In Complete Silence

I think a lot about existence in general, my future, the past. I try to come up with realizations about people, or try to think intensely about something that has been on my mind a lot at that given time. like what would be the best way to do this or that, the best way to approach this or that situation. is something that's been getting to me deep down, really even worth it?

I love taking walks and just thinking. I do it almost everyday.. even though all of the shit that goes on in my mind is completely pointless. It keeps me sane I think.

If I was stuck in a room though, I'd probably want a book. Not that I'm not comfortable with my own thoughts.. but thinking and walking is great.. and sitting in silence and reading is great... you know what I'm saying.

 

that i need bassive music or i will lose my sanity!

 

like this, fucking awesome
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TUAZwf7u0Ow&feature=related

 

that does not sound like fun. i lived with a dude that would sit in our living room in the silence with no lights on for hours. i only asked him about it once and he said he was just thinking. i thought he was fucking nuts.

lately i'd be thinking how much fun it is to not have to sit in silence. for all the shit, fuck it, ya know?

 

i would think about loads of things, depending how long i was in there for. every day stuff, trivial matters, my boyfriend, my family, the enviroment, birds, the sea, the sky, existance, food, drink, sex, escaping.

i like being alone to think sometimes. not to sure about in a room like that, i think i would go a bit stir crazy. but sat on a beach. that's nicer. or walking for miles.

 

If I'm alone in silence it's probably because I want to think.

So I think about life and love and hope and faith and hate and why we're here and...

That kind of stuff Reserved for silence.

 

when i stay in silence, there must be something wrong with me in the specific moment. before few days a neighbor lady came knocking on my door furiously telling me her whole apartment is vibrating and she is going to call the pigs if i don`t stop the music
in most of the time i really like loud atmosphere around me