Wanting children or not

I dunno, pregnancy sounds nice. My mom said she really liked being pregnant with me and my brothers. She said having a child growing inside you feels good and it's a cool feeling when the baby kicks. She said the last month is the only really bad part.

 

When I was younger, I was so sure that I didn't want kids. By younger, I meant till 2 years ago. I didn't want kids for a simple reason. My parents' many decisions and their actions affected me and my brother so much. Not that I don't love them but they were clearly not ready to have kids at all. We both went through life in a maze, I guess.. They got us involved in so many things we shouldn't have. After that, I just didn't think that I want to bring a child into the world if I wasn't both financially or emotionally ready.

Then I started working in a kindergarten and I loved it. So much. I even planned on adopting a baby and stuff.. then I got off it because kindergarten kept me so busy and I felt like I have 16 kids at one time especially since I've been teaching the same class for the third year now.

Then I met my current boyfriend who I totally love and then all of a sudden its different. I really want him to be the father of my child..

Something that I was so sure off is now an uncertainty. I don't know anymore.