what the fuck..

Often when I feel the visual effects of acid seeping in, I see a screen layered over everything with like a million billion little aliens dancing, slipping into and out of each other, like my vision is infinite pixels and each tiny box is filled with these distorting, melting aliens doing egyptian dance :cheers2:

 

so my friend in my dorm has been gone for about a week now and i couldnt figure out what it was...i was thinking he was avoiding me because of how weird i was acting because of all the acid

but his dad called me about an hour ago and told me he was in the hospital. Apparently he took too much acid or something and went insane over this past fall break, his dad sounds pretty hopeless for him

its a wake up call to me

 

that happened to me my last acid trip in march...i went insane, jumped out first floor window and ended up getting hit by a car...but i've told that story enough times on these forums...this is just another example of how dangerous acid an be sometimes...some people on these forums can go ahead and deny it until they're out of breath but there is, and always will be, stories like these.

 

stop taking anti-depressants. sit down and take some lsd and sit there and meditate and go beyond ones self, see the bigger picture, listen,watch,feel, learn what it has to teach you. maybe you wont need anti-depressants anymore.

 

Or maybe his next hit of acid will be the one to push him over the edge. Maybe the antidepressants are the only thing keeping him sane. Maybe it's all in his head and he doesn't need either of those chemicals to be happy and have fun.

 

I agree with this 100%

Get off the anti-depressants. Obviously you already felt, or feel mentally unstable, which is the need for such medications, so why tamper with your weak psyche and throw psychedelic drugs into the mix?

That's such a recipe for disaster...

 

thats what im really


really

really

really worried about

 

everytime i sit down and meditate, i get massive feelings of buildup almost to the intensity that i am about to die, i keep thinking im going to cross over to another world and im not ready for it, i dont know if its in my head or what but it freaks me out

 

mental unstableness is sometimes related to people who are born with the ability to see parallel dimensions and so on, but doubt there seeings and label them as psychotic thoughts.

when you reach that point of intensity where you feel like your about to die, give in, let the other world take you in. once you are over there, your ego will be wiped away, you will not be scared anymore, and you will learn something powerful enough to make all the pety worries of everyday life suddenly disappear, as you see that have no relavance to the bigger picture.

 

i dont want to go insane though

 

what i guess im trying to ask is

will i come back?

 

You'll come back for the most part. Just stop doing drugs and relax and don't freak out about it. The more you analyze your own mind, the crazier you'll feel. Just play video games and stuff and eat good food and have a good time

 

i just want to be able to relate to other people

do good in college (im a freshman)

and still be able to take the lsd without my thoughts leading me to death and paranoia
or coming out of the experience with scattered thoughts like i have been having

 

That's getting pretty greedy my friend. If that's really your goal, there is no magic cure... just work on dealing with your thoughts and trying to organize your life philosophy somehow so that you aren't shaken so much by each new idea or feeling.

As far as getting away from crazy thought patterns, I really like the book Be Here Now by Ram Dass. It could make you more crazy though, you never know (kind of like LSD).

 

i kinda see what your saying about the selfishness

i want to know more about parrallel universes and shit

because thats what i kept seeing on my trips and shit

i cant really explain how but i just see so much evidence of it

 

look up astral traveling, listen to some videos on dmt (terrence mckenna), read some dmt trip reports, try to experience it on lsd, look up stuff on consciousness and metaphysics, any of thomas campbell's work is fantastic (look up My Big Toe), read trip reports, all of these are great things for learning about whats on "the other side".

once you look up enough of this stuff it will start to paint a picture, youll see where everything weaves together, embrace it with open arms, and yell enlightment here i come!

 

I think it's funny you want to take LSD without your thoughts becoming what they already are...

 

shit man, you're deep into some shit. lay off everything, including the meds, and the pot, for at least 12 days.... probably longer.

and DONT fuck with rolls and shit.

The hospital is the last fuckin place on earth someone who did too much drugs should go. TERRIBLE TERRIBLE idea. proably WORSE than turning yourself into the cops, but that'll probably be the natural continuation of things after the doctors get you to confess where you got you shit from.

People get perscriptions for mood pills when they think they are crazy; what you believe tends to become true. you can control the way you feel. make sense?

 

it does

i have had many questions in my mind for the past couple of weeks because everyone talks about it and i have experienced a taste of "the other side"

i want to know why nobody can explain it to me, or what will happen to me on the other side

 

I have a question for you: Why are you afraid of the mind you have? Why are you afraid of what you are? If you are crazy, then you are crazy. How can you hide from it forever. Dive in and find out. Stop hiding. At least you'll get peace one way or another.

Hint: You're not crazy, you're just very afraid of your own inner world, because it is pure psychedelia.