When my fiancé and I were living together, I confessed my HS/college suck buddy (almost 20 years before we met). At first she was shocked, but started asking questions. It seemed to turn her on. We started watching gay porn and she liked it. We started having MFMs with a straight friend.......it was hot. But after one such session she suggested finding a bi guy for a MMF that we could both play with. SWEET! We looked and looked, but never found the right guy. It will NEVER happen.
I've only been with one guy. A friend of mine. We are both married, known each other since being 20. We never in our entire lives considered same sex. Two years ago as we sat nude in my garage having a beer (we are all nudists) we were discussing how sex once was with our wives and how they aren't into sex much if at all anymore. As we talked of past sexual stories we both got a bit excited. It lead to us jacking off together. This eventually lead to other things. Been over two years now that we started. We don't get together very often. Usually weeks or months between. I think often of our next time. I enjoy it and want to experience more and more often. He on the other hand admits to enjoying it but I can tell his hesitancy and guilt. He has always been very negative against gay, bisexual and things as he calls abnormal. Now he finds himself liking it and can't get over the guilt and self shaming.
I understand his point and yours too. When I think of my past experience I think it was really wrong and not me but it was so much fun. I’m sure I would have the same issues if I had a regular but I’m another sense that would make it so much better because its not a random guy and it’s safe so what a good situation if you’re going to do stuff with a guy.