What OPIATES are you ON RIGHT NOW?? Part 5

I got back an Exam that I thought I did well on and spent over 60 hours last week studying for. I got a 12%. I was thrown into the deepest pit of depression I have felt in two years. But I intervened with 4mg of Suboxone and 50mg of Vyvanse, and although I feel upset about the grade, I am not ready to jump in front of a train anymore (which I was considering about two hours ago...).

 

Damn etkearne. Sorry to hear that, but keep your head up. And where do you go to school for Pharmacology? I've been thinking about trying to get into school for it next year and I'm only right over the Delaware Memorial Bridge from you, so if you go close to it I might look into where you go.

 

I don't go to Pharmacology school. I just do research involving Psychopharmacology in Mathematics. I am a graduate student in Mathematics. I go to the University of Delaware.

 

Oooh...Haha. I seen the lable under your name I thought you were studying it. Thanks anyway tho.

Signing in on an Opana 20.

 

so here is what has been happening lately.....at my last dr appointment 5 weeks ago, on a friday the dr scripted me 32 days of meds to make it to an EMG appointment that they only do on tuesdays but instead of only giving me like 3-5 extra opanas she wrote it for 30 extras, so to get it past the insurance company she upped my dosages to make it look like it was just 30 days of meds, me of course didnt take them as prescribed and thought i could sneak back in there at 28 days and get a refill....well that didnt happen...


when i went in at 28 days she, a different dr wanted to post date my script which had me freaking out since i was out.....i ended up talking to the main man there, i didnt let them know i was totally out, but that i wasnt going to make it till tuesday.....so he came down hard on me for abusing my meds and put me on pill count, and busted me back down to coming once a week....but also said it was part her fault for giving me the extra meds so it was kinda a push....

so today was my first appointment at one week....we chatted a bit, and he lectured me on taking 80mg of opana or more, and only being prescribed 60mg a day, but since then i went back to work, working 48hrs a week, so i told him that the meds werent cutting it, and that when i was on the 80mg a day it was the best i felt in a while, so he was going to bump me to 2-40mg opanas a day, i told him that it really helped me when he moved me to 3 20's instead of 2 a day, so he himmed and hawled a bit and said what we'll do is do 3-30s a day and cut me from 10-15 roxies down to 8 a day, which i was cool with, FOR NOW, lol...

i just found it really odd that he was busting my balls for taking the 80, then was going to prescribe me the 80, and then moved to 90mg a day, had me lol'ing inside and lmfao all the way to the pharmacy!!!!!!!

and on top of that i told him that i understood i was wrong in what i did and since going back to work i realize i cannot abuse them or i will never make it through work, which is very true, 50 hour work weeks are a bitch when u have been laid off for 16 months, lol.....so he kind of gave me a slap on the wrist and wanted to do every 3 weeks in stead of my previous every 4, and the most recent every week, i again interjected and said you know what since im working 4-10s im off on fridays so any appointment time would be fine.....so i got away with coming in every 3 and a half weeks, and he said if im ok with my meds, ill go back to every 4 weeks.

NOTE: He never even counted my meds, IMHO this is the best pill count/punishment i have ever received.......Please sir may i have another? lol..

and that is about the jist of my past 5-6 weeks........

 

Bump for 75 mg Hydrocodone
Bump for 3mg Etizolam

 

I am on another Vyvanse run this past three days, so I haven't had a good 'nod' lately. However, since my Vyvanse script was raised to 70mg per day (which is awesome), I have been in my glory with that stuff. 70mg of Vyvanse is equal to about 40mg of Adderall, which is a pretty solid amount.

However, by week's end, I will likely go back to hitting up the Suboxone harder.

I DID have a nice opioid experience last Saturday when it snowed. Some of my FAVORITE opioid experiences seem to all be during snow storms or at least when snow is on the ground. There is just something so beautiful about seeing snow falling while on opioids that makes you feel sooo cozy and happy. Add a cup of nice hot chocolate or hot herbal tea, it makes for a great day.

 

Where oh where is BOTTLEFED at.........miss u man!!!!!!

 

Good point. I haven't seen him in awhile! I don't want our old Alliance from the first half of the year doesn't fall apart. We had a great sub-forum going on (and I am sure we still will...).

 

yeah i hope not either, and im sure we will....i have been busy with work....keeping tabs on everything, just been quiet!!...

 

codeine..very small amount

 

I have still been on that Vyvanse love affair, but today, for the first time in 10 days, I started to feel a little 'tired' of Vyvanse. I feel like I want to slow down back to therapeutic levels of the drug and explore my mind with something else. And of course, that means with opioids. And for me, that means Suboxone. Since I have been using less than prescribed lately, I have a surplus. So either tomorrow night or Saturday afternoon (haven't decided which...) I am going to have a really good opioid session.

 

heroin and ciggarettes

 

Strictly suboxone for me these days. I do like you ET I take less then my normal dose and I'll save up and go all out Saturday. That's all I care for these days.

 

Yeah. It might not be party-city, but it's a nice life. One I find worth living!

 

Well i fuckin fell off again. Im the most miserable and depressed ive been for a long time. I am so sick of falling back into this habit. Fuck...

 

it's not a mistake if you can learn from it. stay positive dude, it might be dick to say, but if you think you have it bad, you are oblivious, there is much worse out there, it's not like you're robbing and scumming for your fix, and even so, there are those who kill.

but seriously, you will get nowhere being depressed and down on yourself, you have to do a 180 and stick it to your demons by killing everyone and everything with kindness. i know all about depression and i still get down sometimes, but not as bad as i used to, because what first world problems do we have? stay cool

 

I was bad off on cocaine 6 years ago, Just as bad off as I am on opiates now. I can't remember for the life of me how I got over the addiction and back to 'normal'.

 

Hey guys new to the site and I just moved to Florida! I am a user but have no access to anything! I took my last 40 ER opana this morning and the withdrawals are starting, I moved to Brooksville from norcal and thought I'd check the forums before going to the streets! I saw bottle fed is in central Florida so maybe he can point me in the right direction! Thanks for your help! I'm about to be in a world of pain

 

BottleFed Has Moved From FL!!! And This Isent A Connection Site!!!
180mg Of Oxycodone Today!!!