Well it seems you are getting stoned with a lot of older people. Us experienced smokers pretty much have it down. We also understand that newer smokers have not quite got in to the hang of it. Ask your older stoner friends how they can follow a conversation so well when they are stoned. Better yet tell them of your insecurities when you are stoned. We understand really! By talking about it you face it. In your place you can control the environment at other peoples place you cant. Still conversation and interaction are key here. Apples to Apples is a simple fun game of comparisons. Both kids and adults can play it and it is fun and you learn things about people from it. I think Barns and Noble sell it but any big toy store probably does. Just give the toy stores in your area a call. It is a great game for stoners. Simple and fast moving. You can play a game in 20 minetes and then start a new one or quit if you wish. The game is not really important .The fact is interaction is what you need. There are other games or activities you can suggest. As far as children...hell they make me nervous when I am straight. The only cure to fear is facing it. Children are really more open to you than you think. They want you to like them, really! They have not learned the judgements we adults have. Most of the fears you mention are small. I know they seem real big. But if you face them you will work through them. In time you will get past them. I am use to working with stoners that think cops and big brother are out to get them. Then there are others that think the world is against them or people are watching them. Others are terrified to go out in public. Those are big ones. I will give it more thought but again, you really sound like you are okay. But talking with others about your worries will help eliminate them (talk to them about it before you blaze) If you have questions. Please ask.
Just one, older, more experienced person. Thanks for saying I'm okay! That really makes me feel better. I've only been smoking for a year and a half, so even though I've done it a lot does not mean I have it down. BTW, her kids are close to my age (15, 20, and 22), so not little at all. I will try and talk to her about it, to be honest I think she misses toking up with me. (Though I can't imagine why, I'm much more outgoing when I"m not). She says she doesn't get paranoid (but I don't really believe her, I just think she is better able to manage it). For now, though, I'll stick to getting high in my house, with my sis or by myself, and only smoke with others if I'm not going to get seriously baked. I am so going to buy that game, by the way!
You will LOVE the game! It is so simple you can learn to play in less than 5 minetes. It really seems like you have more control or the situation than you think. Talk with your older friend about it. She probably wants someone to get high with. Sorry I did not realize her children were older. But realize I only have limited information. If you are still concerned about them give details. Environment and interaction are key for you. You control where you smoke and who you smoke with. Have activities ready for awkward situations. Do not smoke with shady people. You are not even close to the guy who could not go out in public when he was high.
Thanks, you're so nice. I'm working on my relationship with all of them, but I think it's better that I don't get high around them all the time during this process. If I do get high with her it will only be every now and then, and I will try not to get baked. I will definitely bring that game, it sounds like something they'd be interested in.
Im sort of like that now unless Im going to hang out with friends, I just think everyones fuckin watchin me. And I get fuckin paranoid. If I see people coming down the street I always turn away so I dont have to go by them, I dunno why. I think I've just made myself go crazy beacuse Im scared Im gonna accidently sell to an undercover, But I know that wont happen because I know the people I sell to. It's just weird lol.
After sometimes thinkin' about my cannabis use, I've made to the point that I wasn't being paranoid... but something close to it. I've been smoking for 7 years, for 4 years everydays many times, like 3.5g per days. Pot wasn't all. I would drink almost everyday, not a beer or 2, but atleast be drunk one time everyday. I did LOTS of hallucinogens and did some speeds, coke and xtc for sometimes. I've been in 3 drugs rehabs and 2 therapies. So I guess the major issue of being "paranoid" starts here. I'm concious about the problems I had and could have. I know my familly don't want me to go back there, nor my girlfriend. Even know now I just smoke maybe 2g a week... I don't know if I hate it or dig it. You know, I've been high all past years and to me being sober is a different state or feeling that I didn't know... being clear, fast minded, feeling great energy, feeling confident and strong. When I smoke pot and feel so fucking loud and heavy. When the high is over and you get that down feeling that's when I hate the pot. Don't blame the herbs, I only smoke the finest, I know weed better than myself. I slowly became addicted to sobriety but I tend to remember how I used to love to get high. I just dig the vibe because it matches my personality, I look stoned when I'm sober too sooo ya know, it's just part of me. I think I'm just over connected to my fears of going back where my life is just one fucking big high that I surf in and I don't want to scare anyone that I am a bum again. I'm not sayin' that you are a bum if you smoke the herb, but me smokin is like smokin too much weed all the times, quit the job, quit the responsability, don't want to pay the rent, just go live outside, don't take care of myself, my nutrition, my sleeping time... you know I love weed more than I love myself when I'm a active smoker. About being paranoid, the only thing unreal is I think that everyone knows that I am being high and I feel bad about it. Could be fun to hear some from you about it Unknown american
Okay, you have convinced me there is a need for a Paranoia guild for stoner. Since this thread focuses on stoner anxiety I will open a thread on hard core Paranoia for Stoners. It will be up later tonight or early Thursday morning.
No I am going to put it here. This thread is in the Paranoid section so I see no problem with it being here. If the mods want to move it they can. I will put a link in the Marijuana forums to this next post though. It kind of covers both areas. Will post it in a few hours. I suspect it is going to be a long thread. There is lots to cover as it is a vast subject.
