- The Cessation Of Sin (Trip Report) -

Well, in terms of spirituality, I'm still wallowing in the mud. I go through the standard ups and downs just like everyone else. Been trying to elevate to that level I know is waiting for me, but every time I go to make the jump I enter a period of negativity and succumb to it.
But as for writing - I used to write quite frequently, but have since entered a period of creative stagnation (which is why this TR was so hard to finally sit down and write). I do however have a rather large archive of things I have written, mostly poems and short stories. If you find enjoyment in what I write, then maybe I can dig some stuff up for you, and PM you a few things. Just let me know.
I'm just honored that someone spent a moment of their existence to stop and listen to what I had to say.

 

I think I know what you mean. For me it's usually either thinking I don't deserve it or not wanting to do it alone, which sound ridiculous enough now.

 

In my case, I find that my internal negativity is always reflected in the outside world.
It's like I reach a point where I think I am positive, then I am exposed to many negative experiences within a short time frame, and the result of this is that I become negative as well.
It's almost like the universe is saying "haha!! you thought you were a positive person???? well, what do you call THIS!!!"
I guess I just need to be at peace even when the peace is gone. It's a weakness to give into all this negativity, that is for sure, the only thing I can't decide is if that weakness is a choice or if it is our destiny.

 

It was beautiful, Neo.

You really do make me feel like I was there.

I can definitely see you as a writer.

Great control of your thoughts, btw!!

 

this almost sounds like some heroic journey you undertook, and i guess to some extent you did. It was absolutly chilling, what you wrote.

did you write this in one sitting, and did you ever have to go back an edit it or anything like that?

 

I guess I mean that I admire your ability to be open to your own spirituality. Many people are scared to look beyond what they see in every day life. Too scared to open their minds to what else is out there and what binds us all together.

You seem like a person I could really get along with lol. We could have some very thrilling debates. I don't enjoy getting into an argument with somebody with a closed mind not willing to accept something that doesn't agree with them. I'm the type of person who is willing to hear and consider what somebody has to say. Hell, most of the people here seem to be of the same mindset. Hmm, maybe I've found a collection of peers here; I really enjoy the atmosphere of these forums.

 

I wrote this using stream of consciousness style writing during the course of two nights, after which I went back, added some minor details, cleaned up the grammar, and attempted to make the ramblings of my mind readable for others.

 

I foooooound it!! Nice TR report.

Question -- how familiar were you with the spirit/look of Ganesh prior to this trip? Of Indian/Hindu Gods in general?

Fuuucking WIIICKED ass vision. I truly can sort've imagine the magnitude of suddenly being greeted by this beast. Even remaining skeptic and 'true,' fucking christ I'd wonder what the hell it meant too ha ha.

Scary and amazing at the same time I bet.

 

you are my fucking idol. you should write a book. god damn. just so amazing. damn i cant wait to do lsd

 

very well written, neo. excellently done...

 

Is I die?

 

i dig

 

Though I am skeptic. FULL-ON hallucination of a figure that wasn't there, that didn't come to be using the surrounding environment on only 1-2 hits of LSD?

Anywho, questions from the previous post at hand.

 

Best trip report ever

 

lol.

 

The same thing happens to me. I think peace, love and levity are the best key to feeling happy at those times.

Excellent report btw, thank you

 

wooah a TR from neodude! Didnt think ya had it in ya!




Just kidding haha. Have you had any recent trips? Good TR btw

 

I really wanna try acid now. Thanks for the post.

 

" Then I realized that this was merely the reflected opposite of earlier when I thought I was in for a negative experience and there was nothing I could do to stop it, and the mind unleashed itself in full dualistic fury. The mainstream aspect of free will was an enormous joke as I sat there, looking into the past of my life and reviewing the choices that I had made that had brought me to this point, and I realized that no matter what I would have been here in this moment all along."

Are you saying that we wonder through a narrow chasm of fate in life and make free will choices based off a limited number of choices, or are you saying that you would have still been conscious and aware at that same moment no matter what you did in the past and that there's really nothing that could change that?

 

This was probably one of the greatest trip reports I have ever read. GREAT job!