saying goodbye to opie!!!

I bleed for you...I've tried suboxone..threw me into hard withdrawal instantly...what a joke. But, there is a pain free and fast way to get off and NO cravings afterward. It's called Ibogaine. It's a hallucinogen from a bush in Africa. It's illegal in the States and Belgium but, there are clinics in other countries all over the world. There are several beautiful ones in Mexico and they even offer a guarantee! 36 hours and your brain is "reset" to its pre-addictive state painlessly and no residual cravings. Is it any wonder that its illegal in the U.S.? It works..big Pharma's nightmare. The only drawback is the cost: $3-5000 not including airfare. But, it will save me that much in couple months worth of use. i've been addicted to codeine, then percodan, then heroin, and then methadone. Been on methadone for the last 20 f___ing years. The withdrawal is sooo monstrous and lasts sooo long. But with ibogaine I finally have my prayers answered. My usually stingy husband is all for it. I'm excited and scared at the same time. We leave for Mexico in 2 weeks--I'll let you know the outcome. But, folks--there is a real answer. Opiates are like playing with fire..so fun and feel good at first and then it's just scrambling to get enough to feel normal. I am ready to just feel normal without scrambling.

 

Please let us no how it goes. I've researched univalve a little but there's alot I stuff I don't no. It'd be great to hear your personal experience with it so I'll be looking for you. Good luck wish u all the best!

 

Methadone for 20 yrs, Not sure how anyone can get off at that level without risk of death. But shes right, If a procedure was legal in the US with the ability to cure opiate addiction in 72hrs, to include the mental addiction afterward, I would be throwing big money at investing in it!

 

When I researched it their was a small number of deaths. Can't remember the percentage that died but it was small so it is possible. That's why I need more info however I don't wanna die the number didn't scare me.

 

Well SIA, I sincerely wish you the best of luck brother. Keep us up to date on how it goes. I was fortunately to have jumped after only 7 months. Not to say it was easy, but in the grand scheme of things, it was minor compared to alot of folks years deep into it. But in my mind, it was a major step for me. Tomorrow is end of week two, Energy is slowly coming back, Im back to full exercise level. My weight has bottomed out at 64lbs lost, and now Im putting a tad bit back on, so far about 2 lbs. Im also beginning to step up a tad with weights, so what I put back on wont be completely Fat only. Good luck to anyone jumping off. I truely believe its doable, and I take it a day at a time. Mental withdrawal is not quite here yet. I do make it a priority to avoid situations that dont remind me of using! God bless!

 

Well to anybody out here listening I had a birthday yesterday and ended up around a bunch of people I didn't need to be around. I haven't smoked pot in probably 6 months. I gave it up a while back trying to get cleaned up. Well this dude had some dank azz chit and next thing I no I was ripped. If it ended here I'd be cool but it didn't. This lead a quest where I ended up railing alot of opana's. That's how easy it is to relapse people. Damn, I've worked so hard to get clean for about 2 or 3 years now. If I haven't hit rock bottom I don't no what I've hit. This happens every time, I make all this progress and get thru the worst of the WD's and slip up. I always thing I can manage my using now and keep it under control and NO I can't. This is a fact and I no it. I woke up today just really mad at myself and ashamed. I've told nobody A's of now, so I figured I'd tell y'all to get it off my chest. I no I can't use again and I need to stop this before it escapades into full blown addiction again. So I need to start all over right now and admit what I did to the people who need to no so I can continue to get the help I need. I no what I must do and it's not the end of the world.
This is something I had to admit to. Any and everyone out here listening thank you for reading my thoughts. Addiction is a bi*ch!!!

 

SIA, Listen brother, you are gonna be successful, I feel it. Don't let this speedbump get to you. That is how it works, as you know. Beating yourself up isn't the answer! You've got it in you to do this, but its got to be one step at a time, one day at a time. I know you know all of this, but its worth hearing it daily if you need it. Im here and also willing to PM you my cell if thats what it takes to talk you through the hard times. At the same time it will help me as well.
Getting away from friends who use is fucking hard. No two ways about it. But hear me out, any friend who is true to the friendship, wont use around you if you tell them whats up. If they wont help, then are they truely friends, or just friendly when everyone is using? I choose to find myself some different friends, although that was easy for me because I only had a couple who use. But to continue to hang with peeps who use, is gonna make this harder than hell to accomplish. Help yourself out and make a lifestyle change. Its tough, but when you do, man it makes shit easier.
Im no pro at this as you know, but I know whats currently working for me.

I had to make an emergency visit to the dentist yesterday morning. I had a tooth that felt like it exploded in my mouth. I got there, he numbed me up and found that i had an abcess tooth. He yanked it. When we were done he handed me a script for 40 10mg Percs. I handed it back and asked him to give me a script for 5 of them, telling him i just got off 30mg Roxies. I never thought myself capable of that. When i jumped I was taking 45-60mg for a dose to get me normal. I took one perc last night so i could ease the painful soreness and I got the relief i needed. I havent taken any others, im just dealing with it with motrin. Being in possession of percs isnt hard, but what i found was that knowing i had them, its making it easier to stay away from em.
The reason i started Roxies was my back. It still hurts but what i do know is i find a comfortable position, stand up, lay down, instead of wanting pills. I take Motrin or some OTC stuff to try and help.
Stay focused brother, I believe you can make it!

 

The only reason Subs would throw you into hard WDs is because you didnt take it while you were in WDs. Taking it medicated on opiates will put you into withdrawals due to its non opiate properties (naloxone).

 

Hey bottlefed, I hope your doing good my friend. I haven't been on here in awhile since my relapse. Unfortunately I find that drug forums put my head in a bad spot. I always think more about using after reading here so I find it better for me to stay away. I am clean today and have been since my relapse thanks to God, subs, a great support system and my group counseling. I want to thank you for the encouragement that you've given to me. I can't get enough of it right now in my life. I'm going to send you a PM and maybe we can talk sometime, I'd like that.
Thank you again!
Joe

 

good work man!!!! keep going one foot in front of the other, and dont ever look back!!!!!!

 

Joe,
No problem man, whenever you want!

 

Hey Bottle -

I've been reading through your posts. Congrats! It must of took a lot of will power to hand the doc back that script of perc's. More power to ya!

So how is everything else going with you? How ya feeling??

 

Doing quite well actually, however currently i have an upper respritory infection thats kicking my ass, other than that, alls good!

 

No BS man - has the yearning started? I just asked because it always does to me - usually at about 2 - 3 weeks. Just wondering if - and if so how you plow through it?

 

Mental withdrawals are rough, I wont sugar coat it, it sucks. I still do some things on a daily basis that remind me of using, that seems the hardest to get around. Lucky for me, I dont know anyone really who I can get pills from. Today will be hard because Im going back to my old Pain doctor for a nerve block shot. I did one already and he asked me afterward if I needed a script. Knowing at the drop of a hat that he will write me one for 120 30s is so fucking hard to decline. Ive even found my self trying to rationalize getting a script from him for percs or vics, making myself think well those are harmless compared to 30s. Then I laugh at myself for the severe lack of logic that comes with thoughts like that. Unfortunately, there is no miricle cure, within reason, that gets you through the mental stuff. Just will power, and mine has been pretty weak in the past. Just get through the day is all I can ask for!

 

Amen to that Brother! Going to the Dr. knowing he is going to ask you if you need a script - and saying no - is beyond tough.

 

You got that right. I now have, in my hand, scripts for:

120 30mg Roxies
120 100mg Nucynta
60 10mg Methadone.

Now you want to talk about difficult? Lets see how long I can hold these pieces of paper without filling them, LOL.

 

Holy sweet mother of god!!! I have a script for NORCO 10mg and I feel like I have a plastic bag over my head til I finally fill it. You da man if you can do it. I'm don't want to know exactly - but did I ask you where in central FL you lived - I think I did but I can't remember.

 

I live on the west side of FL.

 

Hey SirItch - any update on how you are pulling through?