Tonight I need a virtual shoulder to cry on...

Oh my love, don't, you'll make me cry again. Sugar, boys SHOULD cry if they need to. No shame in it,...ESP. if you have lost a baby!
So no-one cares bout you? Wrong. I do.
So boys don't get to cry? Wrong. If you want to private message me and talk (= cry too if you need to...) anytime , then my sweetheart you CAN.

(If you do I can also give you my email address if you might rather do it that way or in addition to PM?)

If you don't want that's fine,...BUT if you DO then please you MUST feel free to,....ANYTIME.

I am so sorry to hear what you have been through and the fact you seem to be a bit alone with it too,...I'm not being sarcastic AT ALL when I say I could honestly cry for you darling.
Just know you have a friend in me here who knows where you're coming from, and where you heart and head has been too.

Love, peace and empathy my friend.
Stasia XXX

(p.s. DO cry if you need to darling)

 

Old tiger, I never quite know what to say in my replies to you because you ALWAYS just say THE NICEST THINGS!!!! If I had the authority to ordane you a living saint I would!! You are just the kind of hippie I aspire to always be!

I do tend to want to off load any of my problems through conversation with good people like you almost immediately that I aquier them. You see I use to bottle things up terribly!...untill one day I just hit ultimate rock bottom and everything went crazy. Too much trying to force it's way to the suface all at once. So it ended up all exploding out instead. So that is why I release any negitivity as promptly as I can. I feel (and STAY...) so much healthier mentally that way. I am just very lucky indeed to have wonderful people like you so that I can do that!! So thank you sweet friend!

Love, peace and empathy to ALL.
Stasia XXX

P.s. I am feeling all those vibes! I am grabing them and putting them in my pocket to keep!! Thank you! Lots of infectious smiles from me in return!!

 

Stasia,

Thanks for your answer..niceley put..
It's true what you said about bottling up problems..
it becomes a big balloon of frustrations and disappointments..
then..one day the balloon will burst..and all the anger will come
out..it's much better to tell it out like you do..
but a lot of people..well..they don't have the guts to do so..
because they feel ashamed or think they will lose respect in the
eyes of others..telling inner things to others..needs respect and trust
from the other side..if that trust is NOT there..then don't..
HIPPIES should have respect,trust and understanding for each other..
only then you will feel what it means to be a HIPPIE..
in the sixties I met lots of people..with the right mentality..
lots of my friends changed unfortunateley enough:&into real
nice husbands who now are ashamed that they once were HIPPIES..
I think taken into consideration that society has brainwashed them..
I feel sorry for them..if you want to be a HIPPIE..then show it..
and in you,Stasia..nobody will ever brainwash you in something else..
because you got the RIGHT attitude in yourself..would like to ask you
one more thing..please pass it on to others..
the moment you can make someone happy..Michael here for instance..
you will feel good yourself..and yes..bad days still will come..
to all of us..because HIPPIES will always be a minority..
we are a chosen few..let's keep it ALIVE here..
right now on this forum..its the only place we can feel FREE..
and express ourselves towards each other..
I tell you about these 2 frogs..
who had fallen into a bucket of milk..the first frog was a pessimist..
and said..I cannot swim..and he drowned..the second frog..
could'nt swim neither...but started trampling...and the next morning..
he was found on a bucket of BUTTER..let's all be optimistic..
this world is a big mess..with rules we don't like..
big brother mentality..oh..yes..indeed..
but..all of us...here..if we help each other with our ideas...
well..we'll be like that second frog....and we will survive

old tiger(Belgium)

 

Ah Stasia, I'm so sorry to read about what you're going through. I don't know you very well (new) but you can have my shoulder to cry on any time. I've never had kids so I cant begin to imagine how terrible this has been for you. I dont know how to express properly what to say but I'll be thinking of you. :kiss: pm me if you need to. Same goes for you Michael too. XXX

 

Hey Stasia..and all the others....

If you somehow should have a bad day..like we always have sometimes..
listen to music..I would suggest following songs of the Moody Blues...
1/Voices in the sky
2/Loveley to see you
3/Eyes of a child
4/I never thought I'd live to be a hundred
5/Candle of life
6/Watching and waiting
7/Question
8/Dawning the day
9/Tuesday afternoon
10/Isn't life strange
And sometimes it helps a lot..like Stasia says..to let your tears go....
If I can help..I'll always be there for all of you to share ideas..

don't go where the road leads you..
but go where there's no path...
and leave your own trail..

happiness in life..
depends of the quality of your thoughts..

a smile is like a lamp on the window of your face..
and it proves that your heart is at home..

I hear..and I forget..
I see...and I remember...
I do...and I understand...

the one who doesn't have any dreams..
hasn't got any reality..

old tiger(Belgium)

 

Well I have just spent the last hour and a half tracking down all these song you listed! Some I already had, some had to I emailed some of my hippie friends from Canterbury (don't know any hippies in Manchester, not really anyway...) and beg them to send them as attachments in an email to me and others I had to find on line and download. Phew!! But I have finally got them all! Except no matter how hard I try or where I look I can't find "I never thought I'd live to be a hundred" but I haven't given up yet!!! I WILL find it! It is my mission now!! Lol!

Well thank you for sharing with us Old Tiger. Some of the songs you listed I had VERY strong emotional reactions to! In particular "Candle of life" moved me deeply to my very core. "Watching and waiting" too. Almost as though some sort of very 'euphoric wave' washed over me, almost a little eerie. (not eeire in a bad way though, I can't really explain what I mean) I did NOT expect to be moved by it like that but I was, I can't explain it. It's was reminisant of the sort of feeling I achieve when in deep meditaion! Weird.

So, thank you Old Tiger, my sweet friend.

Love, peace and empathy,
Stasia X

(P.s. Old Tiger you have an email from me by the way, sent it about 2 hours ago.)

 

Oh sweetie, I can not even begin to imagine the pain you must feel. I've lost two babies to miscarriage in the past and I know that I still think of them everyday, but that is so small in comparision to what you have endured.

I read your post and my heart just ached. I wish there was something that I could say to make things easier, to take your pain away, but I know nothing can ever fully erase that.

Much love to you, peace, healing, and many, many heartfelt hugs...

 

Visit this forum when you need a shoulder. http://www.hipforums.com/forums/forumdisplay.php?f=104
There's always somebody home, and the door is open. Plenty of Cocoa and cookies! I'm sorry for your loss. But was glad to read you're feeling better now.

 

I know, "hippychickmommy" but there are no words for it. Words fail me.
I am very sorry to hear about your losses too. I must admit I had a little cry for you too.
I know to a very small extent what it is to miscarry (I am really NOT trying to compete with what happened to you...NOT at all!!...I DON'T think mine even begins compares to yours...) my 1st pregnancy (Before the son I lost) 'went away' at about 16 weeks. I feel I must be hugely honest though and say I wasn't really very, very traumatised by it. Only for the reason that the pregnacy was a result of a 'nasty attack' if you know what I mean? I don't need to go into it, I am sure you understand without me having to spell it out for you. That's NOT to say I'm never sad about losing that pregnancy, I AM. I just I don't think it's anywhere near the same as losing a pregnacy of a baby you chose to have and that was made from love not a violent crime.

(((((((((((hugs to you from me sweetheart))))))))))))

But my true sadness and loss in life is not the two things that happened to me that I mentioned above but losing my dear, sweet, baby boy, Lewis Bohdan.

I don't normally think much of Celine Dion, I am not much of a fan of her's BUT listen to the song "Fly" by her. It can say so much more about this than I ever could. It is also one of the songs I had played at my Son's funeral because of the BEAUTY of the song. Although it is an incredibaly sad song, (as was the funeral of course...) it is NOT morbid and mordling, which I did not want the funeral to be either so I thought it perfect for little sleeping angel.

Love, peace and empathy,
Stasia X

 

I just thought I'd write the lyrics for those who just wanted to know the lyrics or do not have the song to listen to it;

"Fly, fly little wing,
fly beoned imagining.
The softest cloud, the whitest dove,
apone the wing of heavens love.
Past the planets and the stars,
leave this lonely world of ours.
Escape the sorrow and the pain,
...and fly again.

Fly, fly presious one,
your endless journey has begun.
Take your gental happiness,
far too beautiful for this.
Cross over to the other shore,
there is peace forever more.
Hold this memory bitter-sweet,
...untill we meet.

Fly, fly, do not fear,
don't waste a breath, don't shed a tear,
Your heart is unbond, your soul is free,
be on your way, don't wait for me.
Above the universe you'll climb,
far beoned the hands of time.
The moon will rise, the sun will set,
...but I won't forget.

Fly, fly little wing,
fly where only angels sing.
Fly away the time is right,
go now,.....find the light."

Ok, now I am in floods of tears again!!
It is just the most devistatingly beautiful and sad song ever. But manages to speak all the things that we are not strong enough to say ourselves.

Love, peace and empathy,
Stasia X

 

Oh darling, I, in no way, felt like you were trying to compete with me! If anything, I felt a bit foolish for having even said anything about my losses, because I think that they are nothing compared to what happened to your sweet little boy.

That's a very beautiful song by-the-way.

Much love...

 

Stasia,

Thanks for your mail..got it..
listen also to following songs(Moody Blues)
1/Floating
2/Eyes of a child 2
3/Beyond
4/Out and in
5/Gypsy
6/Eternity Road
7/Sun is still shining(my favorite)
8/Eyes of a child 1
They used to be all on an LP called
to our childrens children...back in the sixties/seventies..
Please..do me a favour..and listen to it..
I can assure you..you willl NEVER regret it..
and Stasia..you see..a lot of response to your thread..
so...you will NEVER be alone...come on...cheer up..
spring is in the air..and all the others on this forum...
there is never a last end...
but..there is always a NEW beginning...
old tiger(Belgium)

 

Please don't ever say you feel foolish for talking about your losses!! They are your losses, real and terrible to you. For that I give you the respect that for you that IS as bad as it gets. Saying the worse thing that had ever happened to someone was, for exsample, they seperated from the man they were married to for all of their life and still loved him, it might not be the worst thing that can happen to a person. But to that one indervidual it would be just the worst nightmare to her. Do you see my point? If it's YOUR WORST, then to you it IS the worst thing. I'm not sure I'm explaining very well what I mean, but I hope you understand me.

Your losses in your life get my attention and full respect.
You lost, you hurt.
It doesn't change how you feel knowing that I went through something you said you thought was 'worse'
It doesn't change a thing.
You still lost, you were still hurt.

(((((((((((((((((((vibes of love for you)))))))))))))))))))))))))

 

Stasia,

This thread you started..is quite something..
it is going to the cores of our hearts..to the inner self..
and isn't that what's life is all about??
you feel it now..what it means to be a HIPPIE...
in the true sense..it's sharing..with a big S...
sharing our sorrows,happiness,smiles,tears..
so come on everybody..and let's make this world...
something WE can fight for..right now on this forum...
see you later...
and coming saturday..when I drive my motorbike through
the rolling hillsides of South Belgium..nobody will take away..
that FREEDOM..which we all are craving for...
wish I could let you share this freedom..wherever you are..
old tiger(Belgium)

 

You know what Old tiger, you are right it really is quite something!!

From now on I want anyone who is feeling down or low about ANYTHING to come share with us on this thread. Anything, small or big and complicated.

I want to 'pay it forward' all the friendship, support and kind words I got given to me in my time of need. Now I want to be able to 'pay it forward' We ALL do that and it won't be long till a small group of us will be 'recycling' our help, support and friendship, passing it on, then when you need it again it will return to you. How long can it really take untill that small group of inderviduals grows into a whole community and so on and so on.....

Some of the nicest souls I have ever had encountered in my life I have met right here on this thread. When I was low and needed to a friend, they came. They all came and talked and shared with me.
I asked for 'a friend' but instead I got 'friends' and entire community of FABULOUS hippies!!!

Love, peace and empathy,
Stasia (Goodess Moon) X

 

I completely understand what you mean, and it was very beautifully put.

Love...

 

You have such a positive outlook on life, and your posts are so inspiring. There really needs to be more people like you out in this world.

 

Stasia,

O.K..let's make this topic...a special one
someone..who have the guts like you
to talk..and look..for a HELPING hand...and a spoken word only..perhaps??
but WORDS..put in the right context..can HEAL..the deepest wounds..
and you..STASIA..you started it all..let's get A MENTAL ORGASM..
funny words..but I guess..we all get it on this topic??
or am I wrong??and mental??yes......oww..that's life..isn't it??
So..come on...and share whatever you want too..
respect,understanding and trust..it's all here..the rest follows..
old tiger(Belgium)

 

Now that right there is worth more than money and gold!!
Thank you so much! How very lovely of you to say so. Thank you!!

This world is too full of 'nasties' and negativity already so I just try to step out and away from all of that.
If enough of us do it slowly but surely just maybe people will catch on un till bit by bit it grows globally? Finally irradicating it instead of simply breeding it as seems to be the way of this world currently.

Would be nice to think so, wouldn't it?
Well just maybe it could happen? Shouldn't we try at least?

 

You are very welcome, and I mean that!

I definitely agree with what you are saying!