Im honestly.

Im thinking of getting through the bible at least that would be achieving something i want to do. But truth is i have no plan at the moment, at the moment i feel hopeless, hence why i made this thread.

 

That's good. It's the start of a plan. Are you thinking of hurting yourself?
Is there a health center on your campus?

 

Check out the Tao Teh Ching, or The Analects. Much shorter than the bible, yet much more inquisitive about the world and all existence for that matter. I've had to read the bible probably around 4 times....it's got amazing parables etc...but most other "religious documents" are far more beautiful and deep. I felt the Koran was like reading a LONG poem....much more "beauty" than that of the bible.

 

Nah im not going to kill myself, its cool i just feel hopeless, im not going down that road, just for my family, my cousins dont need to know that their older cousin offed him self.

 

Oh i definatley want to get through the Tao Te Ching, but the bible comes first, hey its two religions in one, what can i say?


anyway heres your pic of my fucked up knee, im drunk so it was hard to take.

That bump forcing its way through is pure bone... hence why i cant be knocked out.

 

Yea man, that's too bad...I know first hand how much it sucks to have bad knees, so whenever I see another with em it kills me....I'll send some positive chi across the world and hopefully that'll help.

 

Think thats bad? have a look at my left hand

 

I dunno about your depression, mine is really based mostly on my insecurities, I conquer those, in theory, I'll be happy.

 

Well it is one thing to be unsure of oneself it is another to hate oneself and the world even more...

Dave you're not like me, be happy you're not. Your problems are your own and they are different but you still have your innocence, at least from what i percieve, i know i could well be wrong.

 

Ouch ouch ouch

 

Yeah i know... unqoute that now please...
P.S.
thats the hand i dream about cutting off, not because i hate it because it would cause a lot of relief on my shoulder...

 

but, I do hate myself and the world around me.

I hate that people are so incapable of meeting my expectations, but, in reality, my expectations are so high because of my fuckeduppedness, I hate myself because I do not use the gifts I have been given, because I am less than I should be, and I feel revulsion when I see the choices I make to stay this way.

I seem innocent, because I need to, I have quite a bit of darkness, but sharing the greater part of it seems pointless, it seems artificial when I am capable of containing and understanding it. I approach problem solving in a different way than most people.

 

You're an awesome guy Dave.

I think if we actually knew each other we'd be good friends. I to have high expections of myself and the wolrd which always fail.

 

I suppose I should either join the club, or have you two admitted in to whatever club I'm currently in.

Is it wrong to expect, or at least hope that people could treat each other equally though? These "expectation" if they are at all similar to those of mine, aren't wrong to have, if anything they are good...(to want good to happen to people), it's just that when you begin to realize that the majority of people in this world could give two shits about someone they don't know it tends to have a saddening affect on your thoughts.

 

I'm curious about this hand now.

 

its gone, just ask stinkfoot, its all fucked up...

 

He'll never be a concert pianist.

 

This is true... now leave me to wallow in sorrow.

 

some of us do step away from the computer to do more than sleep..
as entertaining as it is to sit and watch someone bitch and moan about how depressed they are and what a raw deal they have gotten out of life i still have chores that have to be done when the weather permits..

 

I'm jus' gone go assume tis bad.