Im honestly.

I think it makes them feel wise and superior... they pretend it is brutal honesty.

 

You're not causing me stress-at all. I just know how you feel.
I know in the past the student health center was a lot less intimidating than shrinks or dr.'s. Just something to think about.
Also, you're mid semester. Almost another semester of college done-what an achievement! You have so much to be happy and proud of.
But, if you wanna experience your mood and be depressed for awhile, that's okay too. I have a lot of rainy days even when it's not raining.
*big hugs*

 

I dont have my results back yet, but i think i went really well, i just have to cross my fingers and wait.

Im not sure how else to explain this so i will just say it again, i dont feel i have any control left over my mood, im not sure why and yes it does feel weak but this is what i am experiancing.

 

Could be just unable to convey to you what they really meant but the root of the meaning was the same. Stages in life lead to different emotional states of the mind. We all have had and will have future issues in life. Your dealing with yours right now and its a real bitch for ya right now, totally understandable. Belle seems the most eloquent with her words.

Sadly all I can offer is hang in there, when it looks bleak soon there is something that changes and then you feel the past was less serious than you thought.

 

i read so much financial news it isnt even funny,i have been studying this for 18 months now,every since i heard that the bilderbergs said in there 2006 meeting they were going to wait till september 2008 to let the bottom fall out and right on cue look what happenned..

is there a conspiracy?? at this point i find that irrelevent.
whats coming cannot be undone and it will be harsh..

i dont care who listens,i dont care if im looked at as a nutcase.. this is going to happen just like september came and kicked it off..
yes the dollar will no longer be the global currency,yes our banks will be nationalised,yes there will be power blackouts on large scales,food shortages and a insane amount of crime in the streets. america will cease to be a super power and we will be plunged into what gerald clelnte termed "the first unindustrilized nation ever"..
our way of life will never be the same when all is said and done..
we will drag the rest of the world with us for a period of time whether they choose to believe or not.

its all out there in black and white written by people like roubini and celente,no tin foil hats on them..
dont believe it if ya dont want to,wont be my problem..

 

Hey man, thats something i can appreciate, if people want to give me advice, im not sure why it cant be as simple as that... im not sure why 'people' want to judge me if it doesnt work for me.

So cheers YNB, ill take that on board

 

I feel like I don't have any control a lot of times and do super destructive things to make me feel in control. i need to learn it's okay to be out of control...I don't know how.
I feel like my life is always Neap and Epp, black and white, one or the other, crazy or sane.
I take somecomfort in knowing everyone feels like this at times.
Are you on the quarter or semester system over there? I can't wait to go back to school. I am starting grad school this summer and am aso excited. Grades always gave me validation.
jobs...make me feel crappy about myself.

 

yes that was after i overcame being a junkie (among other things),but the first step and every step there after was knowing it was on me and me alone to overcome my demons..

ive came a long way from the child who left home at 15,most of my coming to grips with things was done by the time i was 21 or 22 though. afterwards i may have been a alcoholic but i pushed on and put my past behind me..

as i stated before,you never forgive,ya never forget but dwelling on it and blaming it for everything wrong in your life is a cop out and accomplishes nothing..at least thats what i believe to be true..

 

Its the end of first year, i start second year after Christmas, im not sure our (Australian) system is exactly the same.

I quit my job because of the way i've been feeling, i just couldnt do it... i think quiting cigarettes this week hasnt helped my emotional control any and i always find birthdays depressing.

 

take some acid and meditate on just how peaceful and serene your life could be if you let it

 

Thats your experiance dont put that shit on me just because you believe it is true, at least now ya have taken down some walls so i can understand a little bit better why you seem to resent me.

Really, you can judge me as much as you want, the issues i have brought up is just to give some understanding of where i am coming from, every one has been too busy giving me advice to be bothered understanding how that all relates to what i am feeling now.

Truth is though, i dont really care what you believe, im just arguing with you because i am one sad man, at least i can admit it. HHB, if you've dealt with your problems what are you doing putting down a depressed 22 year old on the net for hours? and if you say entertainment then we've opened a whole fresh "can of worms".

 

hhb

you are a god damned genius

I just had these realizations

 

That's awesome that you kicked all the habits you did. i don't know too many people who can do as well as you have, especially with alcohol. You just went and quit.
I just hope you realize that other people have different chemical make-ups than you do. Also, Xac is choosing not to abuse substances, instead he wants to not feel depressed and walk his way out of this instead of being numb.
I've done both, used substances (I still smoke weed to aliviate pain/anxiety and I consider than an addiction) and walked out into the world again.
I guess what I am trying to say...in a really long-winded way is that it would be nice if you could respect other people's processes and emotions for what they are, and not how they relate to your own.

 

i am not judging you or putting you down. i am telling you what i know to be true..
once again you dont want to hear it so you percieve it that way,thats not my problem,its yours..

 

Dude...do you not see how awesome you are? Quitting smoking sucks. Of course youa re going to feel like crap. My husband gets depressed around his b-day too. I'm not going to go into why I think he does because I don't think he's ready to know or acknowledge it yet, but it's common, especially with men.
I just can't believe I am talking to a 22 year-old in college, who just quit smoking and a job he didn't like AND can't appreciate all of his accomplishments.
I eally hope this is just a funk for you and not clinical long-term depression because you really sound like you have it all going for you man.
PS-I can't wait to quit my job...need it for a reference so I have to stay until we move...6 more months...

 

Yeah right, as sure as you are i am having a pity party i am now convinced you're full of shit and trolling me.

According to you i am a whiney ass, who could never appreciate others suffering, that should isolate myself to spare others from having to deal with me... give me a fucking brake you liar.

 

I rarely get complimented for quiting a job... but you have given me a warm fuzzy, you are a super kind person.

P.S.
Didnt you once tell me my soul was black?... well now you know why

 

Sorry if I was hurtful int he past. Sometimes when I am going through super bad times I am unable to empathize with or be kind to anyone...I should have known something was going on. I am not all that intuitive for being a woman. My mom always said I had a 'man brain'.
Quitting a job is like buying your freedom...it's the best feeling ever to me. Only thing better than quitting your job, is quitting your job and getting unemployment!

 

No thats ok, you saw my nasty side SE thought he could psycho analyze me so i did it right back, it was vile. i wouldnt expect any normal person to react any different.

And yet for me 'benefits' make me feel like a slave, what a funny world.

 

earlier in this thread you admitted all the above .. i cant very well be judging or attacking when you have already admitted that is exactly what you are doing..like i said,i am just stating what i know to be true..