ok so im really freaked out

im not going to kill myself

i already told the voices that
im just unsure of everything

im going home this weekend and my friends have mushrooms

its going to be a bitch not eating them

 

they werent so much as voices as they were like

knowledge

it was kinda like someone was instant messaging my brain

i would just feel them talk to me

this sentence literally happened in my head when i started thinking about it

"maybe im just talking to myse-(oh you mean me?)" it was like another part of my brain interrupted my thought process before i could even ask myself a question in my head

and i would say a setence and my brain would just repeat the same sentence in my head but with different words


it was freaking me out

 

that's pretty terrifying man. it sounds like your psyche is splitting in two or something.

i woulda gone straight to a psychologist if that happened, just to hear his opinion. doesn't mean you gotta take him seriously or fill out that prescription for whatever, but just for an opinion from someone who's job it is to study and fix mental issues.

 

^Agree completely. People need to learn about themselves BEFORE they go exploring with these type of chemicals. As said before, it can bring up mental illnesses that have been dormant.

 

i dont subscribe to the idea that mental illness lies dormant, as if it were somthing uncontrollable. when an individual loses balance either within themselves or in relation to the external world they are accumulating toxic energy of sorts...or negetivity...or unhealthy patterns. (not sure how to define clearly) that ultimatly needs to be released and healed. i think mental illness is the result of too much of this toxic negetivity built up over long periods of time. mental illness = unhealthy thinking patterns that have built up until the point where they are oppressive and seemingly uncontrollable.

there is somthing to be said about genetics as well, but as far as i can tell this has more to do with an energetic exchange, and also growing up with, and learning from, and taking on the sickness ones parents have aquired. the sickness they aquired from their parents...ect. lineage.

i realize i have a different idea about mental illness than what the "experts" will say but id like to think i have one up on them, having lived through it in my past, later to heal those aspects of myself.

its not as if we are powerless against the instability of our minds. (or anything else for that matter) this is your trip man, its your planet, its your life, its your human expirience. youv got to own it. your in contol, whether you feel like you are or not. whether you want to be or not. you are responsible for yourself. anyone who wants to tell you otherwise is full of shit and is draining your true potential.

 

Archemetis i can tell you know whats what but others dont

for most of humanity their mind is their world

and when it starts breaking

the universe is collapsing

 

Better to get it out and dealt with then live your whole life with it suppressed.

 

i seriously dont think i have any sort of mental problems

im fine now but this kind of stuff only happens when i trip

 

In the Tarot, death does not always mean a physical death,

and you may be trying, subconsciously, to tell yourself to leave your old life behind

so that you can begin the journey that you were created for.

Just my 2¢.

 

I like that interpretation

 

Calm down! Were not alone in the universe

 

I want to give you a dose of the friggin obvious. Don't trip anymore. You. - Dr. this happens when I trip - Dr. - Don't trip.

One of my best friends had a really bad trip when I was with him - freaked us both out. He decided he needed to know if there was a God. How can you know? The only way is to die - so --- let's die and find out.

That was when I ran out of the room. It took him months before he was pretty much the same - I can't take Penicillin - He can't take acid. Just a fact of life. I had many more trips but he never went again. Peace & Love

 

It sucks when that happens.
Thank God that God revealed Godself to me before I went through the big one.
So what hapepned to your friend after those months? Any luck with the soul
search?

 

lifes subliminal dream

did you sort out the voices issue?

 

Seriously, the only obvious conclusion I can come to upon reading about your acid troubles is that you are simply not built for it, mate.
You usually come down and doubt your thoughts?! Well.. why?! Why not give your mind the time to process the information and come to what may seem logical conclusions; instead of brushing pieces of psychological insight aside with 'doubt'?!..
So that now, in this moment of confusion and possibly even terror, you're stuck contemplating your existence when you could be looking further and tieing up the loose ends of previous acid trips.
It's all about respect - for both the substance AND yourself.