cut down on the porn and accept reality 'mmm do you like this shit baby!?? i'm going to suck your dick so hard baby!' ... :frown: don't expect this - people can be shy worried insecure or simply inexperienced. personally i feel your expectations are too high. it wasn't just your first blowjob but the first time she'd given one to you personally.
I was gonna say this, but I think it's already been said by others. It sounds like your expectations are like porn-level, and it also sounds like she wasn't fully into it or that experienced. Spitting and licking and trying to take control like you were is all porn theatrics, and not what you should expect in real life. Saying that she "pissed you off" makes you sound clueless and like a real ass.
Most porn bj's are totally unrealistic. I really dislike the gagging porn. Some chick with a bright red face drooling everywhere and getting ready to puke?! No. I used to have a g/f who had a tongue like a kitten. It was small (as was she), and she would just go around and around the end as she looked up and smiled. A pretty little blonde with perfect skin and big blue eyes who would say "it's ok if you cum in my mouth". Afterwards she would always ask if it was ok and ask for a hug. She was lovely. She would often walk up and ask if I was ok and if I wanted her to suck it. Oh! Other chicks act like they would prefer you were pouring acid on them, and start spitting and choking and run to the bathroom afterwards. That is always special. Another sucked like an industrial vacuum cleaner, and it was painful. My favourite is when they pull off, make puke-face, and say, "Ew, gross!" after you cum. It all comes down to attitude and a minimum of effort for me.
M..no don't get disappointed, the girl was not in any kind of mood from what i can tell...its okay though, because you are young and you shall meet many girls ahead that shall reverse your opinion. I am a girl and i also did not know what to do and how to do it, once; then it comes to the boy to lead; so you were correct in trying to guide her, don't think that this was a mistake like i had considered that a help when doing it, because i liked my boyfriend and i had wanted to satisfy him. You should find a girl that you will like and she will like you and once you go steady you shall both learn to have fun with each other. Communication is the key and if you both feel comfortable oral and so much more shall be more enjoyable and there are tones of things to feel and enjoy. You had a bad experience, that's all.
Don't give it up so quickly! Trust me, I'm with my lover for a while now, and over time she's gotten better, and I would say that she is probably close to perfect at it by now. It feels incredible, and it's even better when it's spontaneous. What a ride
Consider if you have a very strong grip. If you do you will have trouble finding a woman who can suck hard enough to get you off if you are used to masturbating with an iron fist. Vaginal sex may be the same unless your girlfriend is very tight. You may have to resort to anal. If you encounter resistance from your girlfriend just explain that she doesn't suck hard enough, or that her pussy isn't tight enough, and you just need to use her ass instead. I'm sure she will be cool with it once she understands. If not, just get a new girlfriend who is interested in your needs.