's so great to feel a guys dick in your mouth and giving him pleasure. I still remember my first time sucking a guy and how great it was and wished i had started sooner.
My wife loves to point out guys with big dicks at the nudist club we go too. She likes to tease them a bit to get them hard. Then she caught me sucking one there

 

When I was in the military and entered the open shower with 60+ other naked men I got an erection seeing all of the different sizes of cocks. I quickly made my way to a corner and lathered up so to hide it. I was aroused at seeing all of these other naked men and so many big sexy cocks and questioned my sexuality. I oppressed those feelings and stopped looking around in the shower so not to get aroused. Then about 14-15 years later I was married and the fascination for cock returned while watching porn. I accepted a blowjob from a guy and was amazed at how well he sucked me off and swallowed every drop from my 8" member. Then I sucked my first cock and really began questioning if I'd always been gay. I struggled for a while but kept hooking up with other married men to suck each other off and return to my wife and enjoy having sex with her. It took a long time to come to the conclusion that I am bisexual as I enjoy having sex with both men and women. I could never just be with a man in a relationship, I need the tenderness and beauty that a woman provides me on a daily basis. Having oral sex with a man provides the two of us something totally different, something a woman is unable to provide as we pleasure each other. I'm obsessed with sucking men off and do so on a regular basis and my wife is fully aware and supportive of my activities as she has lost her desire to have sex (too painful) now that her knees are in such bad shape.

 

The military was where i was first sucked by a guy and where i sucked my first dick too

 

Like you my love of cocks started when I was in school. Me and 3 friends would have lunch together on school ground in a village setting. We compared each other’s cocks. I remember then that physically I was smaller then them. No one said anything but I kept thinking. I then saw my mother cheating on my father in day time and my sister and I peeked through the hole in the wall. I saw the man pull his pants down and large cock.my mother was a tiny lady and first time I saw ****. She lay down and he put his cock in. My mother opened her leg to get it in.

since then i started looking at cocks and feeling hard. My cousin and I at 10 odd years of age first had sex. I remember he was bigger than me. I had first taste of cock and am hard as I write this.I asked him to fuck name. I was submissive and since then after marriage wife will humiliate me by saying she can’t feel me and use your finger. We starred getting guys to fuck her and enjoyed the big cock

I loved it that I was small and wanted my wife to fuck others

 

The first time I saw an erect cock, something I remember to this day.

 

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There's nothing wrong with being "different." That's what makes us all unique. If everyone was the same, life would be boring.
Being a bisexual guy, it's very unlikely that any one man or woman would completely satisfy you sexually, but why not just keep an open mind?
I realize most women want/need a friendship/emotional connection before sex even becomes an option. Maybe you're just not good with relationships, or just haven't met the right woman yet (I firmly believe there's someone out there for everyone).
When it comes to guys (especially bi guys) it tends to be a lot less complicated. Most bi guys (not necessarily all) just want sex with another guy without any emotional/intimate connection.
If you're a "typical" bisexual guy, and feel that same way, then why not try a gay bar? I'm sure in places like that, you could meet other guys like you, someone who just wants to play with/suck cock in a "no strings" type situation

 

T

 

it was my fascination with other boys' bodies in the locker room - I found out that way too, quite early on

 

Probably around 13 or 14 I was on vacation in Hawaii there was kid my age in the same condo
We would play fight in the pool. That is when I knew

 

When I woke up stroking my best friend's dick

 

My earliest memory of me being with the same sex was when I was a preteen. My neighbor asked me if I had ever sucked dick. I told him no. He then sucked me off but just for a minute or two. I liked it but nothing happened. He then asked me to suck his since he sucked mine. I did it but it didn't do anything for me.

My first "I might be a little gay" moment was in 5th grade. My best friend used to spend the night with me fairly often. One night we played truth or dare. It started off innocent but eventually I got dared to take off my pajamas. I, in turn, dared him to take his off. Then he dared me to kiss him. I did and we kissed for quite a while. At first it was a little weird but I relaxed and we started making out. We then dared each other to suck each other's cocks. My actual "I might be a little gay" moment was when he asked to play truth or dare (it was like the 4th time) and I said, "Can we just skip the game and go straight to fooling around?"

 

Well I grew up in the 80s. Being gay was NOT ok from what my parents/church led me to believe. At the time I was very much into church and believed what I was taught. When i was very young and even into high school, I didn't find what I was doing to make me feel like I was doing something morally wrong. Back then, I didn't want people to know that I was doing what I was doing with other guys because everyone made fun of "fags" and I didn't want another reason to be made fun of.

It was when I was out of high school, that I started feeling like what i was doing was wrong. I'd have a strong sexual urge to have some sort of sexual contact with another man and I would get an opportunity to do it. Everything would go ok and it would be on the way home that I would think, "OMG I shouldn't be doing this." and I wouldn't do it for a few weeks or even months.

Then I separated from my first wife and met Bill. I would call or text him and we would hook up. It was on an urge to urge basis at first. Then we became extremely comfortable with each other and that's when I came to the realization that what I was doing and feeling was normal and OK. I haven't looked back since.

 

I used to think it started sometime in my late 20s when I realised I got as turned on by the cocks in porn as by the pussies! But actually it started earlier, I remember in my early 20s there was this guy who I knew a little bit through a society we were both part of. Whenever we met, he would give me a big hug which made me feel very uncomfortable as I thought people would think I was gay. I don't think he was, it was just his personality to give hugs left and right, but it felt very awkward and I realise now it wouldn't have bothered me if I didn't deep down question my sexuality (I certainly wasn't very comfortable in my masculinity). A few years later I was in San Francisco and ended up in a gay bar with a friend, I was completely naive at the time so didn't realise immediately until we ordered a drink and the barman, a tall muscular bearded bear guy, started coming on to us. I felt both super uncomfortable and weirdly excited by the experience. Fast forward to the year I turned 30, I took the courage to meet a guy who had never done anything with a guy either, and we went right to business and stripped down but all he wanted was for me to suck him which I did and liked, but he didn't seem to be comfortable and didn't come. It made me realise though I I really liked cock and also it was obvious to me that I was more of a bottom than a top (not even knowing the terms at the time). Less than a year later, I met an older bi guy who fucked me for the first time and the rest is history..

 

My first was when I was pretty young, and did the whole camping out in the backyard in a tent made of bed sheets, with my buddy next door. We found some old porn mags in the dumpster behind a liquor store and ended up dry humping in the tent

The next "I might be" moment was with my best friend in High School. He was dating a girl and she was kind of controlling. I hated her. He thought I was jealous that he had a girl and I didn't, but I was more jealous that HE was going with a girl, rather than with me.

Things became pretty clear the night I picked up a hitchhiker dressed as a woman. I thought she was pretty hot. It wasn't until i was getting head, that I groped and found his package. Instead of freaking out, I said nothing, kept getting blown and began stroking him off.

But it wasn't until a Gal I was going with pegged me that I started actually craving Cock.

 

I think mine came one day when I was sitting and thinking about all of the guys I'd had sex with that week - and it was a lot of them - and I asked myself, "Am I really gay?" The question really messed with my head and to the extent that I totally overlooked the fact that I asked this question... after a nice and long session of sex with my wife and able to feel my love and desire for her (and women, period). It had taken me a while to realize that I had already answered the question but, yeah, that was my "I might really be gay" moment. And to make it funnier, ten minutes after I realized that, no, I'm not gay, I was in a nice 69 with one of my male neighbors... because sucking dick is so much fun... and something that gay men don't own any more than women own this.