Stoned Ramblings

yeah yeah. accident prone. or just trying to do the work of 6 people when you are just the one. theres no time to slow down, and barely time to be careful.

i will blame the "completeness" of my fall on the tequila i was drinking, but i likely would have tripped somehow anyway.
im still in a lot of pain. my shoulder and my thigh are such pretty colors. do they sell a "bruise" shade of paint?

 

Starting to think that this was a bad month to start growing a beard...

 

Yes. Don't you have a 6 month winter? Couldn't pick a worse month! Sorry to rub it in (that's what she said)

 

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neighbor is outside mowing my property with his bush hog....gotta be 85 outside.also my rotting tree is down

 

Yeah but if I wait until winter I have to buy more razor blades. This decision is 50% choice/50% laziness.

I keep hearing thunder, but haven't had any more than a couple of raindrops.

 

Cutting down a tree that's got nothing around it and isn't hung up in other trees... How quaint.

 

i just posted a facebook PSA that (to sum up) says that i take swearing seriously, and if you ask me to "speak now or forever hold my peace/ piece" i fucking will.
i am hoping to have a horrible sickness, right before my birthday, because my hubbys father is marrying. and i got a shit ton of reasons why two shit people shouldnt marry and subject everyone else to their shit.
i wont bother y'all directly with it, but i have no patience with these people. HE waited till his folks passed to start thinking marriage (hey, not like everyone hates the ****, right? not like she hasnt already taken advantage of you repeateldly, right? and ALWAYS left holidays as soon as we got there. yeah. super cool that all the elders, aunts, uncles, and cousins can burst into bitch bashing the moment they are gone, eh? )
i know im the only dissenter with balls. ill do it, i dont care.
hell, ill let my own relationship burn. dont ask me for honesty if thats not what you want. the fuckers daughter went back to her abusive mother because his piss poor excuse for a mother-figure wasnt better than the abuse. there are so many exceptionally valid layers, i could get a crowd to turn against them. im hoping for explosive diarrhea so i can stay home and not "embarass" them. FiL wants to buuy a house... (in this market, that is 100% stupid, AND insane) but a big house. yeah, but keep telling me all her fucking kids/ grandkids wont be staying there. we have watched it time and time again. she got her youngest son hooked on crack, hubbys mom saw HER at the dealers house, hawking hubby's PS2 with her son. cuts of the same damn cloth. the youngest is in/ out of prison, drug and stupidity charges. second has 3 kids now, his wife was alcoholic and couldnt behave, stole the kids, hes had to fight to get them back, but FiL has to be the one available to watch the little shits. the oldest, ugh. keeps making babies with the same gangbanger. the best way to describe him is twofold, first he is "schrodinger's douchebag" which means he says basically random offensive shit, and then goes "jk, jk, just kidding...." like hes not the fucking douche. but hes also one of those motherfuckers who makes whole blocks dumber just by proximity.

FiL's grandkids are 3. one of those is dead, and he couldnt be bothered to meet in the 3 months he was alive for. his mother and sisters (great grandma and aunts to my children) showed up on their own. they are some of the only people who got to meet both my boys.
when we brought ozzy over it was "oh we hope we get to see more of him than...."
F-U-C-K Y-O-U
you arent worth my kids knowing. fuck right off.
and FiL thinks he can critisize his gay nephew in front of me....
and FiL is upset that his kid doesnt have his name, Even Though HE refused to marry HUBBYS MOM. if i get knocked up again, its getting my name. i know who the fuck i am and what that means. its a safer name for my children anyway. oh, because the "other" male cousins turned out to be gay. so MY male out of your fam, who you couldnt be bothered to give your name to, is the ONE responsible to carry on the line?

haha haha fuck you asshole. if anymore of my kids are going to take a name, its gonna be mine. i will be kind enough to remember their father, but i am done with the naming BS.
i still hope for one more, even knowing the fight that will ensue. i shives no gits.


im mad. im sexually and emotionally unsatisfied. i will set the world on fire. i mean, its already on fire but i can help destroy us all.
god damn im grumpy today.

 

my ''thing'' when I was more dog than nice guy was to zero in on moms recently separated or pissed at hubby….either was a wonderful way to starta conversation..''what an asshole your husband is''...''I cant believe he doesn't fuck you twice a day''..''have another long island ice tea''....''lets go outside and puff a doob''......''want a line of blow''...…..''take your top off for me''.....

I a much more civilized now......likely why I do not get the wet

 

i think negotiations could be made. survival is still more important for most hubbys/ dudes. i fucking hope.

what a travesty our current admin is.

 

out province just reverted back the 1996 sex ed courses..no longer teaching trans issues,permission etc etc...poor fucking kids being thrown back 2 decades by the right wing premiere...he also halted the wind projects

now now...you forgot the natural lean exactly where it needed to fall....

there is a tiny bird wont let me catch him...I may have displaced him

 

Mmm firewood.

 

I was going to mention that but couldn't make the sentence structure work out properly...


Bummer about the bird...

Dying maples tend to be largely rotten before they come down... Doesn't burn very well.

 

New dispensary opened near my buddy's house in Hamilton walked out with a half oz of MK Ultra ad a free preroll for $50. Prices at Hamilton dispensaries are getting insane.

 

the tree the neighbors have pulled (the minimum) down from is a silver maple. it really needs to be fully trimmed back or destroyed, its just not safe. even after trimming it still drops big branches in every moderate wind.

i am in an unsafe state. like, im still safe enough to make sure my kids get fed tonight. but i would also like to ::::cough::: do what i like ::::::cough cough::::: with the next dude dumb enough to show up.

i dont have a bunch of dumb dudes, thats wishful thinking. i have 1 ex i could surely convince, if only once.
and i could probably lay waste to the unexperienced, but i have had to coddle the unprepared before, and thats not so fun. sure, we can just watch a movie...
ah. 18 year old me. desperate. npt good times, but definitely times.

 

8min to prayer time.. Evenings getting shorter every night.

 

id be such a different person with no attachments. like, id still be broke, but i could get laid whenever i wanted.

im sure there would be other freedoms/ differences, but fucked or not fucked seems to be taking priority dominance right now.

and how the hell did i bruise my middle finger? i need that finger to masturbate! damnit.

it just sucks to be me.

 

you bastards had a heart you'd e chipping in on me going to colorado to at least try and use my meager skills to help this poor woman and possibly fool her into...…? …..

...its always a gamble with a married woman..or emotionally vulnerable woman ….sometimes....after they have a good strong orgasm they start crying....and sometimes that crying will start before you finish...…. ….I dunno if all this is making want to go to the bar or to never go the bar again


I love you molo but I am pegging you as a cryer


ps...insert gg joke here about me making woman cry in bed...haha gg well done lol

 

thats so cute that you think i'd be the cryer! thats totes adorbs.

im so riled up i might break you. and you'd love it.

but youd have to promise to vouch for my refugees <3 and that could be a sticking point. i mean they are cute, but terminally obnoxious...

 

dang storm ran out of goodies before it got here.