Psychedelic Bump XX

I get this with MDMA as well, only lasts a few minutes though, and it's well worth it.

 

Thanks, CS. The problem is this: thoughts about other people's feelings about me directly affect the weed experience itself. I actually get lost in the paranoia and get nothing else out of the weed. So I have to do it in a way where no element of the social setting is going to interfere w/ my appreciation of the high.

In any case, I'm not talking about quitting weed. I still think it has value in my life, but it has to be used in a way where its benefits come to the forefront, and not one where it is just bumming me out.

 

Bump for a mega LSD dose on friday night.

So much I ended up with COMPLETE synesthesia... my reality dissolved, my ego dissolved and I created a brand new reality.

I died... my spirit was freed... I was tormented by my friends (in my head)... I met my god, she turned out to be my partner... i explored some crazy surrealistic worlds... I reached the higher level of spiritual reality. I lived "The Egg".

I think the "death" scenario was me fighting the death of my ego internally...

I had some very interesting yin yang, but heavily defined yin yang visuals going on... blurring the difference between life and death, but showing that it could kind of merge into the other... the borders are blurred.

After many eternities as time was slowing down... elongated as I was moving toward my apparent physical death... when I finally came to terms with it & it came time to let go... I realised that there is only one findamental force in this reality... only one thing that matters... love! As I came to this realisation, the face of my partner morphed into a helium atom, I morphed this helium atom into a ball and as I had my realisation at the same time as I was ready to let go... it birthed a new universe.

I wish I could describe the visuals... best way to phrase it would be ultra-reality... more real than real life. Ultra definition - absolutely stunning. Complete disconnection from reality.

We explored shared consciousness and discovered something wonderful... Telepathy is possible

I'm going to try and put as much into a trip report as I can.

This was simply the most amazing trip I have ever experienced. Some bits were bad / tormenting... I really thought I was dying, so that wasn't the most pleasant thing at the time... but the trip leading up to that and the realisations because of it - it was a phenomenal trip.

I took somewhere in the region of 1200-1400 micrograms.

 

Holy shit, TW!

Sounds awesome, congrats.

 

awesome stuff weat

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UzOaKcuAFnc"]Vacationer - Trip - YouTube

 

That's a pretty far out dose, Weat! I've never felt the desire to go that far, the most being in the ~600ug range, years back.

I'm not getting the vibe to write a proper TR on my recent 4 aces trip but I'll hit a few highlights since I kinda said I would.
I went over there with a very good friend, 2 doses of aces and two microdots, not knowing if the set would be conducive to tripping. We found ourselves on the west side of the island, rain threatening and decided to drop. It's fairly unpopulated over there, we pulled off at a turnout where nobody was and had an entire area, clear down to the beach, to ourselves. Hiked around, got the lay of the land, and dropped before heading to the water. I had brought 30mgs and 25, respectively, wrapped up in parachutes. Being the first time she had tripped in a very long time, coupled with something she had never done, she wanted to rip it in half, eyeballing it. I kinda thought she might not feel much, who knows if she had 5mg or 20. (i still have the little remainder but haven't weighed it to see how much she took)
Needless to say, my worries were unwarrented as she wound up tripping really hard. Afterwards, saying she was glad she didn't take it all while describing how visually, things kept breaking up into pieces and reassembling. This was our scene.


This is looking from above, where we first were coming up. After it really started, I told her "I need to go down there". Spent the better part of the peak sitting, looking out at this. Watching the storm come in.


We wound up starting the hike up out of there as it started misting, drizzling
which was good timing, as we had about 1 1/2 - 2 hours of rain, which we spent in the car, coming down and looking out over the ocean, having a pretty heavy conversation about our lives.
It was all pretty deep and emotional, we've been becoming closer over the years and this feels like it cemented our friendship pretty solid. I've always felt it's pretty intimate to trip with someone you know, this just reaffirmed that.
I'm going to skip most of the details. It made me really happy to share a psychedelic experience with someone that could appreciate it. The chance to do that has been a open ended offer of a gift for some time with her and I'm glad it worked out how it did.
I very much want to do a day with Lucy with her.

Funny thing on the way back to town. We're driving along a slow windy road, round a bend and there's a scenic turn out and a old beat up 4 wheel toyota, a guy hanging his hand out the window holding something. My first thought was it looked like raw fish in a baggie. Like sashimi, which my friend loves but I don't. I slowed and said that looks like fish, want some? She says "thats weed". No way.
Parked, went over and rapped with this guy, a giant samoan/hawaiian guy, huge smile on his face. I told him I wasn't needing any, but could i take a look. These colas where fatter than the fattest cigar you've ever seen, all the way across the length of a quart sized ziplock. Simply beautiful, exquisitely trimmed. Might have been thee prettiest buds I've ever seen:sunny:All round, nice trip, awesome company, lots of good food. Good to get away for a few days.

 

I resonate on a deep level with a lot of what you and Raga_Mala are saying. I want to comment just on the question of what to do. A lot of us have had or are having this question. I answered in part by going into a line of work where I've been able to help people. And I've worked on myself all my life. For example, I alllllmost have the anger issue worked out. Work-wise, it was necessary to spend a fair amount of time in school.

I think sometimes of things people can do in the life process of becoming - becoming - becoming what we can. For me it had to do with lending a hand in this miserable world, this beautiful world. I could have been a caseworker in an abused children's shelter, I could have been a hospice nurse, I could have been an oncology social worker, an emergency room chaplain, a public health worker, a nurse aide, a counselor, a doctor, I mean, the list goes on forever.

I could have followed my heart and been a guide or a ranger. I could have been a craftsman making beautiful furniture, a baker making artisan breads and amazing desserts (for the stoners out there), a landscaper - this list, the righteous work list, goes on forever, too.

I've done some of these things and when I was writing each one of them I was thinking of someone I've worked with or know. Really grateful for life.

I'm saying to you, if I can so can you.

 

Good stuff tastyweat, that's quite a dose.

 

Hello Voyage. Nice voyage! Funny how them magical things keep on happening!

 

I liked your post to Eggs and Raga. You're a beautiful soul TM. :sunny:

 

It was absolutely amazing... I'll be back to that dose some day... not for a while though... incredibly powerful experience.

There was so much to it... along the way I had to choose between my family and my partner... I chose my partner.

She was morphing into some amazing things, mostly following this defined yin yang motif... at some point she decided to start teasing me a bit & morphed into something very similar to firefox. It was morphing like vector art.

Normally the melting can be quite a bit of a mess, but this time is was so well defined, yet still constantly moving.

It was like an incredibly high definition, constantly moving/alive version of this type of art:




http://cdn.garcya.us/wp-content/uploads/2010/07/florretro-1024x877.jpg







After this bit of the trip came to a conclusion... was 4-5 hours in real time, I think... I went back to the group but in a more realistic world, yet my realistic world was morphing... things like liquorice laces were morphing into real worms, while the rest of the world was normal.

It was at this point I was able to see a friends visuals... and he had been seeing mine earlier - he described my firefox visuals perfectly... along with the high definition world I had created.

His visuals are lower definition and more cartoony.

He has an incredible amount of control over his visuals, he's far more experienced than I... he was putting text up on my TV and I was able to read it back to him!!!

We exchanged information telepathically! I loved this... I've always known that quantum physics allows for such an exchange of information... but I never really truly believed it was possible. Even struggling after our brief consciousness exchange last trip. This time... we were able to prove it, various different ways... various different bits of information - all communicable. Absolutely phenomenal... it leaves open so many more possibilities.

Another friend who was tripping with us also saw some of his visuals and saw my partner in firefox mode.

The way I died was interesting... as I got close to the final death point, time stretched out and out and out... kept elongating, til that final point when it just didn't exist any more. I was independent of time, living through countless eternities... living through past lives too. As well as a completely mouldable reality - some incredibly surrealistic visuals too - inanimate objects with massive grins folding in on themselves... stuff like that.

When I was in the void of the universal consciousness, the wealth of knowledge that rushed into my head was incredible... I wish I could have brought it back with me... perhaps in future. It feels like there is scientific understanding in there.

 

thats the way ah huh ah huh i like it!

What kind of blotter was it? Some WoW? Very happy to hear that you took a nice big dose and had a great time. I havent been able to get my hands on any really fire L since last year when I went to see Furthur near where I live. It was incredible to say the least. I ate about 100mg of MDMA and a little later dropped only one tab of some WoW that was super strong. I had my doubts at first as to the legitimacy of the stuff, having procurred it from a random head I started talking to but was hugely impressed.

I am now immersing myself back in one of my true passions. Psychedelic drugs. Got caught up in some nasty stuff but finally am over it which is crazy for me to even say/feel.

Hope to investigate some chems and more traditonal psychs soon. :sunny:

 

It was crystal - I diluted it in alcohol in a dropper bottle :sunny:

 

It's not that hard.
If he could weigh it out by the milligram the rest is easy-peasy.

 

I think acquiring the crystal tends to be the real difficulty

 

tastyweat, that sounds like a hell of a trip. even if i had crystal LSD...not sure i'd be up for a dose that high.

voyage, that is some beautiful scenery. i would have had to "go down there" too
glad you had a good time with your friend.

 

I'm jelly :daisy:

 

I had a dream last night.

In it... I was back in the universal consciousness... with the wealth of knowledge that comes with it.

I was chatting with the friend I connected with on my last trip... some deep conversations.

I wake up and start messaging him... he had the same dream... same visuals... same convos... same colour scheme... same 2cb-like sparkles. He thought he was talking to himself.

This is amazing... I want to tell myself this is crazy... but I'm just so excited this appears to be real.

We were in a cloudy void like this:

 

That sounds very beautiful TW. The gift that keeps on giving!