Random Thoughts Thread 004

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8LD2om64DsM



Saw this little heart stealer tonight on the television....adorable....

 

I could have been like one of those kids, but met all the wrong people, got off the track, made some bad life decisions and bad friends, and mistakes I regret and basically created a hell for myself, which finally I'm managing to dig myself out of fortunately. I know some of those people and are pretty sure they have no prospective future, as they are not as smart as I (drug addicts, and they're brain is pretty much fucked unless they can stay away from hardcore drugs for a couple years, but they aren't smart people to begin with and are completely hedonistic and have no interests in academics, or any interests period besides "I just want money and promiscious "risky" sex", they are fucked, and I am do not feel sympathy for them, as they are criminals and very unsavory individuals. I don't feel sorry for them, they fucked me, but at least I'm studying a scientific field as my acadmic career, these people are too dumb, they'll never make. Crash and burn, i'll be sitting back eating popcorn watching them fail, and make the same mistakes over and over.

Moral: choose your friends wisely, and don't make the mistakes I have which I regret deeply and wish I could change, but I cannot change the past, only my future; some life mistakes are are hard to fix. But I feel pretty good, I'm gonna have an academic career, while they have nothing, they are whitetrash scum, and I really would rather not see their face again ... I don't trust them and they are toxic.

 

Could have been?
You are.
I believe in you enough to know that it will be alright, whatever it is .

 

It'll be alright, but damn they make it hard when you fuck up. They raise the bar, fuck up enough and they raise the bar so high it's impossible to succeed. But I do believe I've made it, I'm in, these cretins would never be accepted in academics, because they have no interests in anything really except hedonistic pleasure, drugs and high risk sex. They couldn't meet the admissions criteria for any academic institution, some of the don't even have a high school diploma or GED. I don't want anything to do with people like this, they are not like me, they are manipulators, but hate me because they cannot manipulate me, and hate me because tjeu cannot outsmart me, but for some reason they still don't get it that I'm so far above their level that they are incapable of offending me, or manipulating me, so by attempting such things they are only causing them much distress leading them to make further mistakes because they can't keep their emotions under control, while I remain mostly indifferent (and they hate the fact that they can't bring me down) (some of these people actually think I can read their mind ... it's just because I know them better than they know themselves and I don't really know much about them, or who they now ... subtle cues tell lots, knowing things about them that they haven't told me, they don't understand what social skills are, they think social skills are having "lots of friends" ... social skills is effectively communicating with people and understanding people and how they think ... these people have poor social skills that I would describe based on their behavior "anti-social") So I had to cut ties with pretty much most of the friends I had from back then, because they really weren't friends at all, and the friends they think they have aren't friends of theirs either despite what they think, but these people never learn, they are completely cretin and perfectly content with it, which is fine with me as long as I'm not a part of their lives.

I don't even want these people to know I exist anymore ... they are dead to me, and I dead to them, they bring nothing but harm and trouble.

 

Who are they, and why are they affecting your life so much still?

Leave them behind and follow your own road.
Don't let anyone mess up your life anymore.

 

They are scum, and they aren't any longer a part of my life, most of them are in prison. It was a long time ago. I dont wish to ever see them again. I cut the ties years ago, they aren't friends ... they don't know what friendship is.

I might be willing to share more in private chat room, but not here. Some of the shit sounds so crazy that if you tell people about it they think you're nuts but it's true.

 

Let it go.
Reach for your life and happiness.
I know shit hurts and things can haunt and interfere,
But you can do it.
I will help you in any way that I can and I know others will, too.
You are loved.

 

Thanks moonglow ... I'm just happy really. I'm working to improve myself. I'm not worried about them, but I do feel some people betrayed my trust, and betrayal of trust makes one my worst enemy and I will not forgive, nor will I forget. It's not my problem any longer ... they never took me seriously; that's their mistake, not mine.

 

I am that way, too, so I understand it.
"Those that don't care will listen to rumors. Those that care, will listen to you."
I could fill your ears with horrors that happened to me,,, but I am all right, so I know you will be, too.

Trying to type on this tiny keyboard of a phone now.
Not the easiest thing in the world to do. Lol

 

I didnt realize I stayed up so late last night until looking st the timestamps of the posts here last night ... caffeine FTW (not for staying up late, rather being able to function after little sleep, and little sleep is pretty much everyday unfortanately)

 

29 out of 35 huge file chunks completed (upload speed is pathetic, I think they're throttling me) and sometimes it stalls partway through, until I delete the cookie, also sometimes it doens't give me the download link so I have to "retrieve it"... i'll write the script this weekend to unsplit the chunks. Too bad I can't write features into the script to automate the downloading of all these chunks, it makes you complete a turing test (CAPTCHA) ... exactly for this reason, to keep scripts and bots out :/

They probably dont like me uploading this amount of stuff ...

 

I certainly have noticed that IRQ42 is a completely different person who appears to have their shit together much more than ACE_K did.

 

IRQ42 is a different person than ace_k was ...

 

I just sent a professional email from my phone, then someone tried to text me right after that, so I had to respond to their text .. unfortunately the text was sent to the person I emailed professionally as I was still in the messaging for her contact email ... goddammit. I send another email letting her know that that last email was a mistake intended for a different recipient, my apologies. Luckily it wasn't anything "unprofessional",... uhhhhhh

I just hope she looks at the email I intended for her and doesn't mark it as spam or something because of that.

 

apparently I'm a student at two different colleges right now ... gotta sort that out before the semester starts.

 

What colleges? Harvard? MIT? Boston U? Virginia Tech?

 

Neither of the above, and I'd rather not say online. Closer to Virginia Tech than Harvard or MIT, though I do have a certificate from Harvard and am an alumnus of Harvard's CS50 class.

I'd tell you in private, just not on these forums. There are IRL people that would probably love to see me fail, ...

I will be dropping one of the colleges, I just got accepted at both, just to have a backup in case I couldn't get into the one I wanted this semester ... but I did manage to get into the university I wanted. It's not an Ivy league school, but it does carry some weight and isn't a community college or degree mill.

 

No worries....I understand and i wish you all of the success in the world...It is so great that you are going to college....YAY!

 

University ... to be pedantic.

 

Caught my first marlin this weekend, which was pretty cool. About 160 kilos.