I'm So Fucking Lonely

When I was on my spirit journey, the spirits of Hendrix, Morrison, and Nowell all told me this!

 

Sex has nothing to do with my depression, it's hormonal issues that I really don't have the money to deal with right now...in time that will get fixed...hopefully. I don't even have a sex drive anymore and I'm only 28, but I'm fine with that because sex has always been overrated to me anyways.

I don't have any friends anymore so I took care of that problem, except the one who has been having a lot of health problems, I'm trying my hardest to be a good friend to her and help her out, but it's really hard to offer emotional support when I'm emotionally unstable myself.

I will get over it eventually, just needed to vent. I really appreciate your feedback.

I may have it better than some people in some ways, but in other ways no I don't have it better than others. Not going to get into that one though whole other story and issue.

 

25 to 35 is prime breeding season though. You've lost your friends, your friends have lost yheir friends as well though, too busy, too tired to do anything anyway. So it just seems that way

Give it a couple years, when their kids are bigger and it will be back on again. Although more so dinner parties and wine tastings rather than nightclubs and frat parties.

I know it seems otherwise, high schools done, everyone matched up, things slown down, but its more about the breeding than settling.

Unfortunately around the same time they get past the seven year itch , which leads to a lot of other weirdness which will mess with your head, but no use going in to that, you have to see it to believe it

Anyway depression is just a chemical inbapance in the end. You dont have to feel depressed to be depressed. Sex doesnt have anytging to do with it? Hormones, endorphins, all thise triggers in the brain are related. Low libido or not wanting it can screw with that inbalance as much as not getting enough.

28 Lesbian and no kids, pretty much every straight chic is going to think thats becuase you've 'chosen' sex over everything elsel they wont say this to you, but just assume. Having the majority of evryone else think that, throw in the odd bitchy little comment, when you couldnt really give a shit about it, also messes with your head

 

Yes, this is true.

 

Ahh Haa!! I found a couple of xanies I had stashed away for a rainy day. Down the hatch! In about 30 minutes I'm not going to give a shit!

 

:love:..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3W6hBI1SAL4&list=PL62A7202EA6F3A233&feature=mh_lolz"]David Gilmour Marooned - YouTube

 

Man that sucks Mayqueen.

Maybe we'll hang some day and have some beers.

 

Omg, I love you Orison!! <3 My fav.:love:

 

I am always down for some beers! :2thumbsup:

 

Here, have a cyber hug. :love:

 

Aww thanks Logan5

 

That's Otis Redding, "Dock of the Bay".

Makin' songs out of sadness.

 

Thats mean..... She doesnt care it sounds like,I try to be loving and compassionate to anyone but most do not understand...... (I would offer a hug to anyone to try and make them feel better if they were crying,etc)

Even though the world sucks and hasnt treated me good,I TRY TO SHOW LOVE BACK!! (Its the best we can do)


Im so sorry buddy and i hope you can get happier soon!


God bless,peace and love to you

 

Oh my gosh...I can't even read the rest of the pages without responding, but I will read them after this. What you need to do is find a support group and get out and do something meaningful to you... check to see if there is a local www.theicarusproject.net group near you or someone in your town who would want to get together and do something creative.

Another thing you need to do is address your girlfriend and your friends and make them understand...send an email of a supportive article or video or write a letter, but somehow you gotta let them know it is not okay to insult you, it may be all in fun games or out of frustration or misunderstanding, but if they really care about you they should make it their business to try to understand and be supportive. You need to give them relevant information about what is really going on with you and prioritize your mental health and let them know this is serious.

If you've been together for 7 years and your girlfriend is not supportive, she may have some mental health issues herself or a serious lapse in judgement...that is extremely insensitive.

I do understand where you're coming from. I just moved to the other side of the country, live in a town I can't get around and no one here gets me, and I left my relationship of several years. To top it all off I have tons of responsibilities, taking care of my kids and doing freelance work trying to build up my business...but I also HAVE to put my mental health and physical health first. They go hand in hand. You have to determine what you want and find a way, one little small step to get started on that... you have to do something good for your physical body too, it's like an anchor for your mental health.

As for therapy...see if you can find someone to help you for free or someone you can do services for in exchange. It could be a therapist, a life/health coach, a spiritual counselor, a teacher of something you're interested in, anyone who could be a mentor and give you guidance that you have respect for and you can tell genuinely understands and wants to help you...you have to reach out to find people like that, but they are there...martial arts instructors, etc.

Send me a pm anytime you want. I have about 8 years experience helping people build up mental health support systems and transformations and I was told I would be on anti-depressants and anti-psychotics for life and I'm 7 years free of them...doing pretty well if I may say so.

Okay reading pages 2-4 now.

 

Lady, I think you're missing meaning, pure and simple. Is there something you'd rather be doing, because you sound bored? What do you do for a living?

 

Only way to get out of feeling lonely is to, deal with it until it passes, and get out and fix it.

 

Thank you for your kind words, I'm going to add you as a friend

Oh my god yes, that is what I am missing. My passion used to be music. I still enjoy it very much, but some days I just seem so uninspired. I go to school online for music production ( I'm anti-social and I work better alone) I have been looking for people who want to just jam, but every one I meet is so serious about performing. Most of my current "friends" are not musically inclined at all. I'm thinking about putting an ad in Craigslist to find some people to jam with.

And I don't work at the moment because I go to school. Full Sail University is a very intensive arts college and I have Wimba sessions (online lectures) at all hours of the day and night. They do this supposedly to prepare you for the music industry.

 

Being a musician myself, it sounds like fun. I also wish I had someone to jam with. I've been musically inclined all my life, but, like you, somewhat challenged in the social networking department, so I became an electrician instead. Now, in retirement, I'm playing more, with people. I head for the local bar sometimes to jump in with the bands that play there. Once having heard me play, I've never been sent packing.

 

I'm in a similar boat...creativity is golden... see if you can just play with some kids or teach someone by just simple jamming...though craigslist is a great idea. I left all my instruments on the west coast and haven't put it in my budget yet to justify getting another guitar, though I really, really want to.

Another recommendation...find the books Van Gogh Blues and Coaching The Artist Within by Eric Maisel(or any of his other books)...these books are so useful for creative people, find them at the library.

Where in Florida are you, btw? I'm in GA and definitely planning to move to FL when I can.

 

Ive been alone so long I dunno what it's like to not be