Every day has been pure torture. I'm trying to see the unfortunate events as being mind over matter. But that just causes a major anxiety attack... And, apparently, xanax is a controlled substance and I can't get it OTC, nor do I have the money to spend $5/bar on the street, when I'm going to need a surplus amount of bars. Plus, if I had any money at all, I would just buy me a nice fat ounce. That's more logical than the benzos.
Replying to the original post, lol, sorry for the confusion. We had some dry times up here oddly until my friend died. And she was referred to by many as the "weed queen" so I think she's helping us out, lol.