Psychedelic Bump XXXIV

whatup psychedelic homies?

It's been a while

 

^hey!

Hey everyone. Thought I'd stop by. I'm spending my semester in the UK and it's been a blast. I live in a goddamn Victorian manor house. And I'm pretty sure I'm going to be doing LSD in the Lake District in a few weeks, with all of the gorgeous mountain scenery.. :afro: and I'll be in Amsterdam at the end of this week! Happy travels.

 

Cool I did not have enough credits to study in the UK when that offer came around for me. Wish I could have.

 

So I put a small wooden crate (labelled - Free, take one, leave one) with a half dozen books on a table in one of the student lounges here this morning. I am very interested to see if anyone actually drops books off, or if they all just get taken and the crate is left empty and then eventually thrown out by the custodial staff. One of the books has already been taken, so I guess that there is some interest, at least in free stuff, haha.

 

Cool - free book tables are always good - do you not have them there?

In academia here, most buildings seem to have an area like that, that often hosts everything from posters to scientific journals to new yorker to out of date textbooks to novels to people's art projects or supplies (my granite cutting boards are broken counter bits left by the art guys).

 

There are a couple of spots in some hard to find places in the school where professors often leave unwanted books and journals, but they are seldom visited by the majority of students.

 

buuuuump

Took a couple tabs of acid last night - strongest acid trip I've ever had. Watched the sunset over an English valley and it was superb.. I kept asking how in the hell can you take in all of God's creation? It was almost too much. I went to talk to my friend who is a religion major to talk about god, because I felt he was the only one who could understand what I was talking about. But that was only two hours in, and I didn't realize I had a huge mind-fuck awaiting me. But it stopped being smooth and I wanted to just curl up in a ball and sleep, but I knew that wouldn't be able to happen. I ended up watching Ru Paul's Drag Race (which was crazy funny) with my roommate but it was all becoming too overwhelming. I again saw directly into madness - a general trend of trypmatimes which I want to avoid. And of course this is all wrapped up in the constitution of my personality - but I had an agreement with God to never do psychedelics again because I am not strong enough of a person. It felt like a meeting of fate of sorts. I took 20mg of Valium to kill it, because I wanted it all to end as soon as possible before I sought out eternal sleep. I absolutely understand why someone would kill themselves while on LSD. Again, this is wrapped up deeply within my own personal situation.

I felt as if I had better leave up psychedelic exploration to people better equipped to do so, because there is a chance I might end up losing my soul. It was humbling.

And this all really just makes me want to further investigate psychedelic therapy & Jung & Heidegger..

All in all, being a human is quite a blessing, through all its heavens and hells.

 

So....what's everyone been up to?

 

Since last posting here I've tried AL-LAD 3 times, which was really nice. I revisited a few chemicals I'd tried in the past too. 4-AcO-DMT, 25-35mg doses. 4-HO-MiPT, 25mg - 35mg doses. 4-HO-MET, 35mg dose. Tried shit quality Acid and done Mushrooms (Cubes and Cyanescens and Semilanceata). DMT mixed with Mushrooms and other things.

That is all I can recall ATM. I have DOC but don't think I'd ever dose it, unless guys here have glowing reports as to why I should.

I'd like to try 1p-LSD at some point.

BTW I tried some RC called Diphenidine, and it was absolutely revolting. Orally made me very very sick. Nasally hurt like hell. But gave a small glow. I decided to finish the gram up my nose as each dose hurt less and less. Dunno if you guys have experienced this but at the tail end of a Dissociative binge Psys seem to hit much much harder. I dosed 20-25mg 4-AcO-DMT after I'd finished it off. Oddly I only had a 3 hour experience, but at one point I went and looked in the mirror and my clear skin was COVERED in white head spots!!! I'm talking 60+.... I was freaking out, I'm guessing my nose just let the Diphenidine seep out through my face. It was one of the scariest visions I had absolutely out of it on this weird 3 hour 4-AcO-DMT trip (all other trials without Diphen proved it to last normal duration). The trip itself was insane, people kept appearing in front of me I knew saying things with disapproval then the hallucination would disappear, this went on and on. Luckily the spots went after a week.

Has anyone tried Diphenidine? I checked the site who sold me it and it was gone after my exp, I messaged them why. No reply.... Wasn't like 'it's out of stock now'. My theory is a lot of people got ill from it like my experience. I knew I never should have dosed after the oral pain it caused, but for some reason I did as it insufflated gave a nice glow. High doses gave me visuals for 10 seconds similar to other dissociatives. then suddenly stopped. Weird drug. Stay away.

PS vaped moxy too while on a Psilocin analogue.

Also I hear of people who haven't broken through on DMT properly. Back in the day I used to do Dissociative benders and stay up for days on end. Sleep deprivation + Dissociatives = Psy trips much stronger so I've been lucky to smoke DMT under these conditions. You will speed through hyperspace, entities will morph and if it's a good trip they will greet you and talk to you in a weird language which makes perfect sense when it's happening, even though the sounds are languages that do not exist you can feel their vibes and even when they slowly disappear I could clearly tell they were saying goodbye, we will see you soon. The feeling after is utter healing, you will be blown away, first time it happened I laughed over and over in total bliss, then laid while my room glowed gold with a massive smile on my face, I'd hysterically laugh again, then ponder, then laugh till I feel asleep. It is truly mind-blowing. DMT has even taken away horrible comedowns from me before, it's healing properties are like no other I've experienced.

 

Yo dude, hit me up on FB if you see my message. Didn't know you were IVing Opiates. They could be the death of you buddy! Peace x

 

Two of my friends did 2C-P in the last 2 weeks... They dosed 30mg each, one crazy dude combo'd it with 2ce and 4-aco-dmt. He said he can't recall much of 24 hours, but it was pure insanity. Think he got impatient on 15mg and re-dosed early into the exp.

 

I posted several months ago that my life had taken a turn for the worse. What was going on was that my wife was sick. She passed away a little over a month ago. Though she had some pain some of the time,* her last months were good in many ways. You know how sometimes when you're tripping it's like love literally comes down and fills reality almost as if it were a physical thing. That's the way it was in those days. It was also a huge amount of work. I know I did a good job taking care of her and I'm grateful for every moment of the 54 years we were in love.

On 12/12/12 I took some mescaline. It wasn't a strong trip by any means, but sometime in the afternoon I was lying down and my wife bent over to kiss me. I saw her in all her radiant beauty. I was high on that (at least where she was concerned) for more than a year afterwards.

For me, some of the basic and interrelated lessons of psychedelics have been to be as present as I can be in each moment - to not waste my time (though truly, doing nothing is something worth doing) - to live as fully as possible. As I reflect on these past few months, I realize that psychedelics helped me to honor and fully support my wife through her illness. So yes, I am grateful.


* Hence my question awhile back re the dark net. It was looking like I was going to have to go outside channels for pain management, but we got to a good doctor and that problem was taken care of. The fuckers hardly ever make it easy.

 

sorry for your loss.. hugs

 

i'm really sorry to hear that about your wife, TM.

not surprised to read how you seem to handle the situation with grace though. i'm sure your wife was grateful for the time spent with you.

 

My (meaningless, I suppose) condolences. Don't know what to say.

 

Wow that's a lot p0ly! That's freaky about the Diphenidine causing all those white heads. Didn't think something like that could be possible.

How did you like the 4-HO-MET? It's been since July since I last tripped, but I plan on dosing once the summer starts and I was thinking I'd do so with 4-HO-MET. Still haven't tried it but I was always intrigued by it.

 

Poly, that sounds like a chemical reaction/allergy/irritation - probably not any meaningful amount of the drug being excreted through your pores, just a reaction to it's general toxicity or irritant effects.

I mean, your description of the experience makes it sound like your brain probably had it harder than your face - I'm pretty sure that's one I'd flush.

 

Small dose of 4-aco-dmt for me tonight.

 

4 ho met is one my favs..

 

Everyone tells me about how fun 4 ho met is, but I really didn't like it. I found it fucked with my head and I didn't like the body load.