i'm so lonely so i'm whining to youse about it

im so lonely as well...

and the worst thing is, im surrounded with people:/

my 5year relationship ended recently.. and i just miss him and miss him..
and am so lonely...

and im so afraid of being lonely - or on my own -- i just go out, almost every day, with friends and some random people,
and i get drunk and i have fun,

but in fact, i'm lonely.

and then im home, and i am just afraid i will be lonely,
and so i go out again and again,
and i came to a point when i cannot afford all this drinking anymore..
so i dont do my shit,
i have plenty plenty of important/very important/fun things to do,
with my self, by myself, for myself

but i have no time,
or no focus,
coz im out in bars all the #$" time

....
what should i do?
how do i cope with the idea of alone/lonely

it sounds weird, but i have this almost panic fear of being alone...........

 

youse!? it's youlls!

 

tits

 

hej diamond,

i was thinking..
if your bf is your only friend.. maybe you should really utilize this time he's gone and find some new ones..?

depending where you live.. and i see you are skint, so its a bit harder.. but maybe if u try to volunteer in some organization or email some old, long lost friends from school...

 

One thing you could do is try to find out where your fear of being alone comes from. This might not only help you get past the fear - it might strengthen you in other ways, too.
My experience is that fear indicates a part of our being which is crying to get attention. So go and see what part of you this is.
(Hint: Fear of loneliness may well stem from a time in your life when you were small and therefore very dependent on others - but were left alone. Experiences like this cause wounds which tend to remain engraved in us - until they are one day brought to light - and thus can start to heal.)

 

well,
as it often turns out,

writing of this post acted as an... therapy for me

after i wrote it, i kind of saw it in a different perspective so i pulled myself together...
and i spend almost two week evenings at home, wroking on my stuff)
alone

good one, aint it?

true, it all our fears draw from other fears.. like my panic disorder and stuff(

but.
im doing better.
not ok, but better...

how r u ppl doing?

 

you are everything you need..
hang in there..

 

haha. my boyfriends been back a while now. although chances are he's off again in may. but i got a new job so im not so down about him going as my time will be took up and working shifts means im out the house most of the day. and i get fed there. so i may not become a skeletal wreck by the time he gets back next time. and once hes done this tour he wont be going again for a few years at least. i will miss him loads though.

i had my good days and bad days of being on my own, but i guess thats life. i think i'm more mature and indepedant from having the experience and if its possible i think i love and appreciate my chap more than ever. and cherish every moment of our time. we rarely fight now and seem to have reached a real period of harmony together. plus i passed my driving test and can get about now.

quantum, im glad you found writing here theraputic. being alone isnt all that scary really is it? i was never scared on the loniless, just lonely without him, if that makes sense. he's my world really and without him its all kind of empty. but i got a new camera now and a car and a job and so i have more in my life. i dont need other people to be happy....i just need him and nature really. and some good music