January Shelter Of Random Facts XLIV

all this pantie talk got me in a shopping spree mood..

 

I figured I needed to put in my bid for Maly's panties before orison got around to it.

 

I love the high I get from shopping. I don't get to shop very much. Lol.

 

RF... went up to the house today and rescued my black leather vests. Put a few more things into storage. Still haven't found Ashley...

 

Sorry about Ashley. I know all this is very hard on you. :grouphug: Losing the animals is just too painful.

 

I just learned my dad's dad had a stoke and he is going to die. He has days at the most and there is practically a 0% chance of recovery.

He drank alot and spent the last of his days as a sad old man who lost his wife of 50 years and almost everyone he loved to alcohol.

My dad seems OK but.sad. His dad gave him his beer mug with his name on it in gold plating many years ago. My dad never drank a beer out of it, he always says he will drink a beer out of it when his dad dies. I told him to wait until I'm there to do that.

 

I'm sorry too, Ty. I'm sure it's painful to go back to the house and revisit the memories and the loss.

:grouphug:

 

Starting to get anxiety about the boyfriendhusbandthing making it home from work okay...

I used to do this about my mom working when I was little.
I feel so stupid right now.

 

why do u always have anxiety about him getting home from work

 

Fuck crosby and the pitts penquins

 

It's stupid, I know. I do it everyday around this time unless Im with someone. I've been on Prozac for anxiety before, it just made feel like shit and it never worked. I'm always scared he's either dead, or in jail. And I hate it. I probably need to start seeing a therapist again. Im afraid of being alone, I guess.

 

Aaaaand, he's home. Sorry guys. I'll try deep breathing before I post next time.

 

I mean like does he have a long drive home from work or you just worry that something bad will happen on his way home?

 

he works about half an hour from home. I worry something will happen, you hit the nail on the head.

 

Don't apologize. Posting on HF is better than getting on Prozac. So if that's what it takes...

 

I bought some underwear.

$5,000 per picture...I'm high fuckin class

 

<considers> That would be pics of the underwear, or of you wearing the underwear?

 

BFHT for short.

 

Thanks 'gizmo. I'm just so embarrassed by it when it happens. And I'm even more so when he shows up five minutes later, or whatever else I'm freaking out about clears up, making me feel like a basksetcase.
This stuff isn't so bad a couple months post acid trip. Maybe I'm due...

 

I obsess sometimes, and I feel like a basket case sometimes, too. Usually I'm pretty good at throwing myself against the walls of my cell until the demon subsides...