What Are You/Have You Been Doing Today.?

Went to the pub. Feel like shit. We were telling our bosses about the massive money problems at the moment.

My boss ordered food for himself and as we were talking I ended up in tears now he thinks that we've not eaten today, even though we have and he gave us his pizza to eat, we tried to say thanks but no thanks but he wasn't having it. I feel like a fucking charity case and I feel even worse.

On the plus side a friend of mine wants to see my portfolio and if she likes it she wants me to teach photography to disabled people. But yeah I feel like absolute shit. Things were going so well now they're not.

 

Hdh I'm sure you'll get through it and sort something out.

I went out to the SU with housemates and played pool for free, was good- until I got left sitting on my own while the other people played, then I got thinking. No one has texted me since monday. And that's only because I was arranging something for the next day about the house. My best friend has desserted me and everyone else seems busy. Hm.

 

Weird. Maybe it's time for new friends? Or ask them about what's goin on?

 

Lol where am I going to get some of those from. Spose if I get a job I'll meet new people. I've asked max if she is blanking me or just too busy but no answer. Seems to be busy on facebook so I know she is getting my msgs. Oh well, worse problems in the world.

 

People like that aren't worth the effort, that's what I learned. I cut them all out of my life and yeah, I went through a good couple of years without any friends. But after 3 months in a new town I have so many friends, that I realised it's not me, it's other people who have a problem.

It's a shame you don't have the access to find more friends who won't blank you for no fucking reason. You're a top gal, I don't think it will be too hard to make better, reliable friends.

 

Thanks I've never been good with making friends. The ones I did make fucked off to other ends of the country. They never contact me, I always have to contact them first. I know its not good to say "if you want to talk to me then talk to me first" but I do make so much effort and it isn't returned. Meh, I dunno. I have this whole thing of feeling invisible. It props up every now and again.. Yay.

 

It could just be an "out of sight out of mind" thing. I certainly have that. Unless I see a person regularly or they email me regularly, I don't really make contact with people. It's not a personal thing.

I was very much like you until I was in my twenties. I came from a rather abusive home and I just kind of was invisible and never spoke unless I was spoken to, although inside I was dying to be more outgoing. It's only now that I'm no longer speaking to my family that I've become seriously outgoing.

Even now, sometimes I just sit there while everyone talks and I just sit in my own little world.

I'm certainly not saying your like me, in the abusive home sense, and I'm not trying to be patronising. I'm just saying I can just see a lot of myself in you with the quietness. When you're working and you've finished uni I bet you come into your own and you'll have lots of great friends and you'll wonder why you put up with the friends you used to have.

 

That's true, out of sight out of mind, I have that with alot of things xD I'll come out of my shell eventually

 

You will for sure. Just remember, it's them with the problem.

 

Lol its all very well thinking that, until I'm the one sitting at home on my own with no one to tak to

 

Hey, your lucky to have the internet and forum people to talk to! When I was living in a half way house I didn't have a computer, not even a tv or a phone so I sat in my room completely bored shitless. Things will get much better trust me. You should seek out some T'ai Chi classes, or even knitting groups, shit like that to make friends.

 

I startled a fox with my headlights, and he must have been a gypsy wizard fox because he cursed my headlights and one of the bulbs has gone, I'm tempted to get a HID kit of e-bay (yay chinese tat that I swore off)

Ive got a week off end of july if anyone wants to do anything (I'm looking at you HDH/DV)

 

We should hang out. Newfoundland and the U.K. are like, four kilometres away from each other. I could swim there and shit.

 

<insert racist swimming joke>

 

Did he jus--

Did he really just...

OH HELL NAW.

GURL, HOLD MAH EARRANGS. *Hands his earrings to Sarah Again*


IT ON, BITCH.

 

Its 9am and its beutiful and sunny outside today,its the last day of my holiday so we're going out for a walk to the river and then we're making pizza for later.
Im in a pretty good mood

 

Maybe. Depends if I get this job or not, so I'll have to see. Would be cool though, We can go on adventures on the Tarka Trail.

Seeing as my house is some sort of unofficial dreadlockks meet up, I say you're too young to be in my house. Swim t'other way lad. Thaa's not welcome in maaah town ;p

 

well fuck... i didn't get to sleep until 2am and then I woke up at 5am... there was no point in going back to sleep since i'm insomnia right now. so i went for a bike ride, did about 16 miles and went to the gym. now i'm back and since i only have 2 hours of sleep i know im going to crash some time today.

whether its at work, or at probation appointment, or most like my post probation appointment drug smoke-up... we will see.

 

<3 Knitting groups sound like fun I might try and organise one at the uni next year.. maybe ^^

Today I'm packing my room up. Oh, I got the results from that intolerance test, I'm intolerant to egg whites, cows milk, and yeast ^^ Vegan time!

 

That's great that you found out your intollerances DV! I bet you will feel much better now. =)

I'm super sore from the accident. Getting worse as the days go on. I'm wondering if a massage would help or if I am too tender to benefit from one.