Wanting your life to have a value beyond your life is an exercise in ego anyway.You have made it to one of the early tests of patience and learning. I ask you... why should your life have more importance? Does a deer in the field care if they make history? Why be attached to importance? I think you will find your way through this.You will be fine.Find the joy in unimportance.
if there is no meaning to life then just enjoy it in whatever way you can. you only live once. i know this is easier said than done though
if theres no meaning to your life after you die, then make sure to get some meaning out of it while you live.