Needing a man.

I have searched for couselors in our area. The only one that we could afford doesn't accept couples that aren't married.

I know I'll be stronger in the end. But it doesn't still mean that I don't want to sit and pout in a corner. I hate it. I want to run away and make him come find me.

I'm trying to be totally honest with all my feelings. I apologize for sounding immature.

 

You don't sound immature...not to me, anyway!

 

Moe, we all have immature thoughts, or at least I do. I certainly refuse to believe I'm the only one other than you. Have you asked local religious/spiritual leaders about free counseling? Also, try calling and asking the therapist DIRECTLY if he/she will take an unmarried couple. If it's important, completely exhaust the resource. You really need some third party perspective, face to face.

 

What you are feeling is totally natural~ I've been there & I know how you feel.
All the ladies here have given you wonderful advice and words so all I can say is that I truely hope everything works out for you!! ((((hugs)))))

 

He doesn't have to be prince charming just not Kermit the frog. I don't want a Picasso but I ain't painting by numbers. I want someone who'll love me and that I can love and that realizes that jokes are only funny when both parties are laughing.

 

Aww sweetheart...I'm so sorry you're deaing with all of this right now. I wish I had the right words to say to take your pain away, but in time, you will heal and things will get better for you.

You are not weak. From what I have "seen", you are far from it. I see you as one very strong individual, and I have no doubts that you will come through this, whichever way it might lead you, an even stronger woman.

Much love and hugs to you...

 

I'm so sorry! I know that you are scared because I have definitely been there before and know how you're feeling. I hope things work out.

 

baby girl. i love you. im sorry. love sucks. love hurts. love is great. life is rough. i dont know what to say but i wish i could give you all the strength you need.

if you ever wanna take a vacation and come here.... i will hold you and let you cry and talk to me and ill cheer you up.

i wish you the best. ive been there (with dan)... i know the feeling and it sucks.

 

Heh. I need a woman, does this make me a weak person?

 

We have decided to go with separate bedrooms for now and act more like roommates (with benefits of course) instead of husband and wife like we have been. He is talking to a few friends to keep his options open in case he decides to move out for a little while. That way if he wants to, he can just go, he won't have to worry about a place to stay.

It's a really hard thing to try and take steps backward to save the relationship. It doesn't seem right. But what we're doing isn't working so I'm willing to try anything, no matter how hard it is and he is too. He's happy with me having my own bedroom. I am too. I now have a space that is all my own that I can retreat to when he makes me mad. It's cute. I'm going to decorate it.

 

I think that sounds like a great idea.

 

We were really happy about it. We had a good afternoon and he tucked me into MY OWN BED (I'm loving this more and more every time I think about it) and I am comfortable in trying to take some of the seriousness out of the relationship. It's hard when you love someone that much and your relationship IS serious. But it's what we have to do.

 

see! i dont have my own bedroom and i wish i did at times! for real *jealous*

 

the mood of the afternoon was also lightened when he walked in on me masturbating in my room! Hey, I had to break it in.

 

lol! I hope he joined in! Man I miss having a guy right now. stupid hormones.