This...could very well be goodbye.

we kinda adopted eachother last night & were gonna try to get together sometime soon & go camping or drumming or something
tara is really amazing, she just didnt have anything to feel passionate about, anything to look forward to, all i did was showed her that life is full of surprises, & if you have nothing today to make u happy, dont despair cause tomoro may be full of new discoveries, new passions and new experiences
i shared with her some of my experiences that changed my life & in no time she was excitedly looking forward to experiencing these newly discovered passions
see the problem really was when shed be feeling down, feeling like life was pointless & empty, she had nothing that wasnt pointless & empty to turn to, shed turn to tv, to drugs to things that were equaly empty & depressing & had nothing real to inspire her & give her hope
shed never find hope on tv, just more depressing bullshit, i think we talked for 3-4 hours last night
i think she cried the 1st 5 minutes.. by 15 minutes into it she was feeling much better.. by 1/2 hour, you could hear not only a smile, but excitement in her voice
no more sadness, except for just a momment hours later when she realized just how close shed come to really dying, literaly 1 minute changed her life, and so did all of you by caring
last night i connected with someone i love deeply, & will be freinds with for life
and it makes me think, a 1 minute delay in reaching out to her & that opportunity would have been gone forever
i gotta say the folks here in the lounge are wonderful, if shed p[osted this in random thoughts like others had before, 80% of the replies would have been cold hearted attacks calling her a attention whore or worse, ive seen it before , calling someone a liar & fake & attention seeking drama whore..as they layed unconcous on the floor from an od
maybe its the weed we smoke or something but the people in here are just more caring, & i appreciate it & im sure tara does too
so lets let this thread fall away from memory, as its an embarrassment i'm sure, we dont have to say goodbye to the tara we love, but hello to a new happier tara
lets let this be the last post here & if u have more u want to say to her say it elsewhere or in pm & not remind her anymore of darker hours but instead look forward to brighter days in the future
god i love that girkl... shes really amazing

 

Running is good advice too and eagle, we are friendly stoners
I just want to add that I dont think it should be an embarrassment. I would think just about every human feels that way at some point, and if they dont then they are probably incapable of actually feeling anything really profound in life. The good thing about emotions is they are bipolar. being able to feel that low means on the flipside you will be able to feel incredible highs of peace, happiness, and joy. So no worries everything will work out, sometimes you just have to kick it down to survival mode where you focus on things like eating, sleeping, exercising.. living basically..
Try to enjoy the simple beauty of life and take it easy. And were all here if you need some stoned out internet people to take your mind off things. Take care

 

ah man,i just saw today the thread and i feel bad for not being able to say a word earlier. i delighted to hear all the good news, it really made my day to see how much a bunch of hipforums really did helped another persons life (not only soaring eagle,that most likely did most of the job) but also each and every post all helped out. thank you for being there for one another