(note time).....0200 appx. Hi Hippie Chick, Just saw this post, how's it going? You've been presented with a number of "rational strategies" here, a number of them can even be backed up with either empirical evidence, or logical inductive reasoning, or both*. (0530) As for me, I'll be "quitting again here hopefully a in a few days, I had gone 5 or 6 weeks before stress levels started pushing the envelope again and when I found myself cycling into major episodic crisis transit for the first time in over a 4 or 5 years, well I've had probably on avg one or two a day overt the last 7days, but 4 in last 24 hours, your about to see why. If it wasn't that my "copy/paste"function went south for the winter I'd make this a seperate thread called " Bipolar Ambush" and would appreciate it if a mod would see so fit to do so. (0215) *meaning that the person who offered the "strategy" may have intuited the strategy and been unaware of the empirical evidence that supports the point. Which by the way is a highly admirable characteristic and in my experience always is indicititive of "critical thinking" , which intern is an indication of a mentality that understands our fundamental ignorances, and knows to always be a seeker. Thank the "Mother of all Weirdness, and the Father of Quintessential Strangeness"*, for the "seekers". *My personal deities, as the archatypal patterns for "believing in gods, are so deep and powerful in the individual mentality, and the "coevolutionary" determined society in which an individual mentality must exist, that I find it unreasonable to exert the energy necessary to actively defy them, particularly as that energy is desperately needed to get ahead of the runaway manic response to the crisis state of bipolar disorder that has been deepening now for weeks, the landscape of mind attenuates, solid ground, stability narrows, the gaping maws of the various black holes of madness grow until all that is left are the edges. Gather every resolve, focus every energy ladd, and run, run the edges, high fast and hard, and whateve you do, don't look down. "Houston we have a problem..." ********************************************** (Hmmm dare I risk posting another general post on the nonexistance of freewill, and the means to break the chains that enslave us to our "nature". A nature that I cannot bring myself to call "human"; resultant, as it is, from "natural selection" (survival of the fittest in an environment with limited resources)((oh my, pardon me flight of ideas, can be bothersome,(but it also can be an opportunity to discover things that have not been known before. ) okay (0551) Run, Run, run, but only one course leads from this accursed land, careful lad careful, choose rigthtly at each "innercision" where fell edges meet then tangentially away. Edge runners know, one mistep, one momentary lapse of reason and the fall begins, a fall beyound all of hells horrors. (see my post "The End of "I"" in poetry, a literal description of the internal events of a mind falling to dis-integration) Focus, focus, focus, through the tears of 50 years, through the failures and the strife, even to the edge of life, focus lad, failure is not an option. Houston do you read?!...... (msg recieved from deep in the ill land) Good lady, good luck in all things and remember REASON is supreme. Bipolar is a part not the whole of mentality their judgement of incurable is "nonsequetor" and shows the psuedo of their science, would you cure extroversion??? bp may be resolved. The only way out is through. I think therefor I am, my mind shall be mine own!!!! May the gods have mercy. sine cera Epiphelion, First Knight, The Everquest a.k.a.
Quitting has not been easy but it is well worth it. No more buying smigs! Good luck with quitting yourself. Peace and love