True love is having a reason to wake up everyday... It is having someone who makes you soooo happy at times, then at other times, you could kill them! Being able to see someone so happy & love being around a person even if you are just sitting around shooting the shit. True love is sooo many things, those are a few things I feel.
I just have to share all of this as I am the happiest man in the world!! I have always wanted that "one", true love. All my life it has eluded me. I have been with my fair share of women in my life. Some I was attracted and into, others were just me being with someone so I wasn't lonely. Perhaps I spend too much time dwelling on the sexual side of things, other times I smoothered people. I have just always wanted to have someone that would make me laugh, make me at ease, someone that I could tell anything, someone that really understood me, hold me and emotionally support me, as well as someone that I had a legitimate lust and desire for. For years and years it had all eluded me as I have said. This being said let me tell you what had happend to me as of late. I recently got back together with my very best friend in the whole world after not seeing her for 12 years. From the 4th grade all the way through high school we was the best of friends. We knew everything about each other, we did practically everything together. She was like a sister to me. When in high school she had two really life threatining episodes of cancer and survived. I was always with her the whole time she was sick during her chemotherapy, loosing her hair, geting deathly thin. We could always be ourselves, laugh, cry, whatever I think you guys get the picture here. We did try to date a couple of times like once in 7th grade and once our Junior year. We instantly called it off becuase it was too uncomphortable since we were so close of friends. After high school she was going to college and we didn't see that much of each other. Well I think that we were 22 the last time that we saw each other. Durning the next 12 years I would often wonder what happend to her. There were times I would have dreams about her and wake up the next day feelin totally refreshed felling like I could do anything. Anyways like I said we just recently got hooked back up after not seeing each other for 12 years!! It has been so awesome. Both of us agreed it was like we have never been apart, the comphort is still there, the goofyness is still there, everything was still there. The only thing that is different is that she keeps telling me that I have turned into a "hottie"! Talk about givin me a huge boost, LOL. Well our first weekend together was so spiritual!! We have become romantically envolved now and it is such a beatifull and spirtual thing is all I can say. I guess because we have been through so much together in our lives, even though we were apart for 12 years we both confessed to each other that we were still on the inside of our hearts all of those years apart. She told me most of her happiest memories involve me, as do my memories with her. We have such geniunie feelings and there was soo many more sweet memories and other things that we have kept telling each other since we've been back together. I would go into more about these but that would make this whole thing a lot longer than its already become, plus I want to hold all of these feelings for her and I to hold together. Well this last weekend we were together again. We talked about more things, we are both kinda scared since neither one of us have had any luck with relationships in the past. We are so much the same, want the same things in life, and now that it looks actually real we were a both little leary about the whole thing. I have just got her back in my life after a 12 year absence, and life it too short to live with regrets and I wish I would haves. We held each other(one of many times) and I couldn't fight it anymore. You never know what will happen in life and I wanted to let her know before it was too late. I held her, cryied, and started giving her a recap of our lives and friendship together. There was so much said but here's the jist of it----I have always loved you, if we were never apart for those 12 years I know that my life would have turned out a lot better just from you being my best friend in my life, I have always felt you with me over the years we were apart, and my feelings of love have never faded away, you are really my soulmate you may not know it but I definately do, I don't know what the future holds for us but if things don't work between us I will always love you and you will always be in my life as my best friend reguardless. I will always love you.--------Like I said I just couldn't fight it anymore. I told her as slow as she wants to go it totally alright with me. I mean we have always had such a strong emotional bond with each other and now my best friend, my soulmate, is becoming my lover and I cannot begin to describe the joy that I feel. I know that I have been BLESSED beyond my wildest dreams. Even though we can't keep our hands off of each other we still want to take it slow and oh how I pray that I will be strong enough to be her man. Those strong, loving bonds of friendship are starting to bloom into something that is totally blowing my mind and rocking my soul!! We both feel the same towards each other, believe me its not my crazy head wishin, I can see it, I can feel it, and I know that she can as she tells me things that I have always wanted to hear from other lovers but never was told. Like I said we know each other soo much, she is the only one that has ever understood me, and when we make love that is just the icing on the cake and believe me I have never had icing like this!! All those years of love is what is making this so awesome and beautiful!!! I don't know if what I am explaining fits on this post, but I don't give a damn, I have my best friend, my soulmate back in my life, I can do anything in the world with that woman by my side, and I LOVE HER WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hello all. Just a quick update on me and my soulmate. Superbowl sunday we went out and drank too much. We had a blow up at each other. I knew Saturday morning when I woke up that something wasn't right with us, and I knew she was feeling the same way. WE are just too much alike and I knew if I was feeling a funk then so was she. We shoulda talked about it before we went out drinking, but oh well. WE don't regret what happend between us and it was special, but both of us were feeling like it was like we were sleeping with a sibbling, lol. I wish we wouldn't have blew up at each other, but I deffinately feel beter as the whirlwind of turmoil in my head is now over. We still love each other and will always be best friends!! Didn;'t get home until 5am the next morning, she only got about a hour of sleep until she had to go to work and she still called me about noon time to see if I was ok. You know that we know each other so much but at the same time 12 years apart and lifes experiances change people a little bit. She had been fucked over too many times and she told me that she don't know if she can trust again, or at least just not right now. I can deal with that and she is right. But just like before in our lives together, we will both totally dismiss all thoughts of romance and be like brother and sister. Just having her in my life will make me a better person. She will hold my hand, stand by me, and kick me in the ass when I need it and do it with love and not with sarcasim and a scoulding tone that just drives pep away. Some may say that I lost a lover, but I know better, I have so much more in her than just lust. Besides who knows, after a few years of us being together she might change her mind, but I am not holding on to this. If it happens then she will have to make the move and she knows this. The best part is she told me that she would always be by my side and help me in my life, and if I become interested in another woman she will make sure they are right for me because both of us deserve the best, and I would do it for her too. So I might be a little let down, but all in all I feel so much better as I no longer have to go crazy in my head, lol.
true love,huh? well, i think when you love someone so much,that it hurts...you look into his/her eyes and it's hard to turn away..everytime she/he touches you ,you tremble and hold your breath for a second..and a lot of other emotions and feelings
