KindWoman, I looked at your gallery a ways back and I liked your smile, I liked your expressions; you are sincere; and in 'listening' to you I sense that you're kind, and that you're deep. In reading this thread it seems clear to me that you are isolated from people that you can relate to, and that you are feeling lack of fulfillment in key areas. I can relate to this. Move forward, paced like a long distance runner; continue to set goals; remember the ascetics; convert the pain to good; meditate "as you walk". All runners feel pain and lack of energy before the next wind; pace yourself, love your self; practice being alone; continue to be Kind; use your energy with wisdom. I LOVE YOU, 23
you are attracting exactly what you are putting out. you label yourself as professional loser and that's what you'll be FOREVER until you decide to change. you project nothing but despair and negativity into the world and yet you're suprised that your life is filled with unsatisifaction? ha! my advice is to quit living in the past and especially the future. honestly, in this moment, right now, what problems do you have? are you breathing? is your heart beating? so what's the problem.... quit imprisoning yourself in psychological time.
Kindwoman, you were actually in one of my dreams for a brief moment the other night. We were sitting next to eachother on the floor with our knees drawn in, my right arm was around you and we were both looking at eachother's toes. It felt very much like what it might be like if we were sisters. Anyway, I just wanted to share that. If you've permeated my subconscious then perhaps you are sending out vibes to others as well. Make them positive and I truly believe you will ge getting some good ones back at you very soon. Take care.