I am thinking that you all dont want to know what I am thinking. I am also thinking that even if you were thinking you wanted to know, I think I would not tell you anyway what I was thinking, I think. :<))
I'm thinking about... I hear the train a comin'; it's rollin' 'round the bend, And I ain't seen the sunshine since I don't know when. I'm stuck at Folsom Prison and time keeps draggin' on. But that train keeps rollin' on down to San Antone. When I was just a baby, my mama told me, "Son, Always be a good boy; don't ever play with guns." But I shot a man in Reno, just to watch him die. When I hear that whistle blowin' I hang my head and cry. I bet there's rich folk eatin' in a fancy dining car. They're prob'ly drinkin' coffee and smokin' big cigars, But I know I had it comin', I know I can't be free, But those people keep a movin', and that's what tortures me. Well, if they freed me from this prison, if that railroad train was mine, I bet I'd move on over a little farther down the line, Far from Folsom Prison, that's where I want to stay, And I'd let that lonesome whistle blow my blues away. ...Johnny Cash's "Folsom Prison Blues".
I'm thinking about that "politics of fat" thread. It really got me into a frenzy honestly. I approached this community as a place where (cause of the hippie vibe) there wouldn't be judgement and a lot of negative vibes. So, the first night I'm here, and *POW* smack in the face with something that is very near and dear to my heart. The only thing that might be worse is if I also find a post saying that all manic-depressive people should be locked up, or all Americans living in the U.K. should be taken out and slain. *sighs* After all the crap I've been through in my life, and all the stress I have going on right now, I was honestly hoping for just a relaxing night of reading stupid thoughts and random babblings from people who may or may not be tripped out on some substance, who share thoughts of peace, love, and kindness. And instead, I get frustrated, and nearly want to cry, as I sit here with peace symbols staring at me; but so much hatred towards a group of people being shown in the topic presented. It's hypocritical at best, and definitely a big contradiction in what is the vain/theme of a hippie like forum. It just really blows my mind, honestly. The mental illness isn't helping either as I was all revved up to begin with and now feel as though I have no peace in my soul at the moment, and I wish I had a big FAT j to chill out on my balcony with and listen to the birds as the sun comes up on yet another day after yet another sleepless night.
Daaaw, it's only a boyfriend Nay. A nice *HUG* for you til he gets back though, if that's even what you are sad about...!
I'm thinking that all my friends are going away to uni and that I'm starting to get very lonely. And the love of my life goes tommorrow...
Get me some too I haven't eaten yet either and I didn't eat much last night because I was at a restaurant and I chose the nastiest, blandest pasta ever. TUT!