not having to worry about where i could lawfully live over the next few months, and how after that, is pretty much the main thing i'm concerned with at this point.
my life is fantastic. most people's are. but they spend too much time dwelling in the past, to realize it.
Gosh what a question! I feel im constantly searching for my purpose here. I have alot of love to give and i wish to spread it around and share it with others (in a non sexual way of course lol). Doing something with meaning. Finding that really special place where i can be truely happy and free.
People are told what to need beyond the essentials, and the essentials as far as I know are eating, breathing and taking shits. Sometimes I feel like I need a partner, but in the sense of believing that lead to some sort of "ultimate fulfillment" seems a bit illusory. Chicks come and go. Relationships start and end. Sometimes I feel like it'd be nice to have a few new friends, meet some new people. Probably wouldn't be a bad idea to change some shit up in person. BTW glad to see fellow Massholians
I have everything I need and want in life. I am not a materialistic person and I do not need large amounts of money. I have lots of family and friends and love in my life, so I am quite happy all the time. My karma is good and I love my life. I wish all of you all the best life has to offer forever.
I could go for some love, Something that feels it's worth working for and won't just fall apart once a little something goes wrong. Someone to accept me and my flaws without trying to change me but possibly instruct me on things i may need to work on.
What do you miss internally? The feeling of being complete. When i thought i had my future planned out, my life goals set and all of that... i realized then that life is meant to be lived, not just to go off and work. I need to do something in my life that makes me feel as though i've truly lived, but for right now i feel incomplete and empty. What is that thing (if you can identify it) that would make you feel complete and satisfied. Something that you had once and lost it, or never had and it and have been internally wishing without knowing? Possibly an adventure of some sort. I want to go out and live in a vehicle, travel and meet new people and find new places, learn from mistakes and from those around me, what it truly means to be off on your own as an individual. I want to become one with nature and take away material possessions as best as i can for that time, and i think that in doing this i will have that feeling of competeness that i used to have. Or are you absolutely sure what you lack but it appears impossible, or needs to be worked on for long to get it?. I think that it will be hard. I will miss my family, my friends might go with me or they wont, i could end up lonely and the whole thing could turn out a mess. Anything could happen, so its hard for me to just think "yeah, i'm doing that" because even if i want it to be it's not as simple as that. But i know that if this feeling does not subside and i still need to go out and travel, then there wont be anything stopping me.
What do I THINK I need vs what I really need? Perhaps a reliable level of self discipline to not need negativity as a motivator. What I think I need will vary according to the calamity I find myself in when questioned.
I need , and miss the code of conduct that folks seemed to have when I was younger. People used to be kinder and show more respect for each other than they do now. Now , its not shocking to verbally abuse or be mean to people like it used to be , and thats so sad.
If you're asking what I need that I don't already have, then of course the answer is "nothing". I'm in good health. I live simply in a modest adobe bungalow (paid for) in a lovely old section of town just a few blocks from the campus of a major state university. It's an eclectic neighborhood of students, artists, research workers, medical workers, and retired people like me. I'm not the fire-breathing, sign-carrying activist that I once was, but I'm still the same tree-hugging hippie chick I was back in the "summer of love", with the same values and same beliefs. Most weekday mornings I'm out in the sunshine early before it gets too hot, futzing around the yard, chatting with the young people on their way to class, chuckling at the antics of the neighborhood roadrunner, and maybe listening to a little Mozart. In the afternoons, I spend time tutoring children or mentoring them. Many of them have never been around older people and are fascinated by the differences/similarities that age makes. They are also fascinated by the larger world than what they have seen, and the opening of their eyes and the expansion of their minds is the greatest reward I could hope for. I truly believe that doing this makes a difference in the world, and it constitutes my "activism". At my age, my "needs" are much more in the emotional sense than in the physical. My women friends are a treasure. We support each other and have wonderful, warm times together. I believe that family and friendship are the nuts and bolts that hold together the superstructure of human civilization. I have gentlemen friends as well, and yes I have sex with them. I love it, too! It's been said that happiness comes not from having what you want, but from wanting what you have, and there's good truth in that. A society of good, decent human beings will be a good, decent society, all else being equal. We do our best with what we have, we take care of those who can't take care of themselves, and we vote! I don't know what else an old lady could need.
More understanding from my husband and the comfort of a trip partner. He's a great sitter and I have a lot of loose friends, but . . .