well, i guess i was just told how it is

thank you lynsey and brian.
and yeah i couldnt add you to my friends list on that name tn. sucks.
anyways why do i wanna be with you? i know you were joking but seriously you deserve happiness too and i do love you.
and thank you for saying im strong- too many ppl on here think that i am not but i've always been strong.

 

You have to realize that she is the person who is going to have to want to get better, in order to get better.

 

and you do realize that i want that and am already taking steps, right?

 

very true, when it comes to drugs, no one and nothing can be said to make smone stop. they have to want it.

 

for the last time my only current addiction is benzos.....which i was prescribed for four months ..... im taking less as it is....withdrawling as it is....and am going to the doctor tomorrow for a wean off plan so of course i want to get better.
do you think i LIKE having to take benzos to not have panic attacks?

 

two steps forward, three steps back.

Sorry if I sound heartless but I'm feeling frustrated. You dont remember the countless hours that you and I chatted and when I tried to call you when you were freaking out.


This reminds me of dealing with my alchoholic drug addict. Nothing changes, nothing changes. Very frustrating. How long do you expect to have unconditional support and continue to abuse your body and mind like you are?

 

i have nothing to say to that. sorry.

 

benzos herion alcohol violence tree shrooms uppers downers muscle relaxants ...... anything you can get your hands on.

 

oh well.

:cheers2:

 

i take benzos every day cause i was prescribed them. i am physically addicted and want to wean off safetly. heroin i can count on two hands how many times i did EVER and im never doing it again.
alcohol- im done drinking.
violence- im not even gonna ask cause im not violent....only to guys that hit girls.
tree- sure ill smoke all i want.
shrooms- i havent eaten shrooms in three fucking years.... would like to again though

uppers downers muscle relaxants....makes no sense. i dont even take any of those things.

 

after the four drinks?

 

fine benzos are downers but you named them twice.

 

every 2 days you say you're not drinking anymore!

 

um i had one. i was gonna allow myself four. i had one. sue me.

 

wanna know why i started to drink a bit? i ran outta benzos and it wasnt pretty. they are both cnsd's so it calmed me down. once i get off my benzos i wont NEED to drink. fuck, i dont even like drinking.

 

ok well good luck.

this is crazy. crazy.

 

what is? that i had one beer today?
that im addicted to benzos and am going to a DOCTOR tomorrow to get off them? i didnt start taking them for FUN, jess.... i started taking them cause i have extreme panic attacks.
yes i fucked up and did dope but im not addicted and im not doing it again.
i dont even DO anything else except smoke weed!

yeah i rolled but that was like five months ago.
you act like im some junkie when really i just need off benzos

 

read some of your posts Trish!

 

warmo.....she may be doing some things she shoundn't be doing, but she IS doing better. Trust me on that. Only last week she was taking upwards of 40-50mg of valium everyday, and now she is down to less than 20mg per day. Progress is progress, and she will continue to make progress, because she really does wanna get better. It's not easy and she's scared, but she's still getting better, whether anyone notices or not.

 

im not saying i didnt binge a couple weeks ago. im saying im no longer like that.