wish i'd been around for my family when shit hit the fan, instead of pissing off and taking all the drugs that i could get hold of.
Should have thought of Sharks with Lasers on their heads before Mike Meyers,,, now it's just gonna look like I'm KopyKatting.
Few. Maybe not fucking a family member. Probably not sharing my wife with my best mate but I enjoy it in a messed up way. I know she loves it more than just me which makes jealousy creep in. Most definitely not sorting out my problem of cumming within 20 seconds while fucking my ex who was the love of my life.
not having been born smarter, more ambitious, or on a world where people don't teach each other to hate logic. also one where they live longer. 150 years with the health and appearance of a 12 year old would be about right. (a very great deal more diversity of appearance then the human range would be good too) the only choice i regret was that time i bought a boat that turns out to be the only chance i might otherwise have had to buy land. but there are other kinds of things i regret, which probably not the right word, conditions that exist, that are so far below what they could be, that people put so little analysis into determining what they want, the kind of word we have that results from their failure to do so. that people make the excuse for this of biological imperative which it isn't. ever having to live in a city. the loss of public transportation services to rural areas, the fires that have now burned most of the paces i would have been living if i had never had to. these of course are not from my choices or preferences, but it does annoy and sadden me that the culture has gone that way.
Absolutely agreed. I lost my mom two years and 11 days ago and I have been having major issues over it recently. It's just that weird random pattern of grief I suppose but I've realized in the past couple of weeks that I've been left out in the cold as far as my family is concerned. My dad and brother are close, they talk every day and my dad goes out of his way to go hang out nearly weekly. I live in the same town as my dad and he only wants me over to do housework (and I work in a place where the chances of catching Covid are incredibly high and I don't want to risk getting him sick) and when I call, he rushes me off the phone and ignores my calls if he's talking to someone else. I guess more than anything I regret being born female. I'm not transgender or anything, I've only ever wanted to be a boy because being the only girl in my family (even growing up, only boy cousins and a brother and boy neighbors) has been incredibly lonely and I had to be a tomboy to be accepted. As an adult, I can finally be the girly girl that I always kept shut in a cardboard box. But without my mom, it's the fucking loneliest I can ever have imagined. Mom wasn't the best phone talker and she wasn't too easy to depend on to keep plans but I feel like if she was still around, I'd at least have someone. I've just been fucked up since a road trip my husband and brother and I recently took to our uncle's funeral and the subject of how me being a teenage girl nearly tore our family in two and how happy they would have been to leave me and my mom behind. I was argumentative and moody but I never did drugs, I never got pregnant, I had a 3.85 GPA, and I hung out at school all day and evening (I was involved in theater all four years of high school). They would have shit if I had been like some of my girl friends, but they both seem to get some kind of kick out of bringing up a probably two or three year period over and over. Jesus Christ I think I probably should pay a therapist to hear about this shit.
Sorry for what you are going through. Hold your head up high you are who you are and I think you’re very special. Things get easier with time and we just have to make the best out of each day. It’s nice to hear from you again and see you on here.
Honestly it's largely been my anxiety speaking loudest. My dad called me shortly after this post to wish me "Happy Daughter's Day" and as I am not very active on social media these past few months, I had no idea it was such a thing. But it made me feel a little better. It just sucks we have so little in common that I have to be jealous of his relationship with my brother. But they both need that relationship, I get plenty of support through friends and my husband.