self conciousness

Maybe plane. but I'm driving to TN in June for bonnaroo. I may go visit friends in NY and after that I would have no excuse not to drive all the way to Canada. got my passport and everything. That would be dandy.. we'll see how wealthy I'm feeling.

 

If you make it all the way to NYC, it's about a 7 hour drive to Toronto and 9 hours if you came to crash at my place. Megabus sells tickets from NYC to Buffalo for $70 round fair.

Bonaroo is 17th June?

 

Something I noticed is that you said you "feel" fat. There's a difference between feeling that way and being that way, actually noticing a change in your weight. What I'm trying to say is, fat can be a feeling when say, you're upset about other areas in your life at the moment that maybe aren't under your control. For some reason, women especially, will then say they feel fat. I don't understand why really, but I know I've felt that way when I'm having difficulties in other aspects not even related to my weight.

Hang in there sweetie, that "feeling fat" thing doesn't last too long usually. You'll be back to your normal self before you know it. In the meantime, treat yourself to something that makes you feel good, boosts up your confidence, because girl, you look great!

{{{Hugs}}}

 

Y'know most people do have albums you can check out to see what they look like.

haha.. I can actually picture that.

I call my brother fat. I asked him once if it offends him and he said it won't until he really is fat. That's cool since I only say it to thin people. I do it to my friend too, she laughs so it's all okay.


Anyway, Jess, if I'm self conscious I usually try and leave. It's only with other people around. I could look a mess, and I often do, but without anyone here I don't care. Nor do I care about family. A secret now, because I figure most people will have got bored by the first sentence and won't read this. I have long hair because I'm self conscious, covers my boobs. It sounds stupid but it does help. Actually my hair is very helpful, usually I just touch my hair, put it behind my ear or my face or something which gives me something to do. It helps.

 

i feel that way 99 percent of the time. about being fat, about being unproportional and unsymmetrical and all that shit. it really feels so good when you don`t give a shit at all, it`s so reliving

 

Yeah, GG, you're probably the fattest chick in Eastern Europe.

 

only in the hip area no bitch can beat my marks , so fuck off :cheers2:

 

I always feel fat. I could have ribs showing and still feel fat.

 

my ribs always show. but i think that it`s not necessarily to look fat to be fat. clothes hide many things. that`s why i never eat from 8 in the evening to 8 in the morning.

 

That's a myth. Calories are calories, it doesn't matter when you eat them.

 

My ribs show somewhat but I'm actually at an ideal weight for my height. I'm not underweight. I wear a size 4 in clothing and many days, I still feel fat. But I know that I'm actually not. It just tends to be worse on days when I'm either PMSing it or when I'm upset/overwhelmed about other issues.

And of course, if I've overindulged, I feel fat immediately afterwards. Or if I had too much salt and I start retaining water, or PMS bloat, oh, that's a winner. It's hard for me to leave the house then because goodness forbid my clothes feel a little snug that day, I'm bawling my eyes out, I'm damn hysterical. Ugh.

 

maybe..maybe. but those are 12 hours without food, and your body automatically burns them and considering the night time is the time that it does it best i think there is great logic in this.
but again maybe i`m wrong, maybe i`m not. but i trip too much about those kind of stuff, so it`s not very well to listen to my bullshit.

 

That is a load of crap. You're more likely to gain weight with that because when your body doesn't get any food for 12 hours it starts storing the fats it has. Like a survival mechanism, it's not sure when it's gonna eat again.

And need I remind you that you look like this?

 

Said in the true style of someone with an eating disorder.
I wouldnt have a clue if you do or don't though, so don't think I'm saying you do have one.

I'm size 8. I'm well proportioned, I'm happy with myself. 3 meals a day ftw.

EDIT: Mojos right.

 

well eating disorder no because i eat quite normally , but i am disordered in general about they way i see myself.
anyway, i am just perfectionist. i hate having flaws , at least not big ones.
but i already said it i trip to much over these things.

 

Do sizes in England run smaller than American sizes? I'm pretty sure they do, but I'm not sure.

6 meals a day FTW :cheers2:

 

3 meals a day here, one snack.

 

isn't that whole eating before bed thing a myth?

 

No, because your metabolism doesn't work that well when you're sleeping.

2 hours before bed is okay, I've heard.

 

oh yeah? then how come i keep pissing the bed?