LSD and Spiritual awakening

I believe it's called Ego-Death. I remember my trip partner Brad on my couch walking me through my vision quest. He had offered to me the thought, presented it to me with such gentle force that this was my moment. That this moment, that was in itself all moments and one eternal instant, was for me and all of us. I basked in the thought as I looked around the room and to the clock on my right. As it melted down the wall I began to dance. I danced the only dance of my life. A dance for my life and in joyous praise of it and this holy place. I danced with eternal grace and as my hands lifted up towards the heavens and my body twisted into the spiral. When this moment peaked my body fell in two, my character deconstructed in every way. Everything that I had ever seen, heard, felt, sang and said were stripped from me and I was in pieces, on the floor of my apartment, at 20 years old, everything and nothing at once. The only world was the room. Beyond the walls and windows, vast nothingness, black. This was it. I came back to my senses, slowly but surely. I looked at Brad as he too had felt what I had just experienced, his jaw hung open. I stood back up and collected myself, brushed off the dust of myself, from myself and saw a completely different room in front of me. I was in the trip without a doubt but it was new and almost clean, almost surreal. Light flooded through the blinds and I stood anew, forged again. It's time to wake up, you have work to do.

 

This is also my journey, feels odd to actually say that to someone else but I don't believe we have anything to reconcile for and further more to what judgments and standings can god hold us to? As it cannot be mortal man's standards. I'm not any any way trying to denounce your journey if it comes off that way but just curious as to your thoughts being on the same path.

 

I'm saying that based in part on my own life and in part on having been with quite a few people at the end of life. The reconciliations I mentioned often come up at the end of life and before, hopefully.

I use the word, God; I could just as easily say the Sacred or the High.

You know how with LSD you've experienced something like going home - finally - to that place so new and so familiar in your self, your beautiful self? It's not a matter of judgments or standards or anything related. It's more like becoming re-United, being One (at last!), those sorts of things.

 

But you miss the point of life itself. It has nothing to do with anyone else. It's only you and your journey that matters.