so damn bored

Well, yeah, I understand most of that. I'm usually atleast a little buzzed. I've been smoking for so long now that I can do anything while stoned. I like the fact that my life is in a daze. I simply enjoy a buzz on Cannabis more than being sober. If I had to quit for good I would, but I don't think that reason will ever come along.

Music is my life, so if I can't do it for music, I'll settle for being nothing at all. Music is great for a guy like me, not only because I love it, but because you can be on drugs whenever you want and as long as you perform, it's not an issue. I have a classical guitar teacher that is so obviously coked up all day, but he's talented, and he does his job well. Suppressing issues is a problem, though. I haven't been technically depressed for many many years, so I don't have to deal with that, but smoking helps me deal with the stress when I have a bad job. Like I said, though, I will never accept a job outside of music again. I'd rather be non-existent on this planet, honestly. I'd rather slip from this mortal coil never to be seen again than lay cable for 10 hours a day like I used to do. There are times when self-discipline does come into play, though, like not smoking before something out of a sign of respect. I didn't get high before my sister's wedding, or prom, or anything. I also didn't get high before I went to work until I started teaching guitar. Some things are just a bad idea.

Although, they say you grow out of drugs around age 30 on the average. You just mellow out naturally, so if that comes along, I'll certainly be done with them. I follow my heart. "Sex, drugs 'N Rock N' Roll,... take out the drugs and you've got a lot more room for the other two." - Steven Tyler. We all know just how fucked up he used to get, and now look at him. You don't pass out at a show by being sober, lol. They say Robbie Krieger used to trip acid before he went on stage (wow, just wow!) and now he's sober. lol You just end up like that. If you do enough drugs you mellow out and are naturally high all the time. My dad is bad ass like that. Look at the guys who spited drugs in the day when they were grand, and look how they are now, though...still uptight and stressed out. I think drugs do naturally mellow you out over time, and you don't really need them anymore. I'm not so sure about Coke or Heroine, but the guys who used to smoke and trip are really mellow now without 'em.

 

i foudn something to do!! i was going through my our storage room looking for hoodies cuz its gettina lil chilly outside and i found my old wrestling toys that i used to make movies with. i said fuck this i can never be too old for this shit and so i set em all up and im bout to make a movie!

here are some pics

 

haha. I used to do that with my KISS toys. They were like 12 inches tall, and the stage was like 2 feet. That was pretty killer.

 

hell yeah man i love using fire crackers..

i KNOW you were using some heavy fire crackers playin with kiss guys..FUCK YEAH PYRO!!!!!!