I am too sensitive , and I honestly expect foks to treat me like I treat them. So , when I been nice to someone and they get hateful towards me , it honestly hurts me. Also , I cant stand to see the hungry kids ads and abused animals comercials on tv , they make me cry.
I definitively have too much trust, in every human i meet. I've been hurt in that way. . Too much faith in the human heart. because i always think "people aren't that stupid, that they cant realize that trust and love isn't the way of life" DUM, because people don't understand.. The more i get fucked over by people, the more i understand though. So i guess its getting better. I'm not good at getting out with a message, in a bigger social setting. Think it has something to do with my "trippy" (to most people) view on the world. The reality as we know it, is nothing but things that have accured, have already been learned. I think the real reality, lives in places where there has been no man, no thought beside yours. Inside ourselves. Though with love for our planet, cause it is our home and the source to everything. I think people should live only with love for the nature and all its creatures, and explore the realities of the true self, human nature and creativity. I always get thoughts in my head when i hear my friends talk about, how cool money is, how awesome it would be to have a stripper wife in a villa, somewhere expensive. all that american dream stuff. my thoughts go: haha, blinded individuals. You seek pleasure in things, that other individuals wants you to seek pleasure in. And I've been there myself. But i never got any happier, no matter how much power and money I've had. I have found out that happiness for me is when i am in touch with my innermost and deepest desires, my true self. Also when im sharing love with open minded people like myself. Of course shrooms made me realize all these things. But when i use my learnings from my "visions" when talking to people, they just stare dum at me like: "Why isn't he talking about BMW's or football, i don't understand" an extreme example, but you get it. I am getting better at living paralleled realities also though. Times they get mixed up though. People think i'm nuts sometimes. I'm having a WAY TOO BIG conscience also. Sometimes i let people get away with things i do not agree with. Because my conscience tells me, that they will get sad, when they find out that I'm maybe wiser than them in the current situation. Is fucked up. guess that s my worst attribute. Not good at setting the good example that i innermost want. This was my first post on hipforums. Greets from Denmark