I'm sorry I ever entered this thread. If you all are so miserable, do something about it. If you are unhappy with your life change it. Quit believing you have no control over reality, because things happen that you CAN'T control, but you CAN control how you respond to them. I'm not trying to be mean, I am trying to help. If you aren't happy with life, don't end it, restart it.
Feeling that you may die young is one thing, but actually having a suicide plan is serious and you need to get treatment.
taking a life is just wrong . but maybe at the end of life where there's a lot of suffering then maybe it might be ok but one should respect all life forms remember when you think you got it bad there is someone out there thats got it worse
I have my own plan and my time is drawing close. In the eyes of some of you it may seem fucked up, but to me, it's perfectly natural. I didn't get to have a say in choosing this life, I might as well have a say in choosing how and when to end it. Sorry if you disagree.
I've also had this idea since age 14 or 15 or so. I didn't see my life going anywhere then, and I don't see it going anywhere now. I always thought sometime in my mid-20s would be the end of it for me, and it's creepy to think that I'm closer to that point now than I am to the time when I started thinking it...
This thread makes me sad. All around me I see a lust for life, people taking chances, having the most incredible experiences, exploring their inner and outer beings. Taking your own life should be a last resort, not something you look forward to. Its not cool to be that fatalistic. We have free will and can change our destinies, our mind sets, and our environments. It just sounds to me like people are too impatient to go through these changes. Death is nothing to be afraid of sure, I have nearly died on a few occasions. You're only 19! You have barely begun your life. Your teenage years are tough, your body and mind are going through an enormous period of growth, and, importantly SURGING with hormones, which may very well contribute to your state of mind - taking your life is not natural. Its not all bad. Focus on the things you love. The bit in bold upset me more than anything else I saw on this thread. How do you know you didn't get a say before entering this earth?! Even so, life is a privilege - a gift if you like. It is up to you to make the most of it.
I actually remember the very first time I wanted to take my own life. I was 7 years old at the time. So it's been like 2/3rds of my whole life. The main thing that's holding me back how it would affect others, like my parents. Once about a month ago when I was on DXM, I was listening to the Beatles, one of the songs I was listening to was "She's Leaving Home," and the idea popped into my mind that the song was about suicide (in reality, it's not), and it just seemed so sad in a way -- it would be the most defining moment of my life. Not that my life has really changed externally, but I've only ever gotten positive epiphanies from this amazing drug.
Y'all can kill your selves if you want, I am no one to stop you... My life will end by my own hand but in the same breath I will live forever because death isn't real and no one will look at my death and call it suicide. Because the way I create, no one notices... that's how god works, baby... that's what they call magic...
Hm.... Well, i thought about suicide a lot in my teens, tried it a fair few times and failed, probably sabotaged by my own subconscious... But it all made me realise something, as long as I can walk, as long as I can talk and as long as I can set some of the wrong things I meet on my path in life right then I'd rather do that. I have been depressed for most of my life, from about I was 10 or so, currently in my mid 20's. I have had moments of happiness, yes, but they have always been overshadowed by the looming every day of despair and depression. Do i think i will die young? Yeah... but not by my own hand I reckon, hoping it will be for something worth while but not really fuzzing about it, cause... guess what... When your dead it dont matter, you might go to hell, you might go to heaven, you might become one with the cosmos or you might simply fade off into oblivion. But no matter how you look at it, once you take that last fatal step there is no turning back, no meaning that you can prove, no afterlife you can put anything but faith in... You as you are now will be gone forever. What you have is right here, right now, in this life, if life is so bad and so sad that you cant find the light at the end of the tunnel then it is is bloody well your responsibility to carry those burdens that others cant, cause you have proven that you have at least been able to do so up until now and someone has to do it for the rest to keep on smiling and laughing like everything was ok with the world. The burdens you leave on others and the general mayhem you are bound to leave behind is something you probably dont care about at this point but it's worth mentioning none the less. You have taken from this world for however many years you have lived and if you intend taking all of that with you in a mindless suicide you best do bloody something to repay the rest of us before you clock out.. For you, with your cowards sly smile I will break one of my cardinal rules and place a wish for the exsitance of the Christians hell, if it were to excist I'd deffinately end up there myself but at least I'd get to see your yellow ass burning with me. F you man. P.S: I do believe I detect a troll post though, sounds like a little emo kid having some fun.
i was actually talking to my friend about this one day. we were having a serious discussion on how we both felt that we would end our lives by the time we were 18. its been 4 years since then. we made it four more years and more to come. i do think that when its time to go, it will be by my own hand.
Thats what I felt like when a head full of painkiller did not finish me off and my work ethic kept me trudging to work after STILL waking up, dizzy and sick and still hating my life, its not easy to die you know, I have almost died at least 6 ways, theres usually a reason not to bother and none of the attempts thus far succeeded. Even when you run out of reasons to live in entirety because your pointless self is just, well pointless... May aswell face one more day, whats the damn difference to a corspe which walks?. Inner peace may not be yours, but damit all.. You sure as hell have tommorrows misery to hate with style!
You mean you have six pleas for attention under your belt? Seriously, "trying" to od on painkillers like a little bitch? Maybe you mean lame little bitch otc ones...... but people who don't want to die die from opiates every day. Take large knife in each hand. Hold each directly against your throat, the tips about a half inch apart sideways, and an inch apart up and down. Fall directly forwards. go get 2 ten dollar bottles of everclear, chug them both. You won't wake up. Find a spot with high speed trains. Lie your neck accross the track, face down in the ballast between the rails, body off to the side-it will cut your head clean off. Find a deserted highway with a sturdy stone or concrete pier, like a bridge, and run a car into it at a hundred miles an hour. Do a high-dive out of a high window, balcony, or roof-many office buildings have high lobbies with bridges that could easily do the job. Go find a heroin dealer, cop some dope, IV a few grams with no tolerance. buy skydiving lessons, write a note so that they know it was not the instructors fault and you just used them, and don't open your parachute. Go swimming alone, swim to the middle of a lake, dive strait down until you run out of oxygen, and then keep pushing until you must inhale-then still, keep pushing down. You'll be dead as a doornail by the time you float up. Make a plastic, airtight tent, and clearly mark it as containing deadly chlorine gas-then mix a large amount of ammonia with a large amount of bleach and sit inside. Suffocate yourself on N2O..... painless, and probably quite fun. Play motherfucking russian roulette. buy a keg of black powder, set a video camera pointed at it, sit on it, and smoke a cigarette, like a baws. It's SO FUCKING EASY. If you want to die, do it, stop being a little bitch and messing up people's lives, IRL or on the internet, to prove to yourself that they'll feel bad and try to stop you. I don't think you should die, but if you want to, stop bitching and do it. If, on the other hand, you want to live, stop making lame ass threats to hurt YOURSELF, of all people, and talk to someone. I'd be happy to share some ways to enjoy life.
talk is cheap. human beings are so damn fragile that i don't understand how anyone could fail at killing themselves if they had their mind set on it in the first place. and all this talk about setting dates for offing yourself is ridiculous. though it's a nice thought to think you're in control. gives you time to make amends and balance the books. but a much more liberating way to think is to assume that it's gonna happen when you least expect it. a fiery auto crash on the freeway and it's all over in a few horrible moments... you've got ice cream in the back seat that's melting and you didn't even call home to say you aint coming back.. but don't think about it too much. just get busy living or get busy dying
